So Cliché

2009-11-04T21:16:00.002+08:00

you grow older by decades in jc.
you look back at old posts and wonder how the hell you could have posted those childlike posts.
there's an urge to delete the posts, or even the whole blog entirely.

but then again.
you wonder when how and why you stopped being upfront about your feelings.
not blogging, not writing your diary anymore.
it was an occurence that became a habit.
and then every once in awhile, like now, you start to look back and find that as you grow older, there are fewer things you truly commit to memory. because you dont really feel much anymore when there are fewer instances of such innocence.

oh sweetheart.
those were the days. days of happiness.

2009-04-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

(:

I've blogged about this as well.

Though it's on my own blog so i wouldnt drown this out.

So yeah just..to let you guys know.

<3>

2009-04-03T00:43:00.004+08:00

I'm sure this colour has not been seen in So Cliche since 2007. Just to refresh your memory, I'm Ah Rol. Ex riflist of NYGH Shooting Team. Now in NJshooting and dressed in grey.
as you all know,
I left the team and NYGH in March 2008 to pursue what I thought was right, transferring to NJC. Despite all that has happened, Zijin, Shiing, and Eening have been so vivid in my mind and I still feel close to them despite the distance, the difference in characters, events, lives, everything that constitutes a person's identity and world. I have never forgotten the team. I have never forgotten what we've done, what we've achieved together, though our record has been broken by a new generation.
I was inspired to blog this post after reading Ah Mua's post as I was seriously touched by what she said. So here goes, in a similar format.

Ah Zan.
from the day i met you, you have grown in height. Even now, I have to look up to you.
a far cry from our secondary 1-2 days.
everytime I showed you my cards in the morning, and you said " Ah rol, that's good"
I felt like I had done something that mattered.
You have been there for me, through thick and thin and fat and skinny.
you withstood all the unreasonable crap and shit I managed to throw at you through impassioned fits and tantrums brought on by shitty training or emotional waves.
when I lashed out at you because I couldn't stand the idea that I sucked, you took it all and still reached out with loving arms to hug me, to comfort me. And when you couldn't stand it and snapped, I deserved all the shit that you threw at me through this blog, even though little of it was unfairly said. I deserved it all.
And yet, after that,
we're closer. and a random statement, your emoticon really looks like you.
Every time I see that face, something in me unknots and I think, everything's going to be ok.
We're closer and our bond is so much stronger because of the incident. I look back at it and I think to myself, what an ass I was.
I miss the days of seeing you everyday, of being able to share with you jokes, talk about teachers, training.
I miss sitting in the dark and just stoning before training.
Yet here we are today.
I remember the conversations we had during lectures in the LT scribbling in my notebook about the Croc and nationals. I still have the sketch of the nationals that i drew. I'll scan it in.
we've grown closer. yet further because of one stupid canal and two stupid roads.
I made that choice, I don't regret it. I regret the loss of the team still.
I love you for all of that. Thank you for all that you have done. I'm weak, but you and ah mua managed to make me strong.
I.. crap. crap crud SUGAR, why are 3 words INSUFFICIENT. see la ah mua, i'm crying cos of you. mental block. emotions really screw you up. heng ah, now not my period(TMI) otherwise i would be typing emotional crap.
Zan, I love you, and I wouldn't be where I am without you, you who have been a true friend more times than I can count. 3 times national champion, overseas shooter in Nanjing, etc. Thank you for seeing the good in me while admonishing me for the bad even when I didn't want to see.Thank you for talking me out of training slumps; most importantly, for having faith in me. You were a comforting presence by my side, a solid rock i could lean onand that presence still lingers. You were the one I felt closest to you.

Ah mua. muah-chee. full of angles when i try and hug you. I have bruises from those attempts.
I have sat at that very same spot for many a time now and still I feel your presence beside me while waiting.
It's true, what I said. I felt as if there was glass separating us, an invisible barrier that i could somehow, not break through. I couldn't reach out to you, I couldn't help you, I couldn't help you through whatever pain you went through. And yet you were always by my side, peacemaking Zan and my fiery temper. It hurt me, that I couldn't help you even when you were helping me. Stepping in for me whenever my DM sucked, letting me jump on you even though there was a possibility of me breaking your bones. I still have kept the sms you sent to me when I was in KL for SEASA: " Ah rol, you are stepping out into the world of international shooting. JIA YOU" or something of the like. haha.... I never forgot the encouragement that you gave me over the years. None of it. you kept pushing me up when I fell and couldn't get up because of the bruises and scrapes that failure left on me. I've said this to ah Zan, and I'll say it again. I wouldn't be where I am now, 3 times National Champion, without you. You help to make me who I am right now. I love you. Everytime I hugged you, I thought of Muahchee with a backbone of rocksugar that couldn't be broken no matter what kind of shit that life threw at you. I still only have a small inkling of what kind of shit Life threw at you, but I'll never know the full story and maybe, it's meant to stay that way. I love you. Thank you for what you've done for me.

