我很累...到底要做什么，才会让自己快乐。not that my tests didnt go well. it went ok. not that training didnt go well. just a couple of slips.but im utterly disappointed.and tired of having to tire myself out with these problems.why am i worrying about a team/teammates when im the only one worrying..youre so different from last year.do you even feel that i going to break le? cause im quite sure you can feel it but you really just couldnt be bothered.youre just leaving me there to hang on my own.thanks ah.really.if you could see my worries, my sadness and my disappointment.youd realise. i really love and care about you. theres no past tense involved..i still do.i cant get on with training when im worrying whether you will turn up, or whether she is ok.i dont feel any motivation at all. because i really feel neglected. and that noone really cares anw.last year at least we had a dream. ah, happy while it lasted.in the midst of trying to gather all the pieces and push everyone else..i go crazyon a side note..darling, i know we've closed up alot in the past two years,but i still hope you know that i love you as always =)i really need goodfriends and darlings like you...i really need retail therapy now with everything buzzing past too. haha lovesnothing's going right.. and everything's a mess. to me.
