typed super long post. but on second thought.. lets just look at snippets.
"went for training..
tiao tiao tiao tiao finally can see the front sight in the middle of the rear sight............."
.............."so6freakingshotswere on what. 6point ring? nice grouping though.
if its comforting..
cannot tiao..tiao maximum still same place.."
......................."so she figured it was gun assembly..
disassemble.. assemble.. knock knock ABIT against the table
tadah~
middle.
=.=
i shot awhile..
figured i needed lunch..
went for lunch."
"after lunch..
on to the chiropractor.."
"ok when you go into the room the doctor is friendly.
ahem
he says my back is wai diao but because of dunno what structure.. it wont get worse.
thank god.
so...
he decided to twist my back back so that it wont be twisted..
so..
-lies on a machine-
heat pack. super hot heat pack put on my back.
its hot. im serious.
feels like your skin is burning..
i thought he just put it there and went to have coffee outside the room then forgot about me.
doesnt hurt..it just burns..
then he comes in..
removes..
the -gown- *medical gown* i was wearing was abit wet wet. that hot.
and i dont even know if it was my sweat.
...
first is face down k..
then his grabs your neck-he's quite nice but still..-
he says breathe in.. you breathe in air facing down..
"breathe out..."
breathe out~
TWIST. CRACK CRACK CRACK.
my goodness.
so eva..
my whole neck cracked.
scared the heck out of me k..
and then he grabs the other side of my neck..
pull ah!
no crack.. but dang super pain k..
then..
lie on left side.. one leg bend one leg straight.. -pulls your handS..- so you are like so dolly..
and he positions himself..
breathe in.. breathe out..
pull~
and you hear the whole line of bones cracking. seriously the whole line of bones
even when zijin and i twist twist while sitting on chairs..
this sound..
-eeyer-
freakyyyy
did the same on the other side...
=[[
face up.. presses neck...
cracks..
=[
but the most painful one was the no sound one.
and he press exactly where jiao lian press.
just that his is the exact spot.
=[
pain~
i was saying"PAIN AH!"
=.= i guess he is used to ppl saying that?
*-*
saturday another experience.
whoo.
come lets do it..
=.=
its freaky ok.."
"after that..
meet with chiobu,dearie-joanna- and jjjjjaryl~
watched national treasure two..
mm...
i think....................."
"lastyear this time..
i still dno them..
still happily training in safra..
saw them..
follow them..
go longjohns.. playplayjokejokeeateat..found alot of happiness which stopped me from thinking too much..
even stopped me from doubting my skills..
with them i felt liberated, protected................"
"dnt really know them.. they dnt really noe me either..
but..
just feel that this friendship is irreplaceable..
this year..
im more quiet? ok maybe not when im with zijin and eening la..
many will realise im very different from last year........."
............."its also the reason why i dont train at night anymore..........."
"this year it feels like ive had to endure so many things by myself..........................."
"i admit im stressed out cause of these problems........................"
"not gonna act strong by acting like i can handle everything.
its not very nice when my future juniors know me for emoing and keep nicely asking me online every other day if im fine/emo/okay
theyre nice really...............................i treasure the concern. thanks"
"hmm.starting to doubt everything." -**luck**-
"i know im typing alot of shit crap which isnt even worth your time but yeah. who asked you to read it anw.
fill in whatever you like. iin btw the quotes.
figured you guys didnt really need to know every single thing.
was just ranting.
