im spamming my team blog.wow..i think its the first time i did soo many postings in a month.im normally so so lazy.to the point where ahzan must go school whack my head and ask me to postohwells.carol! dont call me ahmua~~~even the yuan2 chuang4 zhe3 wuzan already stop calling me leok fine she still calls me but not like. TAYMUA~~~~~~~=.=i dont know why im spamming so much.haha.maybe after you spend like that much time in the library you practically go bonkers.and you should have seenthe queue today!i really didnt know amk library was so popularlikei was worried i wont get the table and the library opens at 10amso i went there and reached there at 950then i walk walk.i look left look right got one or two ppl walking beside me..then i look through the window abit empty.so i was like"hmm notbad not bad." then i turn right see the front door i really dang1 chang3 "ohmygod!" jaw drop three inches canthe whole front door like bu4 jian4 liao3 can!all i see are herds of ppllikereally o.o ohmygodSO MANY PPLand singaporeans being kiasu....the door open only everyone rush to squeeze through that tiny openingyou really feel like smacking your face with your hand and going"omg so disgraceful" can..then go in everyone start running like headless chicken.run upp run to cafe run to everywhereand i figured i wouldnt get my spot if i didnt walk fasterso i walked faster lor.and then someone stepped on my foot.=.=i got a table!so happy.where i always sit.yayness~i plonked my chem and maths book on and placed my butt on the chair and went "phew"everywhere was full and you could see "raffles fencing" or "raffles tshirt" or "cj jackets" and obs tshirts everywhere you went.kinda fun to study in the libraryfor one you wont get distractedand you dont have to eat your lunch at a FIXED time.but thats badcause i disregarded mmy stomach until..it growledlike@-@so. i decided i should really not starve myself.and that i really deserved my lunch.so i went for lunch.at 4plus!=.= so late~~then go back..study study chemthengo homei clocked in another ten hours today!you know after ive studied so much these two weeksi have concludedthat even if i dont get what i want or i even do badlywhich i hope will not happeni shall just be happy and go play like crap.then drag wuzan along to burn all our papers tgtwheets~got this from darling de blogoctober o6^^ to help de-bore me..SECTION 1- YOUknown as: muachee/darling/laopo/ahmuaborn: 17december~Hair colour: black?brown?eye colour: same as my hair. whichever it is. but i havent really seen anyone with BLACK eyesSECTION 2-- HAVE YOU EVERHad your heart broken? hahaHad a dream come true? nope not yet. SECTION THREE-- CURRENTLY..wearing: jeans+tshirtlistening to: pu3 ton1 de4 ren2 by chenweilian. sadlocated: living room..should really be: studying.SECTION FOUR-- DO YOU..have any piercings? currently no. but i pierce each ear three times le. haha when i poke it again next month i btr make sure it doesnt close updrive? no.. i want to! daddy wants me too to. so he can stop being the family chauffeurSECTION 8- DO YOU..like to give hugs: yepp. ask zijin and eening lor!like to walk in the rain: YES YES YES! look at what happens when i see puddlessleep on your side: yah. Have stuffed animals: my cow!!!! always beside me since the day wuzan gave it to meeeeSection 9-- This or that (pick)pierced nose or bellybutton. HAHA no.MTV or BET: ah? o.o7th Heaven or Dawsons creek: nah.. i prefer the nine o clock show on channel eight!!! nice!chocolate or flowers: chocolate!colour or black and white: black and white.stay up late or sleep in: stay up~~hot or cold: cold~sun or moon: moonleft or right: left10 acquaintances or one best friend: 10 best friends! haha. one best friend enough le..winter or fall:winterhappy or sad: happy. iwish.wonder or amazement: wonderSECTION TEN: firsts.first screen name: _______(fill in)first self purchase: my first cdfirst pet: my four terrapins! <33>
SECTION 11-- last time..
you cried: hahahahha someone hurt you: very badly? i dno. i guess i fall into depression myself one.
SECTION 14: would you rather.. 1. be serious or funny? depends. dude. 2.drink whole or skim milk? HL milk la.. magnolia.. anything.. dutch lady also drink. HAHA i think i drink too much milk. 3. Spend time with your parents or enemies? parents
Section 15: do yyou prefer...
1. grey or black? black lust or love? love~
DONE!. haha i tag wuzan. <33> HAHAHAHAHA
imcompletelycutoff. forgotten. itsnotthatiloveeatingbeehoon. itstheclosestthingtohome. towhereifelthappy. imisssafratoo~ iwannagoeatpaomianandtrain. andistillhopetoseethedmthere. sofoolish. iwannafindsomeonewhoissadlikeme.andjustbesadtgt.haha.. causetheydunderstandthepain.thatnooneelsecan.
okayy.so i didnt see the last sourceAHHHHHHHHwhat the hell la!cries cries-that was the stupidest stupidest stupid mistake i ever made in an examHUMANITIES SOMEMORE ohmygod.. =[[seriously if i didnt do well in anything i would still want a pretty little mark for my humanes. garraiya.nvmstill got THAT LITTLE LITTLE LITTLE bit of hope of doing well^^prayers to the people in yangonall the shtupid crap they face=[[sad leh..see from tv read from papers already sad.sigh.oh.yah. i have decided.to collect all my exam papers!and then after teachers go through the freaking exam im gonna burn all of it down.ALL OF IT.every single bit of test paper.i thought korkor was crazy last time but now i understand why he wanted to burn his too.just that he is too lazy.I WILL DO IT. yes.i kinda feel like crap right now emoing everywhere.i think emoing is not not not helping me at all.@-@not my fault wat..oh wells.for all the shit we all go through.freaking idiotic.anw.everyone i know.. pass your promos.everyone i know that knows me.. pass your As/ eoys / blahblahblahdont step over my head cause you think you can.look down at what youre stepping on and you'll soon realise its not my freaking headbut your stupid face.get that.youre idiotic
I'm With You lyricsI'm Standing on a bridge I'm waitin in the dark I thought that you'd be here by now Theres nothing but the rain No footsteps on the ground I'm listening but theres no sound Isn't anyone tryin to find me? Won't somebody come take me home It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with youI'm with youim looking for a place searching for a face is anybody here i know cause nothings going right and everythings a mess and no one likes to be alone Isn't anyone tryin to find me? Won't somebody come take me home It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with youI'm with youoh why is everything so confusing maybe I'm just out of my mind yea yea yea It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with youI'm with youTake me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with youI'm with youTake me by the hand take me somewhere newI dont know who you are but I...I'm with youI'm with youI'm with you...what more do you want a 14yearold to do.what more do you want from me.what more do you want me to say.youve taken everything.everything i ever had and felt.what more do you want from me.WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM MEEEsigh.still waiting for someone to take my hand and walkawaysomeone. with that much courageto slap me awake
this post is dedicated to all those annoying ppl in my lives. i kiss you goodbye.