TO ZAN AND MUA, a DUAL POST
zan mua, i've said this twice now, and they say 3 times is the winner. You helped make me who I am. Ever since I went to NJ, I didn't know about your lives anymore. Yet when I crashed this year with a magnificent 304, you were there to comfort me. It's like guardian angels, you two knew about my life but I didn't know about yours. I couldn't give even when you gave me your love and care and concern and help and that hurts. Ah wells. I love you two. I miss you guys. I can't imagine an adulthood without you guys in it, flitting around here and there.

AH NING
hey ooining...
i'm sorry for being one of the most distant team members. You were the one, are the one I still know the least about. As a team, we managed, and I regret not getting to know you better. I love you. thank you for all you did in Sec1, sec2, and sec3, including the birthday gifts that you gave even when I was probably one of the most distant members. Thank you. <3>

2009-03-26T20:07:00.002+08:00

i'm..really coming back to this blog for this first time this year..
to where it all started, where it all changed.
this blog has become a part of me. where i lay my emotions out. from emo to happy to random..
even with no postings.. i realise that i visit the blog everyday
just to see if there are any tags..any posts..
because i cant stop a routine so deeply etched in my system. checking the blog is like my tying my shoelaces. essential. a part of me.

and i shall bare my heart out right here, right now.
unusual, given my character. i know.
but this is where it all started. this is where i'll continue.

i read some of the past posts from 2006..
from the time when we were still so innocent.
those dual posts.. triple posts.
me..zijin carol and my dearest eening..
i must say those posts have successfully managed to make me tear
it's really touching to read how closely knit we once were.
how fast each year passes.
and now i feel, is the right time to do a proper roundup. to orientate my feelings in the proper direction..
to my dearest eening; i'll never forget the times we shared. the happiness. everything. even though there's this communication problem since sec 3 cause of the team divide and everything.. i know that at the end of the day you'll always be there. somewhere around.. just in case i need you. ohmy im tearing. yeah. i guess i never really said it openly but i really really love you. its a pity how things cant go back to what they were, but i just want to thank you. and tell you that i'll be here for you if you ever need me. thank you so, so much for supporting me when my life goes into crazy pitfalls.. and..im sorry i couldnt catch you in time when you were falling. it's a regret i'll have to deal with every nationals. im sorry i wasnt there.

to my carol; you said this in 2007, right after our epic win.
"ah mua......seems like just yesterday we were still at the carpark chatting...and emoing lolhahasince then i guess we've both changed or smth...i dunnoi noe im not as close as you to zijin....and i really hope that i was able to be there for you when you wanted me to be....you ah....vomit three times. whack you.thanks for helping get through all my hard times...being the sole peacemaker...not that we need it nowadays after nationals....being the glue that stuck both of us together..den paraing and dm-ing tgt .."

that day when we were shooting in safra, i went back to the carpark to sit down. at the exact spot where we always sat, talking into the night while waiting for our parents 2 to 3 years ago. that rush of nostalgia hit me right in the face. and i realised how long it has been. i miss those days, and i miss you as my teammate. sometimes i dont know how to encourage you, because of the distance between us. but i know you know that im always near you. no matter what ppl might say about you, ive always regarded you as a good friend of mine. close to me. even though we only shared two years tgt. till now, whenever i see you at safra i feel that sense of familiarity, its like nothing has changed since sec 2. shit im crying wow. almost everything has changed since then. our characters, our lives, our teams, our coaches. our school, our curriculum.. everything's different. but i still love you nevertheless. and those memories never fade. i'll never forget how you'll jump on me from behind and hug me so endearingly, i felt so loved. and the warmth i felt was overwhelming. till now i rmb the smell of your suit, the way you look at me when you wear your shooting specs.. your fear of coach..honestly. everything seems so surreal now that we're in different teams. its almost like im incomplete. strange but true..

