hai. just when i was just looking at the photos..jiayou ok?<3>
anw he's a jerk so btr that you break now rather than even later
or else pain even more..if i go back and see his face i'll rip it up and bash him ok? cause i know you bu ren xin do it. hahaha
haii
im always near you even though we're so far apart. just like just now.. youre strong so jiayou =)
about shooting. about studies. about shiing.
its so tempting to give up. like. right now. drop it. drop down and die.
how to? teach me?
=(
i think after you teach me i'll still be so stupid and not let go of all the reins, thinking that im doing the right thing
yah i think i should fight.
and you guys always see me fighting the hell out of my problems. like some crazy idiot.
but why do they nv go away? haha ok stupid question. delete it.
i was planning my term two schedule ytd.
omg la! shooting only already SO MANY dates to rmb. so many things to remind so many ppl.
and here i have people who are not angry with me, but with the school system. so dont vent it on me ok?
if i could have the choice of NOT doing quotation who would wanna do la. just buy and zao right? save time. thanks la. in ny you HAVE to do quotation BEFORE getting the damnit stuff.
please dont vent anger on me when i dont deserve it. =)
you said sorry but the words you said. theyve done their damage.
and ive got people who are suffering from adapting problems. and its sad ok. friday eat lunch with you i almost died when i saw your hand
sec three very tough but must fight! and youre gonna tell me you giving up. dno how to quan4 you already. bt im always here if you need me. dont be so foolish ok? everyone else is fighting so you should too. <33
still waiting to see the full potential of the bdiv teams.
jiayou cdiv <33
many many things to do. tests to handle. tests are easy to handle. GRADES arent. esp when its last year in ny. pfft.
nevertheless im not gonna stop working for nyshooting.
cause i think its worth it.
worth all the phone bills and long conversations and planning with mrsamyy.
struggling with confidence problems.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i need to be more confident of my trigger and my stupid finger if not im gonna die.
i need to be more careful of my stupid right foot boot cause of the stupid bend. but ohwells. my fault i didnt notice.
new boots anyone? noone.
why? cause we've to SCRIMP and SAVE for the stupid KOMPRESSOR. so please stop telling us to buy buy buy buy buy.
you think we money machine ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ok..
hai.
busy
every week, every two three days. have to do something..hand up some report.. do some presentation... some shooting event...blah.
these few months gonna be crazy with shooting firing up into FULL MAX CRAZY gear.. and all the projects due like dno what nuts..
shiaaaaaaaaaaaaa
im ranting like dno what now................
just ignore my posts if theyre in black ok?
dont feel like writing in my diary cause holding a pen is very scary hahahah. after all that mugging.
sometimes i just feel tht i have no goal. no end. no specific expectation.
so i dno what im working for.
and then i feel like giving up.
then i blog and so many ppl pop up into my mind..
and like now, im thinking.. why the hell am i trying to give up.
blogging gives me such a great sense of accomplishment sometimes.
helps me to clear my thoughts and get back on track cause im like talking to myself
haha...
those sandbags piled on my back labelled "shooting" "As" "no time" "many things to do" "SIAs" "presentations"..
theyre only gonna get heavier this term
every string attached to my body is gonna pull me up straight even when i have no energy.
i can just drop all of them right now and stop walking..more over.. i dont even know where im walking towards..
but i think i'll regret..
so i shall give all i can.. and see how it goes.
i miss kaiyun... xinxi...xinmei......theyve always took care of us like dno what
and everytime i have problems i will always find ahgu...
this year must take over their role and jiayou the juniors..
but i still miss them =(
i miss safra like nuts too
losing all the contacts le haha
nvm.. we'll be going back soon.. i know alot of ppl miss alot of ppl and times are different but try to recover from withdrawal symptoms ok?
^^ hahaha..im suffering from withdrawal symptoms too..lol..times are so different.....
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我擁有照亮孤單黑夜的力量 朝著未來去闖
getting very ranty.. emotions swinging like pendulum...
but..
im fine =] just a phase. haha.
jiayou ling.. <33
