first two days of school..quite boring actually. dont feel any excitementstarted off with trying not to get lost in the uniform. LOL i know why i look weird le.cause i dont normally wear collars! (most probable reason).. the only collar shirt i have is ny pe tee.. maybe thats why. dno la heck.drawstrings are a pain.and then what does hc do?they bombard you with lectures, and talks on discipline telling you how high your socks should be.when they feel a little bit kinder.. they give you english diagnostic tests by asking you to do an essay early in the frigging morning.and then theres training.which i dno. i think im stagnant at the sec 3 sec 4 standard. ohwells. not a surprise...maybe thats my max? ?i thought about my nightmare today and because of that i shot an 8 on the last card.i think it started when i was thinking of sleeping. then sleeping link to dreaming..link to..i try so hard to control and i still shoot 8.. im ownage. i knew it was coming. oh geez.oh nightmare go away.the untold story..few know.walking with metal chains twisted round my legs.the wounds cut open and bleed with every step.grapple with emotional torture. how much more i can take, how much longer can i last.sometimes i just think that it'll be better if we all just succumb to the idea of death.im sick of having no time limit.and im sick of being the middle person. enduring all the quarrels, making peace. getting scolded for no reason.i dnt know why im not cursing. i dnt know why im not angry.he asked me if i had ever thought.. "why me?"...i dont know.i think i'll explode one day.. soon.. and we'll see where that ends.chad kroeger--hero.I am so high, I can hear heaven.I am so high, I can hear heaven.Oh but heaven, no heaven don't hear me.And they say that a hero can save us. I'm not gonna stand here and wait. I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles. Watch as we all fly away.Someone told me that love would all save us.But how can that be?Look what love gave us.A world full of killing, and blood-spilling, thatworld never came.And they say that a hero can save us.I'm not gonna stand here and wait.I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.Watch as we all fly away.Now that the world isn't ending, it's love that I'm sending to you.It isn't the love of a hero, that's why I fear it won't do.And they say that a hero can save us.I'm not gonna stand here and wait.I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.Watch as we all fly away.
first of allHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE FOUR PPL I KNOW!!!!!!!!WHOOO 3 from shootingLOLok lets sing you a song.ready go.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~~~~~HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.:Dmay all your dreams and wishes come true.gs say can only make one wish on your birthdaybut for greedy ppl like me. just make alot of wishes la. in case one wish can't come true then got another wish to back up HAHAHHAytd the range was so freaking quiet and leng qing.i like~~~~~super shuang can.not like the daily ultra spamming of pellets then ping piang kio one.its like. zen mode HAHAHAHAHAend of holidays is like so near and i havent touched math at all, or even make up my mind on what subject combi im gonna take :Stotally not ready for school, and even more not ready for xin nian.oh right. theres monthly too.AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHwhite horse--taylor swift!!I had so many dreams about you and meHappy endings, well now I knowThat Im not a princess, this aint a fairytaleI'm not the one you'll sweep off her feetlead her up the stairwellThis ain't Hollywood, this is a small townBut I was a dreamer before you went and let me downNow its too late for you and your white horse to come aroundwell i think its time i really let go.start anew.it's been a very, very long journey.ohmygoodness my mind's a blank.ok nvm.HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!the most colourful post ever :D
hahahaha yes tissue is here to blog.and NO IM NOT GOING TO FLAME ANYONE ANYMORE YAY~~tissue recovered from her depression =.-okay anyway yes im here to promote the Gossip Clubheres the url: ohhmai.blogspot.comcurrently its still a bit emptybut im sure given the potential of the gossip club we will be able to fill things up soonand yes im proud to announce tat im the president of gossip clubshould i even be proud of tat =.-so erm. the blog will be like. gossiping about almost everything under the sunlike from scandals to celebrities to gambling matters AND WADS MOREWE GOSSIP ABOUT PIMPLE CREAMS~discussions are welcomed on the tagboard (:i dun mind informants too AHHHHHHTERMINATED
zijin is quite irritated at how these certain 2 ppl is trying to say tat im leaking secretsokay i admit i leak secrets before.who havent.but when i say i wont leak anything. i meant itand when i say i din leak anything. i meant it as wellto tat 2 person im sorry im using tis tone when im bloggingim not flaming but im jus trying to clear things upcan u 2 stop trying to make it sound as if im the one spreading stuff about u 2making the SECRET known to everyone?!in fact when i got to noe of itits already quite an open secret. like firstly the guy u noe who u are.ask urself how many ppl u have told.and ask those who noe about it. wad made them noe or who told them.and den to 2 of u. even if u din tell to certain ppl.jus look at the way u all behaveeven retards can make sth out of it can hello?i hope u 2 can turn out fine. but i hope u 2 can also be more aware of the surrounding and the surrounding pplseriously its pointless to point fingers at me saying tat im leaking stuffbecause tats not where the problem lies.TERMINATED
its only the first week of 2009 and i already feel like dyingahhhhseriously my shooting has been so screwed for the past week.inclusive of monday's training, tuesday's training, and today's training.basically every training ever since i came backomg not like i was pro before i flew off but it wasnt this bad!ok i think you get my desperationseriously its like a super bad start to 2009i cant imagine shooting like this for the whole of o9 like its a cursei'll just die.AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-freaks out-so screwed. so screwed.and seriously having monthlies right after new year is :Oggim totally gonna screw upseriously training has become so bad that i am conscious that im doing the wrong things but my unconscious brain just keeps being retarded and slow and refuses to register that im doing the wrong thing and continue to do the wrong thinghow screwed is that?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dont need to say i also know. its VERY screwed.