to my dearest zijin;
the days of dm and photohunt have been long gone. we've seen the opening of new 7-11s. the construction of the hospital.. the changes in safra.. the old locker room being converted. the armoury undergoing reconstruction..
long gone. and i really miss those days when we truly enjoyed ourselves. when we didnt have to worry about completing homework in time, worry about our responsibility to the school. worry about our image.. those memories are crazy. ive got so much to say to you but i dont know why im having a mental block now. carol and eening have made me so emotional haha.
anw im just super glad to have you as my teammate all these years.
we fought together for four years already. its crazy i know.
four years is like 25% of our lives..
all that we've been through.. failure. victory. heartbreak. pitfalls..
i love you.
nothing less.
thanks for everything. i cant imagine a day when you arent in my team anymore, a day when we dont shoot or complain, or even a day without you.
that idea of you not being in my life one day is so freakishly scary i dont even wanna think about it.

the team. me carol zijin and eening. only existed for one year. but memories have last me the whole while. its a regret that we've since split up..
buti just want you guys to know how much i miss our team (omg this sentence made me cry again) i really really miss this complete team, which has given me so much happiness in the past. every step that i take in hcshooting reminds me of how we used to fight tgt, just for a stupid gold medal. it reminds me of the team we once were. so close, so defined. so simple, yet so powerful. the image of our initial team mirrors every single step i take in the shooting world, even during nationals in sec four. i really, really miss our team and i really regret letting us distance from each other. nevertheless i treasure everything that that team has given me, and the strength garnered from those memories shall stay with me forever.
i love you guys. honestly. ;_;

to shiing;
shiing, 2007 nationals: "our best might never be enough in others' eyes.but its all that matters within us.promise that we'll never have to wipe tears of sadness and give hugs of encouragement because our best was not enough..cause in that case, we did not fail."
this.. has reminded me of why im shooting after so many years. gave me a wakeup call today. totally. growing up has been more of screwing up your mind rather than getting more mature. there's a difference. but after going to hwachong, i finally feel the character in me solidifying, being moulded. i realise who i am, and who im not. i see how ppl act, and i make decisions to stay true to myself.
im not really hyped up about this year's nationals currently. and i dont know why.
somehow i feel coach doesnt have enough faith in us. and to him, if we win. its a bonus, we were lucky. if we lose, itd be expected cause he thinks nanyang shooters cant perform in comps.
i cant find motivation in him. the trigger that is needed to fire my passion.
i need a proper conclusion for trainings before nationals. and i feel that the team should get down and talk before nats. i really want xinxi to have the best nationals ever. its her graduating year, and i really really wanna thank her for being such a great mum all this while..i want her to have the best, because she deserves it. all the effort, the tears. and the tension that she feels because she thinks she isnt as good as us. not neccessarily true, mummy..
i promise to give me best for you. and even if i screw up, i'll walk out being proud to be your daughter. i love you mummy. from the bottom of my heart.
one training left to comp, one week more.
8days to singing the school song.
i really wanna sing the school song. make the announcement. make xinxi proud that her team succeeded. and prove coach wrong. that im not a failure, and that i can perform. if im gonna have to settle for 380, i'll do it with pride. i wont let myself down. no.
i want all these to work out. honestly.

after such a long post. i realised why i am still shooting this year's nationals.
i want to relive the past. and create new memories for the future.
hold on to a team that has been created years ago, but changed as time passed.
grab on to a team i love with all my heart, with a mummy so strong a pillar of support you just cant help but worry when you see her tear.
i want to..
live my dream. and sing the school song.

i know my training curve's been going up exponentially.
and my comp performance has been going down exponentially.
but.
i will walk out of the comp knowing i tried my best.
no tears. no fear.

to my Agirlsrifle'09: no fear. we fight. cause we are proud, hcshooters.

fired up.