shameful hyporcites make up 1/5 of the ppl i meet everyday. these ppl are really horrible cause they go around hypocriting when and expect ppl to like. believe them. wells. haha everyone studies humanities right? so there. to all the shameful hypocrites in my life. kiss goodbye~~
for the fourth day today i went to amklibrary to mug and mug and mug RAR zijin says im a mugger. really meh. then you should see how the other ppl around me mug. that shuld be crazy. haha zijin guess what time i left the library 7.30~~~ HAHAHAHHAA 1030-1930 9hours~~ haha but still didnt finish bio RAR left excretion and respiration CRIES
ok. i self confess i study like shit buttttt thats so i can enjoy whatever retail therapy and activities i have after exam with a frigging piece of clear conscience see i dont study cause i want to. comeon who will?~ okk fine. some crazy ppl will. not me la...~~
no matter how hard i try how struggle i face to climb back up theres always setbacks dragging me further down into the pile of stinking mud. seriously. im not surprised if one day we all hold hands and jump off the building tgt ^^ wad a homely scene. hai. lets just prepare myself to be a. ah nvm..
im sick of this rubbish. can you just shut up. seriously.' it just all turns into anger and makes my blood boil. pls just do me a favour and let me go. GETTIT. cmon lah. at least if you dont give a hoot about me then just dont give a hoot about me and leave me alone. for goodness sake ALONE. RARRRRRRRRRRRRR ok -cancels.-
anws. to another annoying group of ppl: today was rather uneventful at the library thank god haha well i was at amk hub waiting for my bus when ahem i happened to be queuing right behind two youthful ppl who thought that they had the right to display their affections in public. like hello? who in the world will wear uniform, carry bag, wear nametag, and hug a guy who has his hair dyed like golden black brown in public. no offense with the hair dude. comeon la you want do dont do in amkhub, during peak hours, and in the bus interchange queue. its damn digusting esp when youre not even just hugging and the girl omg. uniform+nametag+school and you dare do THAT to a guy in public then your face flush so red. HORRIBLE. ok -skip that whole chunk above-
anw.. nevertheless these ppl only make up 1/5 of my life right! =] to the other eighty per cent of the ppl in my life.. =] <33!!! happy mooncake festival. and yeah. zijin eening after exam must do what we did last year. belated mooncake and celeb in the park again. =]] i like! haha' for now, byebye,.. jiayou for eoys ahmua love you ^^
tissue found a new meaning in life.no i dun mean by i found sth im living forim found sth like.a definition of sth in life.the definition of mug.MUGomg.i never exactly noe wads the meaning of tat word UNTIL.i mugged with lao-mua at amk lib todayokay maybe i can rephrase tat.i studied while lao-mua mugged.seriously the way she study is quite crazysearching and flipping through all my memories i cant up any one timewhen i studied as hard as her.oh man im a slacker.><oh and today is suppose to be A SPECIAL DAY.a day which the moon would eat too much mooncake and grow fata day where irritating little kiddos go around polluting the environment by burning stupid candles and lighting those damned lanternshahahahahahaha say until like i never do tat before like tatbut i remember i use to burn anything i can findhahahahahaau noe after u light the lanternden when dun wan to walk around with it anymorei will jus burn it.den light a lot a lot of candles togetherand have a burning ceremonybasically i burn any dead leaves/twigs/flyers i can find.oh plus my lantern.so my mum say my mooncake festival like become ghost festival like tat=.-like which ghost so desperate would accept my offerings of those rubbish lar can.i dun think i will be burning anything todaycos i realise im 15 already.yea..cannot play those stuff anymore><but anyway!happy zhong qiu jie to everyone out theremake sure u remember to say a bigbig I LOVE U to those u love okay!YAY.okay so i shall start here first..do i list out names?aiya okay lar but if i leave anyone out ritemus remind me cos today my brain veri tired.cos its quite nice to find ur own name on somebody's bloghahahahaha it makes me feel impt.and the love is general love* highlight bold italic *laomua laoham laomin laomeng ahrol ahning OMG MUACKS!!mishie daddy ahgu ahmei teomummy jacjac eunice yonghwang rubinmuack muack muack muack muack!!!!!eh i realise theres really quite a lot of ppland somemore i dunno who else is reading tis.okay simple.fellow beanKURTS!!TISSUE MUACK U ALL TOOOOO!!all my dearest senior from dunno whereeg. crappers like daxiang and hc gang.SO NICE TO HAVE U ALL APPEARING AS RUBBISH IN MY RUBBISH LIFE!!all my dearest juniors from dunno where alsoeg. our sec 1s + sec2s and those over the bridge alsoDUN WORRY I WILL CONTINUE BULLYING U PPL!!I NOE U ALL LOVE ME AS WELL =D =D to all those whom u noe tissue love u too..i no need to list u here lecos really a lot to list.but YAY IM SO BLESSED.oh ya oh yaPRIG DAMILY!!!!MY DI MY AHRONG-KOR MY DISTANT-BRO-IN-LAWCOME HUG!!TISSUE IS VERI HAPPY!!SO SHE DECIDED TO GO SLEEP.TERMINATED
lifes been not much different but waddhehell.. lets just erase that statement before i go all emo again well i really dont know who exactly is reading this blog cause i suspect many many more ppl are reading than i expected. wells. nothing bad nothing good just weird if someone reads the blog and goes off without tagging and you dont know whos reading ok la i do that too sinner~~
been hiding at amklibrary these few days been torturously tiring.. mugmugmug ='[[ seriously if i dont get what i want i will scream hehe..
