im becoming an avid blogger!whohoobut i blog rubbish.aiya nvm anw this whole blog has been full of our crap for the past two years.ahem ahemand lots of emoness from me and zijinHAHAohwells.i'll do a quiz again another day..my life's still screwed as it is.. really wanna go shoot to vent my freaking frustration but no i cant.no time. eoys. stay at home. look after her. endure.ohwells.all this pain's not going awayit never willcause living in fear is scary.painful.and when all this ends, it will end with new pain.torture.it will only end when her heart stops beating.end like another warzone.explosioni saw it that day.nightmare.its tiringto endurewitness so much pain. adapt to the difference in her character.im tired.of being me. ive had enough of this for the past 12 years.yet i will never be as tired as her. im willing to carry this weight for another 12more years..if god allows me toi wonder if i'll be there the day it bursts for the third timei dont think another miracle will form.even they say that it wont work for the third timeim sad.living in constant fear is seriously no fun.every ring. vibration. sms. call. starts to make me jump.its haunting meit hurts. so bad.and dont try to tell me you understand my pain.becauseyou can never imagine.her lying there.in any casethankyou for those who tried to keep me from being emo..haha im only like this when im alone or at home so yahim happy and normal around you guyswheeeets^^zijin la, eening la, you la, hj lah, kor la, the rest la.. all about the same ppl anw..haha..thank you..i'll try yeah? <33333=]sigh.i think i should count all the blessings and miracles that have happened in my life. like the friends i have.itd make me a much happier person than i am right now.at least as happy as i was before.-shiing-chaodaxiang i wont write terminated cause we are not termites!elephinated