2009-01-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

first two days of school..
quite boring actually. dont feel any excitement
started off with trying not to get lost in the uniform. LOL i know why i look weird le.
cause i dont normally wear collars! (most probable reason).. the only collar shirt i have is ny pe tee.. maybe thats why. dno la heck.
drawstrings are a pain.
and then what does hc do?
they bombard you with lectures, and talks on discipline telling you how high your socks should be.
when they feel a little bit kinder.. they give you english diagnostic tests by asking you to do an essay early in the frigging morning.
and then theres training.
which i dno. i think im stagnant at the sec 3 sec 4 standard. ohwells. not a surprise...maybe thats my max? ?
i thought about my nightmare today and because of that i shot an 8 on the last card.
i think it started when i was thinking of sleeping. then sleeping link to dreaming..link to..
i try so hard to control and i still shoot 8.. im ownage. i knew it was coming. oh geez.

oh nightmare go away.

the untold story..few know.
walking with metal chains twisted round my legs.
the wounds cut open and bleed with every step.
grapple with emotional torture.
how much more i can take, how much longer can i last.
sometimes i just think that it'll be better if we all just succumb to the idea of death.
im sick of having no time limit.
and im sick of being the middle person. enduring all the quarrels, making peace. getting scolded for no reason.
i dnt know why im not cursing. i dnt know why im not angry.
he asked me if i had ever thought.. "why me?"
...
i dont know.
i think i'll explode one day.. soon.. and we'll see where that ends.

chad kroeger--hero.
I am so high, I can hear heaven.
I am so high, I can hear heaven.
Oh but heaven, no heaven don't hear me.

And they say that a hero can save us.
I'm not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.

Someone told me that love would all save us.
But how can that be?
Look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling, thatworld never came.

And they say that a hero can save us.
I'm not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.

Now that the world isn't ending, it's love that I'm sending to you.
It isn't the love of a hero, that's why I fear it won't do.
And they say that a hero can save us.
I'm not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.

2009-01-13T11:08:00.002+08:00

first of all
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE FOUR PPL I KNOW!!!!!!!!
WHOOO 3 from shooting
LOL
ok lets sing you a song.
ready go.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~~~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
:D

may all your dreams and wishes come true.
gs say can only make one wish on your birthday
but for greedy ppl like me. just make alot of wishes la. in case one wish can't come true then got another wish to back up HAHAHHA

ytd the range was so freaking quiet and leng qing.
i like~~~~~
super shuang can.
not like the daily ultra spamming of pellets then ping piang kio one.
its like. zen mode HAHAHAHAHA
end of holidays is like so near and i havent touched math at all, or even make up my mind on what subject combi im gonna take :S
totally not ready for school, and even more not ready for xin nian.
oh right. theres monthly too.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

white horse--taylor swift!!
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, well now I know

That Im not a princess, this aint a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
But I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your white horse to come around

well i think its time i really let go.
start anew.
it's been a very, very long journey.

ohmygoodness my mind's a blank.
ok nvm.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!
the most colourful post ever :D

2009-01-11T11:07:00.004+08:00

hahahaha yes tissue is here to blog.
and NO IM NOT GOING TO FLAME ANYONE ANYMORE
YAY~~
tissue recovered from her depression =.-

okay anyway yes im here to promote the Gossip Club
heres the url: ohhmai.blogspot.com
currently its still a bit empty
but im sure given the potential of the gossip club we will be able to fill things up soon
and yes im proud to announce tat im the president of gossip club
should i even be proud of tat =.-
so erm. the blog will be like. gossiping about almost everything under the sun
like from scandals to celebrities to gambling matters AND WADS MORE
WE GOSSIP ABOUT PIMPLE CREAMS~
discussions are welcomed on the tagboard (:
i dun mind informants too AHHHHHH

TERMINATED

2009-01-08T22:19:00.003+08:00

zijin is quite irritated at how these certain 2 ppl is trying to say tat im leaking secrets
okay i admit i leak secrets before.
who havent.
but when i say i wont leak anything. i meant it
and when i say i din leak anything. i meant it as well
to tat 2 person im sorry im using tis tone when im blogging
im not flaming but im jus trying to clear things up
can u 2 stop trying to make it sound as if im the one spreading stuff about u 2
making the SECRET known to everyone?!
in fact when i got to noe of it
its already quite an open secret.

like firstly the guy u noe who u are.
ask urself how many ppl u have told.
and ask those who noe about it.
wad made them noe or who told them.
and den to 2 of u.
even if u din tell to certain ppl.
jus look at the way u all behave
even retards can make sth out of it can hello?

i hope u 2 can turn out fine.
but i hope u 2 can also be more aware of the surrounding and the surrounding ppl
seriously its pointless to point fingers at me saying tat im leaking stuff
because tats not where the problem lies.