i have promised myself retail therapy after eoys yesyes gonna drag darling along if she wants=] i need it omg.. im outgrowing and outgrowing you know its time to change when your jeans get a tad too short its also time to change when your shoe is too small and i want the belt, bag and yeah all the materialisticism been saving up okay~~not some brat who throws her parents money all over the store i really need to feel like ive got something anw.. oops. cancelcancel
ok i am veryvery sorry to the person who recognised me in the library imsorry! ireally dno who you are like *-* sorry!! you know i felt damn stupid. ohwells. cries i bet you felt stupid too ahhhh shit ok im sorry! see events like this only make you realise that you need to KNOW the people around you even if you dont know them LITERALLY. like at least know the people who hang out with your friends often. bad sign bad sign
anws horoscope said id lose mystuff today if i werent careful i didnt! wow.
ohyeah saw esther and kaiqi inthe library too strange i felt that i was the loner from nanyang who even GOES to the library to study. talk about homestudying.. got a table! yay you know the sense of accomplishment you get when you go to the library duper early? and then you get a table and then all those that arrived later than you dont get it! it is so.. fulfilling. ok nvm..
life at the library allows you to see stuff. like the hwachong-rg affair.. rfencingandrandomperson sitting on the couch..ahem.. and like the two cjgirls sitting beside me opp each other who were like playing with each others' hair.. and i realised they were not les-ing when a cj guy walk past and they went cute.. and the ppl and friends you meet at the library.. then theres the uber mug ppl.. the super free adults.. stuff like that makes you.. distracted yah la.. but still.haha
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im falling sick. yes keep popping panadol in =[ hope it will get btr~~~
anw.. ZIJIN AND EENING WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU TWOOOOO eight o clock already leh.... smack you. doublesmack you.
nothing much to say.. just. jiayou for eoys lor. yeah to everyone. =] then.. have a happier life? ^^ byebyeee
-terminated- bring an end to this neverending rubbish. bring an end, bring an end. slowly fighting slowly fightinglemme get stronger, once again.engulf the pain and change it to anger.let it build up, build up.then burn it.burn, baby burn.im SICK of you.stupid you in the mirror. so me, so you.stop making me mirror your hateful actions.im coming back with a vengeance.life was white and its now black.i bleed anger. i bleed anger.i ve GOT to recognise the shit environment im in and bloody strive in it.im sick of you sick of you.sick of tayshiing. sick of you. im gonna try hard.i know im tainted, full of anger.ive lost all that was in mebut im not gonna just ruin myself like thatcause im not a stinking piece of crap.im not gonna allow tayshiing to drive a car and run herself down.cause thats not her.thats not me.im not a piece of crap.its not the end of emonessnot the endbut to those ive promisedme, me and me, i'll fight one for you-- me me me
hahahahaha tissue is here again!to save the blog from the continuous emo posts..later our blog suffer from depression how?!ya.so rite..we must learn to PREVENT rather den CURE!yesh tats the point omg so smart.i think im so cut out to be a doctor..if i were to be a doctor i would go back to chinaonli tis way den china wont over-populatecos all the ppl under me die already.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAokay no tats really not the point.before we get to the point..i wan to comment on one thing on laopo's post..u noe about the grave part?den got the dying flower on top?HAHAHAHAHA OMG.if u change the dying flower into the undying flower..i think it would be so much cuter. o.Ookay nvm a bit pointlessOKAY NOW LET US GET ONTO THE RIGHT TRACKwad tissue really really wan to tok about today is rite..wait before i start tat i need to comment on hamWAH tat slow poke.today i was in her class waiting for herden she was somewhere in a corner in school but i dunno whereso i wait and waitand she slow and slowfinally i concluded tat ham should be fermenting by nowcos im quite confirmed tat i already fermented.den her classmate veri badme: eh ham ferment already rite?classmate: ya i think shes making cheese alreadyme: o.O cheeseclassmate: ya HAHAHAHAHA-pause to let readers get the mean part-okay any way tats onli a jokeso my laopo wont mindYAY!wait tis laopo refers to hamand i got another laopo called muayet another laopo called minminSTILL another laopo called mengmengoh no im such a big-flirting-polygamy-committing ANGEL~so happy HAHAHAHAHAHAto prevent any miscommunications from now oni shall name them with a lao infront and their name behindmua => lao muaham => lao hammin => lao minmeng => lao mengsai => oh lucky i dun have tis person as my laopoHAHAHAHAHAAHAHso rubbishim quite high todayso wads the point im trying to say.my point is ritewhen u can rubbishtake the time to rubbishdun keep the rubbish to urselfrubbish is meant to be shared u noe.if u dun share the rubbishden u will stinkand if u stinku will attract other pestsand if u attract other pestesU WILL STINK EVEN MORE.okay tats common sensebut wad im trying to say is ermcertain things are meant to be kept insidebut other things tat dun matter too much..explode them.if not u bottle too much up den finally when u explode u can jus fly to pluto-not-a-planetand cant come back anymore.