k. im trying to blog.sleep deficient...now wondering if i should have went on with the midnight show with cass on saturday after sending our buddies home.nice show but =.= <-- im really looking like this now.gahhhnot enough sleep not enough sleep.still havent found a way to save my sleep time and catch more time for myself.some sorting out to do.ahh.CNY!!!!!!! OMG I CANT BELIEVE IM GOING TO BRUNEIIIIdidnt expect it. with the ticket prices..ahwells.pretty much more willing to spend more dough to buy more precious memories after that incident last year.many horrifying moments but nvm..throw it all away for the moment.. start something new. im trying ok.. to make the nightmares get off me.somehow i feel ypt feels im not as cheerful as before. its weird how she looks at me now.makes me wanna go reflect. the same feeling ycy used to give me.that aside..i dont understand ppl sometimes.why they dont defend themselves.. and keep away from ppl whove hurt them before.its just. weird.weird how ppl get brainwashed.and i dont understand why you keep harming them too. youre bad.been heading back for avrils songs again these few weeks.dang shes the best (better before she was bimbofied. though she still sounds great)ok personal opinion.and those who havent watched di4 cai2, jolins concert dvd..you shouldthat dvd's made me proud of her and proud of being her fan these few years. at least i feel that shes not as shallow as some ppl think she is.some ppl just dont get it.was walking along vivo ytd with my shenyang buddy and the rest of them..i saw an exhibition full of blackk and white drawings.OHMYGOD FREAKING NICE!!!!!!!!!!!i had a sudden urge to buy everything but no $$ and im not exactly that crazy just yet.couldnt take a closer look cause they were rushing to get onto the monorail BUT OMG its super cooltotally.. nice. lili says morbid. as usual. the rest couldnt be bothered about me.. ahhh was dumped there for awhile. why do i seem so weird. im not. i like click five too. the old click five. zzzapparently the artist had a mental disorder.. worse than depression i guessand so he drew many many of these sketches about how he felt.wow.i love it!even more so cause hes recovered from the mental illness.i wanna meet him but hahahahaha i think id be wasting his timethats about it..i need my sleep *-*you cant comprehend what you dont feel.if youre unable to comprehend then just stay away.terminated