TERMINATED

2009-01-07T19:44:00.002+08:00

its only the first week of 2009 and i already feel like dying
ahhhh
seriously my shooting has been so screwed for the past week.
inclusive of monday's training, tuesday's training, and today's training.
basically every training ever since i came back
omg not like i was pro before i flew off but it wasnt this bad!
ok i think you get my desperation
seriously its like a super bad start to 2009
i cant imagine shooting like this for the whole of o9 like its a curse
i'll just die.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
-freaks out-
so screwed. so screwed.
and seriously having monthlies right after new year is :O
gg
im totally gonna screw up
seriously training has become so bad that i am conscious that im doing the wrong things but my unconscious brain just keeps being retarded and slow and refuses to register that im doing the wrong thing and continue to do the wrong thing
how screwed is that?!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dont need to say i also know. its VERY screwed.
-faints-
coach is like. speechless after trainings HAHA
im speechless also. either speechless, irritated, tired, or just feel like dying on the spot. i really feel like melting into the ground sometimes and BURN my cards HAHA
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i seriously need to scream. thank god we going to kbox tmr
omg spam emo HAHA
look at the number of seriouslys i have typed.
its like. overwhelming.
seriously i have a problem with vocab right now its so limited cause my brain is in a flustered state. actually not only my brain my whole body is flustered no wonder i shiver like crazy during trainings pfft
and im blabbering off on the blog now nonstop cause im so frustrated i have to get it out of my system
AHHH destress.
im still blabbering
ok i shall stop. lets talk about my dreams!
omg i was jsut telling zijin today about my nightmare last night'
it started off very ncie and happy with me being in BRUNEI in an unknown house celebrating my birthday (so many houses in brunei to choose from but pianpian it was an unknown house =.=)
:D got cake. but the cake was like.. half water half jelly. my first reaction when i saw the cake was :s but everyone acted normal, like the cake was really ok and nice, so i thought the cake was very nice too HAHAHA i can convince myself so easily.
then after that everyone was playing and suddenly i was standing in MY ROOM, in MY HOUSE, in SINGAPORE. omg freakkkkkk
and then suddenly everyone started screaming
and then everyone chionged out to play with SNOW.
and then someone i know came over to talk to me -i forgot who- then i was like "yah see they play until so damn happy sia its like singapore got snow" and then i looked out the window (in my dream), and it was only then did it register IN MY BRAIN that it was snowing
gg
os. no wonder im so lag in shooting. 10 go already huang4 away already then i register the 10 AND SHOOT AT THE WRONG TIME. im so proud of myself =.= the best thing is that im CONSCIOUS that the im not shooting properly.
and then we were stoning at ppl playing with snow
then suddenly there was this hailstone storm or something
like suddenly opp my room got construction site (in real life its just flats), and then these foreign workers got killed by hailstones.
ok not hailstones. actually it was just flying pieces of MUD
OMG VERY BIG flying pieces of mud.
and then it hit the foreign workers and they just die. on the spot. like. 'piak' die.
the feeling damn ominous!
after that everyone started running into my room for cover and we are like TRYING TO CLOSE THE WINDOWS with all ourstrength.
i do not know why we did not lock the windows in my dream (come to think of it pressing the window like that is kind of retarded) and like there were strangers all over in my small room and my sofa bed DISAPPEARED and we were all trying to desperately close the windows.
HAHA genius
then it all turned out to be futile cause the flying pieces of mud were too strong, and so we hid under shaking tables and chairs. the wind was freaky i mean. wind that is strong enough to make large pieces of mud fly. strong right?! so everything was flying about in my room and it was like. end of the world.
it really felt like MY ROOM, my HOUGANG neighbourhood was getting invaded by crazy flying pieces of mud HAHA
yah its retarded i know but if you were in the dream you would probably freak out too.
it felt like the happening
you know? those of you who have watched it before probably know the feeling.
YAH THAT FEELING.
lol im still blabbering im getting really concerned about myself.
AHHH
ok yah thats the end of my dream.
i rmb the last thing i did was go under my table (i was hiding) and pull out the plug for all the switches.
i dno why i did that in the dream. i think its because my dad keeps warning my about my plugs every other day IN REAL LIFE. he's so worried that i'll set the house on fire one day =.=
but seriously why must the last thing i do in my dream be PULLING OUT THE PLUG
if it was the end of the world why the heck would i bother about my house being set on fire cause of the plug?!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol.
these crazy dreams should really stop. my pillows are in constant torture cause of these crazy dreams.
i woke up today beside only two pillows. ok i was sleeping on one of them. so only ONE pillow was beside me.
the other 3 were on the floor, and two were obviously thrown about my bed cause they were nowhere near my head (relatively speaking)
my poor bolster flew in front and landed in front of the dressing table.
imba~
i actually managed to believe that the earth would end with flying pieces of mud killing everybody.
wow.
ok i think i should really stop blabbering
im still worried about my training its so screwed.
UGH i need divine intervention. HAHA