=Doh and lao min went for BARLEH exam today i think she should have done quite wellcos when i was mugging maths in class she smsed me with a EH IM HAPPILY ENJOYING LUNCHbarleh!barleh is sooooo funnxt time tissue shall teach BARLEH too!EOY coming veri soonwan to rubbish also no time toits sth like busy until u wan to go toilet detoxify also no time like tatso rite..tissue promise that i will post more after the examsand all the best to whoever out there reading tis posthaving wadeva test or studying for wadeva subjectin wadeva school remember the undying flower?TERMINATED
WHY WHY WHY WHY DOESNT ANYONE SEEM TO FREAKING UNDERSTAND WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH SO MUCH SHIT WHEN EVERYONE ELSE HAS LESS SHIT IN THEIR LIVES WHY DOESNT ANYBODY FREAKING BELIEVE IM REALLY LIVING IN FREAKING HELL. WHY CAN'T ANYBODY BE TRULY CONCERNED. WHY CANT THEY STOP VENTING THEIR FREAKING ANGER ON ME. WHY WHY WHY. WHY AM I NOT ENTITLED TO ANGER TOO. WHY AM I SO STUPID AND DISGUSTINGLY HIDING EVERYTHING INSIDE CAUSE THERES NOTHING ELSE I CAN DO WHY CANT I SCREAM AT ANOTHER HUMAN WHO I "SUPPOSEDLY" LOVE JUST TO VENT MY ANGER WHY WONT ANYONE REALLY TRULY BELIEVE WHAT IM SAYING WHY DO I FEEL THAT EVERYONE IS THINKING IM EXAGGERATING WHY DO I FEEL THAT PPL FEEL IM JUST PMSING WHY CANT THEY FREAKING REALISE THAT IM REALLY REALLY SLIPPING INTO EMONESS WHY WHY WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WHY DO I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH ALL THIS WHY CANT I A HAPPY AND NORMAL LIFE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE WHY FINE. TAKE AWAY THE HAPPY I JUST WANT A NORMAL LIFE WHY WHY WHY WHY DO I FEEL ABUSED? WHY AM I SO STRESSED UP? WHY AM I SO MESSED UP? WHY IS MY LIFE SO SCREWED UP. WHY WHY. WHY SOMEONETELLMEWHY..... WHY MUST I FLY UP TO HEAVEN SEE FLASHBACK THEN UNDERSTAND WHY WHY CANT GOD JUST TELL ME SMACK IN THE FACE WHY II HAVE TO TAKE ALL THIS CRAP WHY WHY CANT THEY JUST LET ME FALL INTO A DRAIN AND DIE WHY CANT I EVER TAKE A REST WHY DOES IT ALTERNATE BETWEEN SCHOOL AND MY LIFE WHY WHY WHY WHY WAS I SO BAD IN MY PAST LIFE. WHY ARE THEY TAKING AWAY MY SHOOTING WHY WHY AM I FAILING IN PRACTICALLY EVERY ASPECT IN MY LIFE. WHY AM I SO MISERABLE. SO DESPISABLE SO DISGUSTINGLY ANGRY WHY AM I SO FRUSTRATED. WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AND WHY DOES EVERYONE SEEM TO HAVE BETTER PROBLEMS THAN ME WHY AM I SO FREE? WHY WHY DONT YOU JUST WHACK ME AND THEN GET OVER IT WHY MUST YOU CRAP ALL THE RUBBISH I NV THOUGHT I WOULD HEAR WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS VENT YOUR ANGER ON ME AND KORKOR WHY WHEN KORKOR IS IN CAMP YOU CANT BLOODY CALL HIM AND RANT WHY WHY ME WHY WHY WHY WHY CANT YOU JUST SLAP ME OR TAKE A BAMBOO POLE AND WHACK ME TILL I DIE WHY I CANT I JUST THROW EVERYTHING ELSE OFF THE TABLE CAUSE IM REALLY PISSED AND HURT AND WHY WHEN I GO UP TO PPL ASKING FOR SERIOUS HELP DO I NOT GET THE RESPONSE I NEED ITS JUST A SIMPLE RESPONSE THATS ALL WHY WHYYYYYYYY WHY CANT I CARE FOR MYSELF MORE WHY AM I MAKING MYSELF SO ANGRY WHY WHY AM I RANTING OVER HERE WHEN IM SUPPOSED TO STUDY WHY WHEN I PROMISED NOT TO TOUCH THE COM ALREADY I CAME BACK TO TOUCH IT WHY DID I GET INTO NANYANG WHY WAS I BORN WHY WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS SCOLD MEEEEEEEEEEE IM NOT SOME SHITHEAD OK WHY AM I NV A GOOD ENOUGH DAUGHTER/ADULT/STUDENT/CAREGIVER/RUBBISHBINTOVENTYOURANGER WHY WHY CANT I JUST BE A GOOD RUBBISH BIN WITHOUT ANGER WHY AM I OBLIGED SO PLAY SO MANY FREAKING ROLES IM YOUR DAUGHTER. IM NOT ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR BLOODY STUDENTS. WHY DO YOU ALWAYS ASK FOR MORE WHY WHY WHY WHY DO YOU THINK A S FALL FROM THE SKY WHY DO YOU THINK THAT WHY YOU ALWAYS SAY YOU "CURRENTLY" CANT BE BOTHERED WITH MY STUDIES BUT WHY DO YOU ALWAYS EXPECT ME TO GET A AFTER THAT. WHY DO YOU BLAME ME FOR DOING WORSE THAN THE REST WHY WONT YOU BELIEVE THAT MY CLASS IS REALLY SUPER SMART WHY WONT YOU JUST LET ME BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHY AM I SO FREAKING STUPID TO DO EVERYTHING YOU SAY WHY DO I WORK MY BUTT OFF TO GET MY RESULTS. WHY DO I HATE STUDYING BUT STUDY SO FREAKING HARD WHY AM I CALLED A MUGGER WHY MUST I WORK SO HARD WHEN PPL DONT REALLY NEED TO CAUSE THEY ARE SMARTER WHY WHEN I AM ANGERLESS AND "HAPPY" YOU DONT GET IT. WHY WHY DONT YOU JUST GET THAT IM FREAKING EMO AND DEPRESSED AND IN SERIOUS NEED OF HELP WHY DOESNT ANYBODY GET THAT. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AM I SO USELESS. WHY. WHEN I NEED HELP. NOBODY'S HOME.