mm..posting again.yay! tmr my birthday hahahaha. dno why i also so happy..mm..disappointed..and.. angry? frustrated...sad.one week of self denial.. being able to run away from everything..with her. was the best period of my life this year..hui2 jia1 le4... i should carry on with my work..mm..when will be the next time...next year? i guess. it feels good to know you have a sister..hurts ten times more to know you have only a few days to see her and spend time with her every year..had lots of fun..was happy.i didnt feel like a piece of tissue paper..no longer felt what i had been feeling for the past month..didnt feel used, thrown away.. lonely..now its back to normal..one more year of fighting alone..i know i have a great bunch of friends... another great bunch in my class..it just feels freaking awkward...cause myheart isnt really in singapore anw..i wanna attend her 70th birthday next year..but i have school.i wanna do so many things i wanna do..yet im held back by studies and blahs. i know i wont be allowed to leave anw..hurm...shooting..this year there were many downs, not so many ups..many disappointments from those close to me..no not you zijin and eening..shot..not too well during nationals..not what i expected..but i think i lag.. go home three days then realise i was unhappy..medals arent really what i wanted, neither are they what i really want.. though itd be a plus..just felt different this year.lonely? i guess.youre cutting off your own string.. youre leaving me there to hang by myself.i dont wanna hang there all by myself.. facing all those two faced puppets..why cut your string down..where i used to find happiness.. no longer serves its purpose..i admit ive changed alot this year.abit more..emo? hahahaha.funny my future juniors always ask me if im emo..its like they know me as an emo freak who could kill herself anytime now..hahahahahahahaha SO CUTE.no no i wont kill myself -.=not so stupid yet.so dont need keep asking le ^^funny ppl..hahahhahahatrying to motivate.. when i need motivation..=[i just dont want them to think like i do..jiayou.. you know i know you can doit ma...its getting difficult to even feel like giving up.. really dont feel like giving up.esp when i know there'll be many under me next year..i know if i do id really regret.. i wont take this down..but..feeling like a piece of used tissuepaper is really not fun...hurmph..im not gan1 xin1..but i'll try and fight~next year.. studies..this year..didnt disappoint myself..but still.. can be better..losing interest in studying.. never really felt interested anw..lets just get the next three freaking years over and done with..abit more happier.hehehehe.i dont really need you to keep harping on me and my work. i got do ok.now just stop. gar.i dont like it when ppl think im some immatured freak who doesnt do her own stuff by her own.next year.. will the same thing happen..?august..september.. im feeling scared.ah what was i doing with the time i prayed and begged for.im trying to mature as fast as i can ok..not like im pretending to be a little kid..im trying to HELP. and pray. and beg god for a little more effing time.tmr my birthday...should i thinkof wishes?lets see...i realise ive wasted my wishes for the past 14 years of my life..every year id wish me and my brother would get good grades so my parents would be happy..then everyone healthy andhappy..the first wish is rather wasted..cause its within my control..so..i shall wish for....something thats not within my control....maybe buddha'd listen to my little voiceand grant me my little wish..i feel myself sinking in deeper and deeper..i need a hug. a little motivation... and lots of love.pity those who can give me the love i need arent beside me most of the time..but i cant deny ive a great bunch of ppl around me..=] i love.note that saggitaurius-es love those close too them ALOT and do everything in their means to protect them.really! =p
I POSTSES.:]haha okay it's kinda late now.so a bit no use posting.just trying to make the teal appear more often. :Deh.my dear zj and si, when is prig going out ah.all the dates like tentative like that. ):sian this year a bit sad case.everyone's busy and stuff.sigh.not looking forward to the next half of school year.gonna be hell man.with ALL SIAs to be completed by term 2,comps,training,yadadadada.sigh.T.T.my chemistry's dying.on the verge of death.anyone wanna help me with oxidation and reduction? :/hurm.okay.it's nearning 2.30 am now.shall go sleep. :3nightos. :D
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# posted by Kal at
2:23 AM
YOi think the blog has been rather dead recentlySO I SHALL POST STH RANDOMtissue is currently doing stupid library cip with ahminfor nyaaevery monday tuesday thursday and sunday30 hours ohmanjust for the stupid certand yesterday we started workits like rubbishespecially the children's sectionits like garbage collection centrebut tats not the pointthe point is i saw tis stupid indian guy whos also a cip-erhe was touching fish can.as in. mo1 yu2he jus sit there and start reading den i was shelfreading around when i bump into himhahahahahaha so i pretend pretend walk over and den ACCIDENTALLY kik himi din bother to say sorry =Dden theres another indian kidWAH SEH DAM IRRITATINGi never liked kidsden he was like.. GA! BABA! GAPONA!wth i really din study tamil beforeoh jiamin and i were quite amused by sthhahahahahahahahahahai think ask me on msn betterhahahahahahaha its sth a bit mean lar but =Dits okay tissue is still an angelCHRISTMAS IS COMING~so those who wan good luck shall treat the angel niceniceYAY~and my room is greeeeeeeeeeeeenYAY~and the place is very very messeh~YAY~and ham jus came back from china yesterday YAY~den the cold storage ppl chucked her in the supermarketYAY~okay tats rubbish i dun careANGEL IS FLYING OFF SOON~as in flying off the libraryIF U SEE A FLYING ANGEL~ TATS ME!!so if anyone miss me alot can go yishun library see meHAHAHAHAHAHAHA but the point is must help me do workim desperately thinking of ways to slackLALA~ but tissue is happy =DTERMINATED
boooooooooo 8D.okay im kinda late..but.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK CHENG!<333
you're theeee oldest among us now.
well.for now.=p.
haha wonder how today's gonna be like for you.
hope it's fun. 8D
anyhows.
happy sweeeet sixteen!<3 style="COLOR: rgb(0,0,0)">now.
celeeeeeeeebrationnssxz.
whennnnnnn.>(
- tissue butts in =D -DIDI~happy birthday!! hahahahahahahahaha yay~and eening. nxt time u finish remember to add in the following:TERMINATED