-edits- i really didnt know that i can blabber this much. i only started off with the intention of complaining about my shitty trainings :s
AND. zijin's arms are REAL LONG. when she spreads her arms they cover the entire LENGTH of the nyshooting range window panel. WOW.
training in 16 hours. OMINOUS. :s id rather have flying pieces of mud than horrible trainings

2009-01-05T21:15:00.002+08:00

ahahahahahaha omg today is so retarded.
on the bus trip back home i was like listening to music
den suddenly got the luozhixiang(xiaozhu) de 精舞门
and in the middle got tis part is like
我有一条特别了不起的神经
越跳越带劲
den obviously tissue was trying to see how well she can memorise lyrics
and for tat part it jus occurred to me so naturally as
我有一条小毛驴
我从来也不骑
and seriously if u try singing it out IT FITS CAN.
and i think my version nicer (:

den after trning went to poolside for dinch.
(in case any caveman dunno. dinch = dinner + lunch)
and we did bad things to wc
cos basically cutting the story short,
wc was being irritating as usual
and so we threated so sms sth like ______(girl's name) I LOVE YOU to his mum
AH HA GG.
and so gs typed out the message
shiing sent it. HAHAHAHA
LIKE ITS REALLY SENT.
cos according to shiing she dint mean to.
but she din noe there was no more confirmation after pressing 'send'
haahhahahaha i wonder how wc's mum will respond.
and after we send we realise tat the message would stir more trouble for wc
if we sent it to ______ (another girl's name)
eh i not bad. so give wc face.
both girl de name i din type out
HAHAHAHA but i think its like quite unsaid.
like if tok about wc.. common sense will make someone link it to tat 2 girls' name
AH HA!

engway the engeng is getting. irritating
hes like freaking 春风得意
I DUNNO WHY....
whole day i see him today he got the :D face
and u noe tat face on engeng is jus. kiam pah.
so i whacked his head quite hard.
sincere apologies to engeng for murduring ur alreadyfewinnumbers-brain cells
now i hope his mom wont get pissed at me for mistreating the son.
(:

TERMINATED

2008-12-31T19:16:00.002+08:00

AH HA! (:
tissue just went to cut hair after much deliberation
cos if i cut jus before school reopen den it gets freaking screwed
i will have no chance to do sth about it
AND SO I MUSTERED UP COURAGE TO GO CUT.
omg and i think my fringe is screwed
guosheng we should create a 'screwed fringe group' on facebook
oh and tissue jus got a son!
hahahahaha jinny got brother already~
i shall make mummeh my bang3 yang4 and expand the family tree

TERMINATED

2008-12-27T22:13:00.003+08:00

tissue is not in a very good mood now
though i jus finished dinner
like no its not because monthlyshoot will be pressurising since im shooting behind carol
and no its not cos its the first detail den i have to wake up earlyearly tmr morn.
its more of tis specific asshole.
im so sorry im typing the word out.
jus pretend its some biological term

certain ppl jus wont fail to irritate me.
in fact the certain person is freaking good at it
some hidden talent or sth
to the certain person
if u think u r the one im toking about right now
dun come around on msn and ask me IS TAT PERSON U TOKING ON SOCLICHE ME?!
i dun like to flame ppl face to face

to tat certain big ass out there
pls shut ur fucking mouth up
im sorry i have to use tat word. its the most apt description
jus treat is as some technological term describing human reproduction activity
i dun really understand wads going on in ur mind
in fact i dun bother to
but pls fking realise the fact tat u r no one impt at all
fking stop trying to influence ppl and behaving like u r some nice person encouraging ppl
what the hell do u noe about whats happening internally inside ny
and who the blardie hell do u think u r benefitting in the process
having a big butt doesnt give u the right to poke ur ass into every business