okay lor.laopo and ahning decided to tag me with a quizso tat means im going to blog twice on the same thing?!TAT WOULD BE LIKE SO LONG.so tissue veri smart and a way HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAWAHAHAHAtat is to combine the 2 together!!okay tat dun really sound much smarter..1. person who tagged you was?my laopo and ahning =D2. your relationship with her/him is?- laopo is my laopo lor. actually i got like..4 laopos. HAHA POLYGAMY- ahning! who is supposedly my sis-in-law. but i haven use tat term for a long time3. your 5 impressions of him/her?- laopo? eh. shes tis piece of crapper who sometimes zihigh like crazy den sometimes emo like end of the world. hide quite a lot of things lar..but im glad i can be one of those who can noe wads happening. and erm.. i think shes a mugger o.O- ahning? omg lar i noe her since wad. p4? ya around there. so there isnt much impression to tok about.. she the like. can lean on type. but i dun wan to lean on her. pls lar my size alone can kill her.4. Most memorable thing he/she has done for you?- laopo. erm i remember tat book she did for me for my bd present. omg lar tat day i read finish den i cry. and a lot more. i realise i cry in front of her a lot of times haha. but i never see her cry before. at most the eye redred. OH WAIT. tat time sec 2 last day together with our MS YEO she cried a bit..i saw it.- ahning. hahaha im so guilty! yesterday i asked her to help me go general office to take key for the range den i went back home. HAHA OMG SORRY!! ><5. Most memorable words she has said to you?- laopo. quite a lot. her words always seem to make sense when she speaks. den after tat u go think about it its a bit weird. hahahahahahaha- ahning. oman. she everytime say i suck. EVERYTIME.6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?!- laopo? omg i will die. i have to stand and pose like zaizai/yanyalun and act emo omg. eh wait. i think i start calling her laopo already. oh no.- eening. didi! u noe i wont fight with u. =D7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on?- laopo ar? hahahahhaa actually shes okay. jus tat everytime we get together i will suan her den she will suan me. so vit c. hahahahahaha- ahning.. LOVE ME WHOLEHEARTEDLY!! didi heatbreak. ><8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?- both. i dun think they will become my enemy. the worse worse scenario is not close anymore i think. if it really happen i think its quite. erm. i dunno. its like losing 2 of ur impt frens around u.9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?- when they wan to be my enemy.10. The thing you desire to do most for her/him would be?- laopo. i wan to make her happier and less stressed. but theres nth much i can do to help her also..- ahning. dunno leh. her life is still quite good. and i cant really like. ya nvm.11. Overall impression of her?- laopo. a bit fake strong. hahahaha but erm. AIYA THOSE WHO ARE MY FRENS ARE ALL ANGELS- ahning. ahhahahahahahaha i think shes a crapper. o.O12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?i dunno lar. and i dun wan to noe as well. especially those negative ones. HAHA SO EGO. no lar really. if they love me as a fren den most probably i love them too. those tat dun really like me..i think its quite none of my business since they dun like me anyway =D13. A character trait you love about yourself?i like my spasticity (another new word)14. A character trait you hate about yourself?procrastinate too much. WAY TOO MUCH.15. person you want to be?wad about a better zijin? =D16. say something to the ppl who care for you!eh. =D omg i shy. hahahahaha i dun really noe how to say such things. but aiya FEEL MY HOT AND PASSIONATE LOVE.17. pass this quiz to ten people you know1. ham =D2. banana!3. mish. (though she dun really do such quizzes)4. mark ong5. xinmei (i think she wont do too)6. ahrong7. laopo! (no u no need to do anymore)8. ahxiang! (no u no need to do also)9. ahning (u also no need to do) 10. rol =D-who is #6 having a relationship with?okay i admit tat i noe who he likes. but im not saying it. its not a relationship yet though#9 a male or female?male. =D =D =D crazy lar female duh.#7 and #10 are tgt, will it be a good thing?i think i will freak out.#8 and #5?omg i will cry.what is #2 studying about?i onli noe he had a maths test a few days ago and he was sad tat the blackout din last longer.when was the last time u tok to #3?forgot. one morning in school and i said hi to her ><What kind of music does #8 like?erm i dunno. southpark music?! omg his answer is beatles.does #1 have any siblings?ya! she got a brother whos like quite cute hahahahawill you woo #3?mish? omg den i will have to fight with a lot of ppl...how about #7oh shes already mine HAHAHAHA WHAAHAHAH =Dis #4 single?i think so..What is #5's surname?ONG! ONG XIN MEI~How about 10's?hahahahaha CAROL LEEE#4's hobbyerm. torncity? HAHAHA i dunno.do #5 and #9 get along?i think so.. though the size a bit dun fit.where do #2 study at?opposite me =.0Say something casual about #1?- ONE OF MY 4 LAOPOS!!have you tried developing feelings about #8?- omg. daxiang. Where does #9 live?yishun =DAre #5 and #1 best friends?lol tat 2 a bit not much link..does #7 like #2?sensitive topic. but i think #2 would like to noe. but no i dunno the answer.how did you get to know #2?i think it was last yr december? ya should be. one of those who always kope denker lanes.. Does #1 have any pets?no. but i did notice 2 undying fish swimming in a small tank.is #7 the sexiest person in the world?HAHA WAD SHOULD I ANSWER? COME LAOPO KISS!! =Doh my.so tired. HAHAAHAwads there to be tired of =.-TERMINATED
i wonder what will happen next year..ohwells.i counted the number of steps i took to reach home today..from the bus stopwasnt exactly raining but just drizzlingpretty funwalking in the rain... hahaohwells.6hundredandsixtyfiveesteps i tookits that long seriously i didnt know it was so many steps..dont ask me why i countedjustcounted so i wouldnt have to think and frustrate myself so much during the short distance from the busstop to the liftso i counted and before i knew it i reachedhaha..oh and recently ive just realised that i have nice teachers..well you can tell the difference between "i really care for you" and "i do it cause you pay school fees"but the teachers i have, id say.. really care for me.missing a whole week at school on week 10 really wasnt littleneither was it easy for me to catch up with the classbut after one whole week's worth of lunches, recesses, eating times and afterschools,ive finally finally caught up with where the class wasi feel really proud of myself haha..sacrificing my foooodi also realised..that school was the only place i could run away from reality. like when you are inside, all you have to do is listen, do your work, be nice andstuff. and you spend seven hours there before you out of schoolat least thats about 20% of the day i spend running away from realityand then after that i realise that i have to go back to face the music again.i dont even know how im coping with this anymorefunny twodays ago i was having maths remedialand then msypt was talking to me..and so i explained wad happenedand thenshe pausedand asked me"then who's taking care of you?"i looked at her, puzzled.for a moment i really didnt get what she was askingand then i said"who? my mother?"then she said"no. you."then she looked at me, obviously expecting me to give her an answeri couldnt think of any answer, and so i answered"me lor." laughingi dont know why i was laughingi guess i felt that it was just nonsensical to think about the answer to that question. the question sounded nonsensical to me.obviously things of this nature didnt occur to me before. and i never expected anyone to ask me questions of this sort as wellanwstoday in the car, on the way to pool up jessmy dad said" youve got to take care of yourself. i cant handle anymore problems"and then again i like, just like. hahathat was just my answeryet again, it really sounded quite nonsensical to me i nv recalled a time when he ever said that before. i nv recalled a time where he evenbothered to worry about me.and ive never recalled a time where i was taking care of myself by falling into depression.i dont know why im laughing lately.its either im so crushed that every little thing makes me happyor i find everything nonsensical to me.ohletssee.today i made a great discoveryof hyperthyroid.i hate you. i hate twelve years ago. i hate hyperthyroid. i hate my eyes. i hate my ears. i hate my brain.i hate my heart.i hate my existence.everything i believed in have betrayed meturned their backs on mei once believed my eyes, had faith in my judgementi once believed in happinessi once believed in love.terminated
you will not judge me, or my team without knowing us. cause then you are very, very wrong. because you only see a minimal part of us. you do not and will not know who we really are. because your judgements will always slur your view. so dont be an ignorant little kid and think you know best when you judge us.