-faints-coach is like. speechless after trainings HAHAim speechless also. either speechless, irritated, tired, or just feel like dying on the spot. i really feel like melting into the ground sometimes and BURN my cards HAHAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHi seriously need to scream. thank god we going to kbox tmromg spam emo HAHA look at the number of seriouslys i have typed.its like. overwhelming.seriously i have a problem with vocab right now its so limited cause my brain is in a flustered state. actually not only my brain my whole body is flustered no wonder i shiver like crazy during trainings pfftand im blabbering off on the blog now nonstop cause im so frustrated i have to get it out of my system AHHH destress.im still blabberingok i shall stop. lets talk about my dreams!omg i was jsut telling zijin today about my nightmare last night'it started off very ncie and happy with me being in BRUNEI in an unknown house celebrating my birthday (so many houses in brunei to choose from but pianpian it was an unknown house =.=):D got cake. but the cake was like.. half water half jelly. my first reaction when i saw the cake was :s but everyone acted normal, like the cake was really ok and nice, so i thought the cake was very nice too HAHAHA i can convince myself so easily.then after that everyone was playing and suddenly i was standing in MY ROOM, in MY HOUSE, in SINGAPORE. omg freakkkkkkand then suddenly everyone started screamingand then everyone chionged out to play with SNOW.and then someone i know came over to talk to me -i forgot who- then i was like "yah see they play until so damn happy sia its like singapore got snow" and then i looked out the window (in my dream), and it was only then did it register IN MY BRAIN that it was snowingggos. no wonder im so lag in shooting. 10 go already huang4 away already then i register the 10 AND SHOOT AT THE WRONG TIME. im so proud of myself =.= the best thing is that im CONSCIOUS that the im not shooting properly.and then we were stoning at ppl playing with snowthen suddenly there was this hailstone storm or somethinglike suddenly opp my room got construction site (in real life its just flats), and then these foreign workers got killed by hailstones.ok not hailstones. actually it was just flying pieces of MUDOMG VERY BIG flying pieces of mud.and then it hit the foreign workers and they just die. on the spot. like. 'piak' die.the feeling damn ominous!after that everyone started running into my room for cover and we are like TRYING TO CLOSE THE WINDOWS with all ourstrength.i do not know why we did not lock the windows in my dream (come to think of it pressing the window like that is kind of retarded) and like there were strangers all over in my small room and my sofa bed DISAPPEARED and we were all trying to desperately close the windows.HAHA geniusthen it all turned out to be futile cause the flying pieces of mud were too strong, and so we hid under shaking tables and chairs. the wind was freaky i mean. wind that is strong enough to make large pieces of mud fly. strong right?! so everything was flying about in my room and it was like. end of the world.it really felt like MY ROOM, my HOUGANG neighbourhood was getting invaded by crazy flying pieces of mud HAHAyah its retarded i know but if you were in the dream you would probably freak out too.it felt like the happeningyou know? those of you who have watched it before probably know the feeling.YAH THAT FEELING.lol im still blabbering im getting really concerned about myself.AHHHok yah thats the end of my dream.i rmb the last thing i did was go under my table (i was hiding) and pull out the plug for all the switches.i dno why i did that in the dream. i think its because my dad keeps warning my about my plugs every other day IN REAL LIFE. he's so worried that i'll set the house on fire one day =.=but seriously why must the last thing i do in my dream be PULLING OUT THE PLUGif it was the end of the world why the heck would i bother about my house being set on fire cause of the plug?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!lol.these crazy dreams should really stop. my pillows are in constant torture cause of these crazy dreams.i woke up today beside only two pillows. ok i was sleeping on one of them. so only ONE pillow was beside me.the other 3 were on the floor, and two were obviously thrown about my bed cause they were nowhere near my head (relatively speaking)my poor bolster flew in front and landed in front of the dressing table.imba~i actually managed to believe that the earth would end with flying pieces of mud killing everybody.wow.ok i think i should really stop blabberingim still worried about my training its so screwed.UGH i need divine intervention. HAHA-edits- i really didnt know that i can blabber this much. i only started off with the intention of complaining about my shitty trainings :sAND. zijin's arms are REAL LONG. when she spreads her arms they cover the entire LENGTH of the nyshooting range window panel. WOW.training in 16 hours. OMINOUS. :s id rather have flying pieces of mud than horrible trainings
ahahahahahaha omg today is so retarded.on the bus trip back home i was like listening to musicden suddenly got the luozhixiang(xiaozhu) de 精舞门and in the middle got tis part is like 我有一条特别了不起的神经越跳越带劲den obviously tissue was trying to see how well she can memorise lyricsand for tat part it jus occurred to me so naturally as我有一条小毛驴我从来也不骑and seriously if u try singing it out IT FITS CAN.and i think my version nicer (:den after trning went to poolside for dinch.(in case any caveman dunno. dinch = dinner + lunch)and we did bad things to wccos basically cutting the story short, wc was being irritating as usualand so we threated so sms sth like ______(girl's name) I LOVE YOU to his mumAH HA GG.and so gs typed out the messageshiing sent it. HAHAHAHALIKE ITS REALLY SENT.cos according to shiing she dint mean to. but she din noe there was no more confirmation after pressing 'send'haahhahahaha i wonder how wc's mum will respond.and after we send we realise tat the message would stir more trouble for wcif we sent it to ______ (another girl's name)eh i not bad. so give wc face.both girl de name i din type outHAHAHAHA but i think its like quite unsaid.like if tok about wc.. common sense will make someone link it to tat 2 girls' nameAH HA!engway the engeng is getting. irritatinghes like freaking 春风得意I DUNNO WHY....whole day i see him today he got the :D faceand u noe tat face on engeng is jus. kiam pah.so i whacked his head quite hard.sincere apologies to engeng for murduring ur alreadyfewinnumbers-brain cellsnow i hope his mom wont get pissed at me for mistreating the son.(:TERMINATED
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