boo! ah~~~haii must faster use the comp before i fei fei to china.bet we wont have the luxury to even touch the comp, not even go online. and their online messenger will probably be some qq thingy not msn =.=so it'll be like obs.. off civilization!but im excited to try out the food! quite hesitant as well but nvm~ my judgement should suffice.today wanted to wake up at 630 to prepare to go to school.. ended up waking at 715 instead! seriously when i saw the alarm i was like.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!die~ but i still got there in time!yay got readyin ten minutes. including taking a shower~ im proud of myself HAHAAHafter the sy thingy me cassie and ahli went to orchard..getting quite close to this group of ppl. seems unreal.. but i love them!haha went to eat pepper lunch. and i realise we are damn suaku.mine came first then lili was like EH FASTER FASTER! ADD THE SAUCE!!!!! omg damn slow la you!!!!!!!1 HURRY UP LAthen me "WHAT SAUCE WHAT SAUCE. eh last time i tried_____-should i jsut put the other one or what?!!?!?"lili"HURRY UP STIR LA LATER CHAO TA"me"I KNOW LA "cassie"must add sauce meh? whats that?!eh the honey brown sauce?!"=.=evidently she hasnt been to pplunch beforeyummy~after we ate i wasnt really full, prob because we talked super lots about everything and my stomach digested the food fricking fastyah. i think thats it.so when i said another pplunch they were like. WTH!!!so. i didnt eat. =[hahaha it wouldhave burnt a hole in my pocket~went to buy HER present. =]]i really giving myself alot of credit for planning the whole thing! the three of them will be so happy la!if is me i will feel damn xingfu! hAHAHAafter that..walk walk walk. then me and lili but fourskins necklace! same onehahahaha next time wear out tgt. ok im straight lor~im getting very attached to them.all five of them! jessie is from primary school ren4 shi4 so very de ok~but i never knew id be so close to the rest! hahahahaha everything also talk. damn funny.ohwells.apart from my problems, they know everything about me!esp lili, sit with me for one year this year, plus half year last year. i know her style she know my style. HAHAcassie can be trusted to buy a good birthday present for me cause she go shopping with me twice le.the rest all also know me de la HAHAHAAand then they keep saying they thought i very dao/act when they first saw mei dont think so lor..haha i just dont treat strangers very well unless they deserve it.but if you know me then everything will be ok and im really not that bad HAHAHAHA hor, lili?eh i very sad!!!!!!!!!!!! my luggage abit full le.aiya but nto too bad la hahaa once i heard lili luggage de weight, i felt veryveryveryvery comforted.wah i think she can just bring her whole house XDDjust kidding~hai.and i just realised the time i flying is = flying on saturday night.which means.TMR IS LAST DAY!!!!!! die.die die die die die die!!!!!!i really feel like cursing and saying lots of nasty stuff.i'll just say that you ppl are inconsiderate, nasty, impolite, disgusting dumb idiots who are NAIVE. we are all gonna get sick one day.you just keep praying god wont be so bad to you to make your condition as bad as hers.WADS WRONG WITH YOU PPL.whenever i see ppl like you i feel like taking a gun and putting it to my head then kill myself for living in such a useless world.of course, before that i would have killed and tortured you.im not gonna hide it.IM FULL OF ANGER. IM FULL OF HATRED. I HAT ETHE WORLD.so? at least im not naive.ive always believed that ppl are bad and the world is unfair.it is UNFAIR to let her suffer like that while ppl around her laugh at her.IT IS UNFAIR. IT IS UNfAIR. why must she put up with this shit. this world.AND WHY CAN YOU IDIOTS CONTINUE LIVING WHEN YOU DESERVE PUNISHMENT.HOW CAN YOU BRING YOURSELF TO TREAT HER LIKE THAT.ftw.im not gonna curse you but i know that one day everyones gonna get sickeveryones gonna have needles poked into you.EVERYONES GONNA HAVE STITCHES AND EVERYONE IS GONNA BE IN A PITIFUL STATE.but lemme just say this. YOU DONT DESERVE IT.and when that day comes all you ppl will do is cry and beg for pity. ALL YOU WILL DO IS BLAME WHATEVER GOD YOU BELIEVE IN AND SAY "why did this happen to me?!?!"YOU DONT DESERVE PITY. at all.ok. maybe then you would have deserved it and suckers like me will just xin ruan and help you.but FOR NOW YOU PPL DESERVE A TIGHT slAP ON YOUR FACE.WHY CANT YOU PPL SEE THAT MONEY CANT BUY EVERYTHINGWHY CANT YOU PPL JUST WAKE UP! WHATS WRONG WITH YOU PPL.I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I HATE THE WORLD.I HATE WHAT HAPPENED TO HER.SHE HATES IT TOO.BUT HAS SHE COMPLAINED, NO. HAS SHE ACTED LIKE A COWARD JUST LIKE YOU, I GUESS NOT. HAS SHE BLAMED IT ON ANYONE, NO.IF YOU COULD LOOK CLOSELY, UNDER THOSE UGLY SCARS, SHREDDED SPEECH AND FADED HEARING. YOUD FIND A FSCKING NICE PERSON WHO MANAGED TO SURVIVE THROUGH ALL THE SHIT.BUT NO. EDUCATION HAS TAUGHT US THAT PPL WHO LOOK BAD ARE BAD, PPL WHO ARE IN A PITIFUL STATE DESERVE IT.AND PPL WHO ARE INFERIOR TO YOU DESERVE YOUR LAUGHTER.ive given up on the world long enough, hence the cruelty and coldness to strangers.i have zero tolerance level for ppl who are shit.ive given up on the world. given up on its ppl.ive given up on trying to fight against the flow, to make ppl convinced that she is not what she looks like. ive given up trying to ignite her dreams once again, cause she too, has given up on the world.i give up.totally.cause even education has failed us.im not a nice person. cause the world has taught me niceties are useless.im sorry if i sound damn lian using all this uncouth and horrible words. i dont like it too. but these ppl deserve it.they are a.*.*.h.o.l.e.s.fricking. a.*.*.h.o.l.e.sterminated.emo is the option when faced with life's shit. imaddictedtoit.
