first two days of school..quite boring actually. dont feel any excitementstarted off with trying not to get lost in the uniform. LOL i know why i look weird le.cause i dont normally wear collars! (most probable reason).. the only collar shirt i have is ny pe tee.. maybe thats why. dno la heck.drawstrings are a pain.and then what does hc do?they bombard you with lectures, and talks on discipline telling you how high your socks should be.when they feel a little bit kinder.. they give you english diagnostic tests by asking you to do an essay early in the frigging morning.and then theres training.which i dno. i think im stagnant at the sec 3 sec 4 standard. ohwells. not a surprise...maybe thats my max? ?i thought about my nightmare today and because of that i shot an 8 on the last card.i think it started when i was thinking of sleeping. then sleeping link to dreaming..link to..i try so hard to control and i still shoot 8.. im ownage. i knew it was coming. oh geez.oh nightmare go away.the untold story..few know.walking with metal chains twisted round my legs.the wounds cut open and bleed with every step.grapple with emotional torture. how much more i can take, how much longer can i last.sometimes i just think that it'll be better if we all just succumb to the idea of death.im sick of having no time limit.and im sick of being the middle person. enduring all the quarrels, making peace. getting scolded for no reason.i dnt know why im not cursing. i dnt know why im not angry.he asked me if i had ever thought.. "why me?"...i dont know.i think i'll explode one day.. soon.. and we'll see where that ends.chad kroeger--hero.I am so high, I can hear heaven.I am so high, I can hear heaven.Oh but heaven, no heaven don't hear me.And they say that a hero can save us. I'm not gonna stand here and wait. I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles. Watch as we all fly away.Someone told me that love would all save us.But how can that be?Look what love gave us.A world full of killing, and blood-spilling, thatworld never came.And they say that a hero can save us.I'm not gonna stand here and wait.I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.Watch as we all fly away.Now that the world isn't ending, it's love that I'm sending to you.It isn't the love of a hero, that's why I fear it won't do.And they say that a hero can save us.I'm not gonna stand here and wait.I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.Watch as we all fly away.
