helloo.haha if you feel happy please just dont continue readingi dont wanna feel guilty.im feeling not effed up today.. justscrewed upnot screwed up.emohaha i admit..im emo todayim not one of those stupid ppl who slip into emoness and depression for nothing and make myself so unhappy.anw.five hours was all they could give me.it was a really short time, the amount of time you were rented to me.every five months.this time was the shortest tripand the most pain one..ling.i cant say im sorry i had school.neither can you say you were sorry you could only transit over ytd and stay till tmrthose were beyond control.but if five hours was all i had id take itlike i had.this year was really badwith everything happening around me'i know you know how emotionally screwed i am this yearnot cause you asked me but you felt ityou left me alone for awhileof everyone around meonly you could give me peace.before this is gonna get into like i-love-you-confession mode..i really mean all that i say.you wont read this but i really need to rantyou knew it was badi was getting shityou didnt have to say anythingi saw you and i just felt warmth.. something i havent felt in a long time.five months ago i was still happy=]but when i needed you the mosti only had five hoursit was so pain.anw.nice having you aroundthe person i love the most=]nothing more should be said cause we got telepathy and you arent gonna read thisbut1 hour of seeing you puke and get sick isnt making me feel any btr that you are in about the same state as me3hours of kboxing really let me vent everything inside and really laugh for the first time in a long long while.the last hour..minus half an hour spent on travellingthe three neoprints takenlike we always didmeant alot to me分手快乐我无法帮你预言委曲求全有没有用可是我多么不舍朋友爱的那么苦痛爱可以不问对错至少要喜悦感动如果他总为别人撑伞你何苦非为他等在雨中泡咖啡让你暖手想挡挡你心口里的风你却想上街走走吹吹冷风会清醒的多你说你不怕分手只有点遗憾难过情人节就要来了剩自己一个其实爱对了人情人节每天都过分手快乐 祝你快乐你可以找到更好的不想过冬 厌倦沉重就飞去热带的岛屿游泳分手快乐 请你快乐挥别错的才能和对的相逢离开旧爱 像坐慢车看透彻了心就会是晴朗的没人能把谁的幸福没收你发誓你会活的有笑容----你自信时候真的美多了 its a love song i knowits a break up song i knowits a song about usp4 the first time i heard it.the first time i was flying back from bruneithe first cd/tape someone had given mehad this track.i cried on the airplane home while listening to this on the planekor thought i was siaowe've sung this every time we part after every meetinglast time you came i couldnt pull throught he first chorus evenso be proud i pulled through the end.you ging personrefuse to cry go home then cry..worse right..=[five hours made me forget all the pain i felt in the past monthsall the heartbreaks.every time you came you left. everytime i went i left. its just like thatthat we were never meant to stay together no matter how sister we felt.i curse.butto always know that at least i have someone feeling the pain when i feel it is great.im pretty doubtful we werent twins.everytime you left my heart shatteredloss of warmth.everytime you left my heart was scotchtaped togetherwhen you came back again it shatteredand this time it'll leave a scar.i really needed you.there was no time.but the hugs said it all.ling.. <33i'll see you in december i guessdont cry over himbe happy.=]]dont miss me too much though..id feel itshit la. cannot cryy..cannot cry..you always come to break my record of not crying right..see la.shatter it again.and i hate hen duo mao!gawd.think of me more okay.if not i'll go and stab him with a spoon and flood his voicemail.HAH.kai xin.kaixin.yin wei wo you ni.bu ke yi ku.. -ing-