doing a post from darling's blog. got tagged. =]
List out your top five birthday presents which you wish for: well if this is the materialistic wishes thing..
1. clothes 2. my own shoes/bag. if you know wad that means haha. 3. emily strangeeeee stuff.' 4. denimmm 5. belts. practically everything found in anyone's wardrobe. in black or white. ohwells. i think i'll have to work for those stuff. haha
1. person who tagged you was? darling
2. your relationship with her/him is? darling-darling relationship id say i treeat her like my sister. yay
3. your 5 impressions of him/her? -similar to me in SOME aspects...haha.. like eating the same way =o.. -quietly emo.. -happy with ahem -likes the little jap guy -a nice person i can always always lean on.
4. Most memorable thing he/she has done for you? help me through 3-4 weeks back. still helping me through..<33
5. Most memorable words she has said to you? dno leh.. she always goes "huggggggggggs-" and "x3 x3" <--- all because of AHEM if im not wrong
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will? love her. HAHA she my darling le maaaa
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on? trust me more so that at least she will talk when she is unhappy.. =[
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? be very very very sad. but i dont think it'll happen la
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? she killed someone i love.
10. The thing you desire to do most for her/him would be? make her feel loved. by AHEM and her darling(me) HAHA
11. Overall impression of her? =]] one of few who can really see who i really am -what a huge difference from the people i addressed up there-
12. How do you think people around you will feel about you? those i really care about? guilty. cause they dont love me as much as i love them! haha jkjk. hmm.. cared. and.. got extra pair of ears and a piece of my soul to listen to their woes lor..
13. A character trait you love about yourself? =.= emo. HAHA. no la duh.. respect.
14. A character trait you hate about yourself? emooo
15. person you want to be? =.= i already said thinking of being another person is stupid.
16. say something to the ppl who care for you! =] thank youuuu
17. pass this quiz to ten people you know
1. zijin (haha thats two that you have to do) 2. hmm ohwells. 3. hmm ohwells #2 4. hmm ohewlls #3 5. mark 6. oppa 7. cassy but i doubt she'll see this 8. chaodaxiang 9. for name's sake, eening. 10. lilan-no blog though-
who is #6 having a relationship with? HAHA. not that i know of.
is #9 a male or female? FEMALE!
if #7 and #10 are tgt, will it be a good thing? haha no.
how about #8 and #5 #5 is taken
what is two studying about? eoy topics la
when was the last time you talked to #3 two days ago. =[
What kind of music does #8 like? maroon five-makes me wonder. and the erm. sad ai contestant who sang that sad sad song there one day after wife died. if im not wrong thats the story.
does #1 have any siblings? no. but she call me lao po
will you woo #3? i dont woo ppl.
how about #7 no not cassy ahem.
is #4 single? last time i heard? no.
What is #5's surname mark whats your surname again? i only know you as mark.
How about 10's? LI? wait. ham.
#4's hobby (omg almost type hoppy) ohwells.
do #5 and #9 get along? OMG SO QIAO! yah like duh..
where do #2 study at? hmm oh wells.
Say something casual about #1? HIGHLY sensitive to me doing.. -muack!-sound HAHA.
have you tried developing feelings about #8? NO?!?!
Where does #9 live? yishun!~~
Are #5 and #1 best friends? friends and members of l.a.g! or prig damily. <33
does #7 like #2? nope
how did you get to know #2? ask #2 how #2 got to know me.
Does #1 have any pets? haha. saxophone~~~
is #7 the sexiest person in the world? haha.
wow. done finally. HAHA three hmmohwells. just. disregard that. haha\
never judge us.
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im becoming an avid blogger!whohoobut i blog rubbish.aiya nvm anw this whole blog has been full of our crap for the past two years.ahem ahemand lots of emoness from me and zijinHAHAohwells.i'll do a quiz again another day..my life's still screwed as it is.. really wanna go shoot to vent my freaking frustration but no i cant.no time. eoys. stay at home. look after her. endure.ohwells.all this pain's not going awayit never willcause living in fear is scary.painful.and when all this ends, it will end with new pain.torture.it will only end when her heart stops beating.end like another warzone.explosioni saw it that day.nightmare.its tiringto endurewitness so much pain. adapt to the difference in her character.im tired.of being me. ive had enough of this for the past 12 years.yet i will never be as tired as her. im willing to carry this weight for another 12more years..if god allows me toi wonder if i'll be there the day it bursts for the third timei dont think another miracle will form.even they say that it wont work for the third timeim sad.living in constant fear is seriously no fun.every ring. vibration. sms. call. starts to make me jump.its haunting meit hurts. so bad.and dont try to tell me you understand my pain.becauseyou can never imagine.her lying there.in any casethankyou for those who tried to keep me from being emo..haha im only like this when im alone or at home so yahim happy and normal around you guyswheeeets^^zijin la, eening la, you la, hj lah, kor la, the rest la.. all about the same ppl anw..haha..thank you..i'll try yeah? <33333=]sigh.i think i should count all the blessings and miracles that have happened in my life. like the friends i have.itd make me a much happier person than i am right now.at least as happy as i was before.-shiing-chaodaxiang i wont write terminated cause we are not termites!elephinated
hahaha okay so it seems like when tissue is not around tis place a bit moody=DSO TISSUE SHALL LIGHTEN TIS PLACE UP ABIT BY DOING THE SAME QUIZZES TAT MUA DID=DFor 100 million dollars what part of your body would you give up?- erm. is pimples considered part of the body? OMG I WOULD LOVE THE DEAL.Stranded with no food, would you eat your pet to survive?- hahahahaha if i got a turtle for a pet den i eat turtle soup everyday isit =.-Ever run out of toilet paper while using a public restroom?- a bit paiseh but yea ><> but she throw into wrong cubicle den kena scolded by the other woman HAHA
Ever fart and more then just air come out? - erm. is tat even called a "fart" ? like i tot onli when ppl AHEM den PIAK CHEEEEEK everything come out o.O
Ever hold your breathe when talking to someone cause their breathe was so bad? - HAHA GOT OMG. and i was talking to a veri long-winded person somemore almost dieded on the spot due to lack of oxygen.
