the danger of my angst.i know ive to get rid of it. that acuumulated mountain of sadness and anger.theres no way. and when theres no way, you run away from it.for as long as you can. until you cant hold out and you explode.implosion. for people who dont have the privilege of exploding out loud.for too long ive been taking it in and not retaliating.for too long there was high resistance against the anger.imploding feels really bad.i dont laugh just cause im in the presence of other ppl.its a balancing act, you know?to make sure im still sane.i need that laughter. its not pretence. its real.its tiring, trying to keep yourself sane in all this madness. laughing is the only escape.people just dont get it.dont. keep trying to argue that ______ is a better school and people from ny and hc are reneging and transfering over.im not like you.dont. keep trying to force me then act like you dont.dont. keep trying to expect more and more from my academic results.dont. try and control me. you cant. you can control my actions. force me. but you cant. control my emotions.the struggle doesnt go away at all. in school and at home.its painful. and it eats you from inside out.i dont know whats happening.thank god im normal 90% of the time. SANE. a little bit happier. and a lot more light hearted.thank god.now that im done.its time to shove it back down.and go on.strong.secondhand serenade----a twist in my storySlow down, the world isn't watching us break downIt's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone nowNot a whisper, the only noise is the receiverI'm counting the seconds until you break the silenceSo please just break the silenceThe whispers turn to shoutingThe shouting turns to tearsYour tears turn into laughterAnd it takes away our fearsSo you see, this world doesn't matter to meI'll give up all I had just to breatheThe same air as you till the day that I dieI can't take my eyes off of youAnd I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feelingI'm feeling inspiredMy world just flip turned upside downIt turns around, saw that's that soundIt's my heart beat, it's getting much louderMy heart beat, is louder than everI'm feeling alive, I'm feeling aliveMy whispers turn to shoutingThe shouting turns to tearsYour tears turn into laughterAnd it takes away our fearsSo you see, this world doesn't matter to meI'll give up all I had just to breatheThe same air as you till the day that I dieI can't take my eyes off of youI'm finally waking up, a twist in my storyIt's time I open up, and let your love right through meI'm finally waking up, a twist in my storyIt's time I open up, and let your love right through meThat's what you getWhen you see your life in someone else's eyesThat's what you get, that's what you getyes. im the ultimate romantic i know. i admit. HAHAHAthis song lifts that burden that much. lift my burden.
