okaypost 224..i still want my 233^^everythings over..nationals.training.frustration.angst.medals.prize p.the crazy partying..its been a fast time and rollercoaster ride yes, especially for some.im really really worried for those who are still in the mode of competition stress and pressure cause they didnt do expected.the thing with shooting..no matter how hard you trainhow many techniques you have tried to masterthe outcome is never guaranteed and all we can do is to hope our brains and hearts dont crack that daythose lucky are able to walk through and its heartbreaking to see floods on ppl's facesi dont know what to do. or what i can doi dont know what to say. or what i can say.to make yall feel betterbut i know yall are upset, frustrated and angryim not stupid. i can feel your pain. but i cant reach out to you. and i blame it on me. cause i am unable to.there are many who were hurt along the way.by the way they performed. the remarks that made them vengeful. the emotional stress.i really dno how to comfort yall.and i just pray that you'll feel btr the next day when i go to sleep at nighti get nightmares of saying horrible goodbyes to seniors, stepping into the range to see everyone else crying and crying and dreaming that i dreamt of all the memories i had in safra; that everything everyone every memory. was dreamt up. talking. hugging. comforting.i guess yall just need more time..till then..i'll walk you through.even if you cant see me, i'll be walking behind in your shadowsuntil you pick yourself up.now matter how long it takes. i'll be praying for you.im not very good at expressing myself the way i want it to bebut.i guess.i hope.yall can feel me crying with you. -shiing-terminated