What is your greatest memory prior to age 18? - veri smart qn!! my veri smart answer shall be the thing tat happened 1 day prior my bd
Greatest memory since then? - since 18? erm. i hope it can be something nice and sweet can already.
If you can spend a 24 hour period with anyone who would it be? - ohhhhh =D naughty naughty!! I DUN TELL U ALL HAHA nanepoo~
Age at which you realized your on earth for reproductive purposes? - i dun wan to realise tat cos i think its quite pathetic if ppl live for the sake of reproducing. wad pure rubbish lar reproductive purposes.
Ever pick your nose in your car and not have anything to wipe it on? - OMG LAR DUH. like who dare to swear u all din pick ur nose when young before at least once. no u dun bluff. YES u definitely did tat before.
If you responded (yes) to the prior question your a slob, but how did you rid yourself of the slime? - hahahahaha i dun quite remember. but i think it should be on my mum =D
If you can be someone for a day who would it be? - eh. hmm. eh.. how about being the richest person on earth and just nice tat day she no need to work. and just nice tat day she got a huge paycheck. and just nice tat day she got lots of frens who r with her. and just nice tat day a lot of things to buy. and jus nice tat day world peace. i think its more of the quality of the day spent rather den the person i am tat day. =D
Do you believe that love is forever? - i think its utter bullshit.
Do you get hurt by people easily? - hurt as in mentally isit? i pray i dun hurt other ppl can le. cos sometimes when i tok im a bit. erm. not veri nice
Do you believe that all people are generally good? - i believe. even if its not so i choose to believe.
Do mean people make you sad? - haha duh rite. but i will try to make them sadder.
Does ice cream make you happy? - all sweet stuff does. okay i admit all food does. =D
Do you sing in the shower? - YA I SING ALL KIND OF STUFF. i can stand there and hold my concert for like -veri long- last time i finally sing finish den open the door and my mum was there. den she clapped a bit and said encore with a dao face. HAHA
When it rains, do you like to splash in the puddles? - all i need to do in times like these is to run FARFARAWAY from taymua can le
If you see a cute guy/girl walk down the street, do you smile and tell him/her that he/she is cute? - =.- den wad. i take a loudspeaker and go around screaming OMFG U R SO DAM CUTE. wads the point
Do you notice when people have beautiful eyes? - i think so. i din notice if i noticed. nxt time when i notice if i noticed den i tell u all if i noticed
Have you ever cried watching a movie? - ya..i always say i din cry but i did hahahahahahahaha =D
Is it cute when old people are holding hands? - hahahaha quite lar. budden later one fall den the other fall together how?
Are you a happy person? - hide a bit here hide a bit there den ya im quite happy a person. i dun believe anyone can be like 100% happy without hiding anything. surely theres some emo stuff one.
Do you tend not to worry even when you know something bad is about to happen? - ya i do. sometimes i will jus forget about it. hahahahahahaah short term memo
Is it fine to cut the barbie's hair? - HAHA YA OMG. last time i cut until veri nice den suddenly my dog came and bit the head off =.-
Have you ever laughed so hard that your stomach hurt? - erm i think ahmua's answer a bit weird. like how u cry until stomach hurt o.O
Are you slightly lazy? - oh if ahmua is lazy den im non-existent
Do you like to drive with the windows down? - YA I WOULD LIKE TO DRIVE. the window part no need.
Are you in love? - OMG YESH. im zilian-ing~
OMG FINALLY. i think i bullshitted a lot. but tats not the point
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HALLO this is rol rol the roll posting.apparently ah sue the crazy dodoer is at orchard.and ah sue the crazier dodoer also wants me to write longer posts.but den, ah rol the crazy dodo oso dont noe what to write.i shall spam thenreferring to mr taul pan... ah rol will not attempt to do everyone's name liddat.hence.shi ing=ihi sngzi jin= ji zin carol lee=larol cee...hmm...larol..sounds like clairol!!!please ignore ah rolshe is crappingand talking about herself in the third person.ahah ahah ahah.ah sue, is this post long enuff for you?btw.ah mua, why you so emoo!!!!! cheer upi still owe ah mua mcflurry!if ah mua dont cheer up ah rol has to buy her many mcflurries!!ah sue ah. dont tell me you want at least 1.5 litre of hazelnut chocolate ah.i smack you.
Do you believe that love is forever?: yah.undying love ma.. cannot die one.. haha yah la yah la Do you get hurt by people easily?: nopee. but when i do its really deep. awww Do you believe that all people are generally good?: hmm. no. i dont agree with confucious. Do mean people make you sad?: mean? nope. fight back lor. if not they step on your head. Does ice cream make you happy?: yes! mcflurry.. im easily happy. easily sad too. heh. Do you sing in the shower?: yuppie. emo de songs. i dont like sing the WEI SHEN ME WEI SHEN ME in the bathroom hor zijin? wang fu will sound weird if i sing in the bathroom too. i dont use the shower head though. gets funny cause youre splurting water in your mouth. okay stop. When it rains, do you like to splash in the puddles?: YES. zijin is my best witness. rain is sad so i run in it. If you see a cute guy/girl walk down the street, do you smile and tell him/her that he/she is cute?: no duh. siao ah Do you notice when people have beautiful eyes?: YES YES. first thing when i look at face Have you ever cried watching a movie?: i not stupid two. Is it cute when old people are holding hands?: haha sort of. my ahma holds hands with me! <33>Are you a happy person?: me? deepdown no but i bury it under alot of distractive stuff which makes me happy. like ice cream lor..but still. im emoo haha Do you tend not to worry even when you know something bad is about to happen?: i worry. Is it fine to cut the barbie's hair?: yah. bob's in. never cut it though.. Have you ever laughed so hard that your stomach hurt?: many times. cry also alot..told you im emo.. Are you slightly lazy?: very lazy.. Do you like to drive with the windows down?: when its unpolluted? the air. yah. nice wind! Are you in love?: haha. you think leh? ppl in love wont be emoooo.right? getting really sian diao sorry! just trying to distract myself alittle bit more.. kinda very unhappy and emo nowadays. ohwells..
For 100 million dollars what part of your body would you give up?: my hair. =] Stranded with no food, would you eat your pet to survive?: no duh. i dont have a pet. Ever run out of toilet paper while using a public restroom?: yup. use my own lor.. Ever fart and more then just air come out?: o.O can meh? Ever hold your breathe when talking to someone cause there breathe was so bad?: eh..yah. ^^; What is your greatest memory prior to age 18?: dont remember turning eighteen.. Greatest memory since then?: when? 18? If you can spend a 24 hour period with anyone who would it be?: aww haha shh Age at which you realized your on earth for reproductive purposes?: haven't crossed my mind yet. Ever pick your nose in your car and not have anything to wipe it on?: no. abit.. ew. If you responded (yes) to the prior question your a slob, but how did you rid yourself of the slim?: =.= If you can be someone for a day who would it be?: ah dont need to be someone else la..its a crazy kind of mentality.. i think its really something to do with the blood transfusion
okay if youre not out of your mindjust say im going out of my mind. im going kinda wayward right now. everything's whirling around me im feeling kinda lost at home. for the first time. i really feel like im going crazy. i think i just screwed up everything in my life. 我只是一个十四岁的女生
dont treat me like im supposed to handle all this shit like a freaking adult. erase that freaking mentality youve been having for the past 15 years.
im going crazy. and i wonder why i only feel this at home.
TADA~~~~~!!! ta-daaa--- welcome once again to the long awaited, long hoped for double post from ah sue and ah rol founders of the blog.lol duh lar omg whoever blogs here r all founders rite =.- of course of course. anw, ah sue, carol is gonggong already what shall we talk about today. YESH AH ROL. veri good qn. good qn for a good thinker like me =D =D =Dshall we talk about your attempted cursing/saboing of the kaz shooter OH MY~ or shall we discuss mr TALL PAN"s various quirks
( will i get sued or sth) like, guide to mr TALL PAN for dummiesdummies reminds me of gummies.. speaking of which, you still owe me money for gummy bears while rolrol the roll is shooting like some crazy dodo in sg opens.. tissue is happily feeding on gummy bears =D i am NOT A CRAZY DODOoh u r not? ...yeah ur crazier and dodoer =D =D =D so cute omg suits me OH YA TIS MORNING ah rol called ah sue CAROL THE CRAZY DODO CALLED TISSUE THE CRAZIER DODOERonly to find she is still sleeping her beauty sleep. and snoring YESH OMG. eh no i dun snore rrrriiiggghhhttt5 and i think i sound quite SEXAYE~
hahahahahahahahahahahaha =D
~huhHUHrolAHROL~
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-ahbish- on account of continuous vommitting into the toilet. EH EH EH im eating breakfast now mind u pls clean ur language use mama lemon or MR MUSCLE ..... pls lah.and we are gng away from e topic. again. oh i tot tats like our strength okay anyway rite i think the word CURSE is a bit bit wee bit bit too strong hex? i merely wished** tat she shoot 9 and she granted my wish =D ,oh so now shes the tooth fairy. so. y tooth o.O shall we start guide to mr tall pan for dummies. cos tooth fairies always grant wishes. REALLY? omg. speaking of which, TODAY'S BLOODY NEWSPAPER IS SO SCREWED I LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT -whispers to tooth fairy : i wish all my pimples will be gone..- =.- by advertising the newspaper tis way i think by tonight all those who reads our blog can see ur face already i just dont have to include it in the blog post. its called artistic liscence. no noo nooooo ahrol~ ATTTENSHUN!AH SUE -STAND STRAIGHT. HANDS ON THE CHEST. we the citizens of singapore....- -pledge ourselves as one united ppl- *faints* -regardless of race, language or religion- ............................. ah sue i get the point. -TO BUILD A DEMOCRATIC SOCIETY- -BASED ON..- BASED ON JUSTICE AND EQUALITY oh u finally do SO AS TO ACHIEVE HAPPINESS PROSPERITY AND PROGRESS FOR OUR for our nation~~~~~ NATION ok. now hahahahaha so patriotic back to the point ah sue. eh i forgot wad point we were at jus now. start of guide to mr tall pan for dummies OH IT RANG A BELLso i shall go open teh door .. [ Stamina Rose ] 'tis all over slaps zijin with a large smelly tuna fish okay lor dot me. WALAO can like tat one ><> haha nah lah. jk jkjkjkjkjkjk i was lookin for the chocolate bar one lah. dodo
hereby tissue concludes tat rol has certain feelings for taul pan.
OMG. to bribe the crazier and dodoer tissue. OMG OMG. and hereby, ah rol concludes that not only is ah sue protective of tall pan, she is also harbouring certain feelings for mr taul pan. YA OMG I LOVE U TAUL PAN~ lalala~ oh my gosh. eh. rmbr the freakified taul pan tm small smile hahahahahaha ya! he will smile smile a bit den twirl hair twirl hair HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA (nudge rol) yeaggga you noe what that remind me of? those chinese dancers with that big feather on top that they twirl and twirl and twirl omg. taul pan got so pretty meh no lah but still.. anw, due to unforeseen cirumcstances...ah sue has to end the post. (y ahsue) sorry. WAD DID I DO.
typo ah rol
oh =D okay okay ohCYA DEN MY DEARESTS OUT THERE:TISSUE WILL MISS U ALL!!BYEBYE~MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!-TERMINATED-
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