personally i think i have been nice enough to ppl around me
and its not like so easy to get on my nerves
but maybe u can be proud of the fact tat u r stomping on my nerves already
stop pretending tat u love and care for everyone around u
maybe u do. but ur way of expressing things is jus out of the world man.
going around saying I LOVE U to girls
like hello im so sorry u made such a lovely sweet sentence into sth foul smelling.
wad the hell do u think u r trying to do man?
flirting around? expressing ur love and concern for ppl?
oh den let me tell u
judging from ur face to ur toes, nth gave u the position to
pls noe where u r standing. i think tats the most impt thing for u right now
noe who u r and noe how the fk ur actions/words can bring upon negative impacts one way or another to other ppl
oh and just another word of advice
when u realise ppl r irritated with u. pls be smart and stay away
stop bugging incessantly because tat will onli make ppl explode sooner

gah i really dun like to flame ppl.
but im so sorry tat i did it today
by right tmr i will still face u
pretend nth happen and smile tok laugh along.
but i wan u to be aware tat hello i dun feel like ren3-ing anymore
u r not worth it.

TERMINATED

2008-12-25T00:07:00.003+08:00

MERRY XMAS BABES!!!!
=]

HAPPY PARTYING~
i wanna go party with you guys.. =[
see yall in <1>

in case i dont get the comp or the internet again..
just wanted to tell everyone to JIAYOU FOR MONTHLIES!
=]]]
i guessed weve all trained damn frigging hard this hols so try your best k!
hhaha
last comp of the year!
jiayoujiayou!
best of luck k! i'll be rahrahing you guys from brunei

i miss you guys alot..
=[

sleep tight!

laopo jiayou =] big hugs! you always have half of me beside you rmb hahaha
<33>

2008-12-14T14:10:00.000+08:00

AHAHHAHA tissue is so going to gg
(somehow realise tat gg sounds very cute and convenient to use)
anyway i haven write my zongjie yet!
was thinking of recording it down in some voice recorder thing
so i dun need to type out the super long essay and worry for cuo bie zi
last week was totally like BUSY.
but so far its like the nicestest week during tis holiday
okay everything was nice except for the mock comp

oh and jus now was bloghopping and i saw edgar's blog
HAHAHAHA THERES TIS WHOLE CHECKLIST
and its like things that ppl can be afraid of
GAH I HAVE LIKE 27 OR 28
If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
so i think im like extremely paranoid
and its time i should get a bit of counselling
><

anyway for the past few days there r 2 statements which is like OMG SO CUTE.
so the first one is hongchan's and its sth like
oh chink is a satay stick, den if he go ns and put on weight (长肉)
he becomes a satay.
and the other one is by shiing
i dun really remember how she came to tat but its sth like
bulldogs are forever so grumpy looking. i bet they don't smile at all.
unless u starve them for 10 days den u put food in front of them.

kay i really dunno wad to post.
tissue is still very worried about her zongjie.

TERMINATED

2008-12-12T20:10:00.001+08:00

ok the past two days have been very eventful =]
i just realised that i spent my whole holidays with shooters shooters and noone but shooters
there was the hcclubchalet, bolt movie outing, one more movie outing [i forgot what], lots of poolside lunches, outings with the nyshooters, partyworlding, mass bridging, and etcetcetc. lol my life will be damn boring without them.

for ytd, thank you guys from the bottomest bottom of my heart =]
ky ew xx for the bearbear, ky for the card, zj for the ONEHALFPAGE LETTER haha im so proud of you and the trophy HAHA im also very proud of this present, ryo james wesley edgar and the rest for just being there, chink for the idiots mug turtle and the letter [i love letters from chink.], gs for the cards handsanitizer and the rest, the whole bunch of ppl for the cake, jinnyreginejianing for the cookiemonster and nail polish~, tc for the stars and card, the whole bunch who made me so high and happy in partyworld, and those who came out to support chink's farewell party which was so last minute.

as zj had said today, being in the middle of nowhere [graduate from ny but not officially in hc] helps put things in perpectives that you have never seen before
and ever since i entered training in hc, my whole world opened up alot, and is still opening up.
im still trying to find an answer to "do you have a passion for shooting?" because this question has been increasingly difficult to answer. you cant say yes as easy as you can when youre in sec two cause things change, but yet you know you feel for shooting, so there. hahaha gimme a little bit more time =]

ive always appreciated the friends and juniors and seniors that shooting has given me, but whoa. going to hcrange makes me appreciate shooters even more.
theres the shit time everyone goes through, and you can get through it cause you know youre not the only one spamming nines in the range. and theres the happy, not in the range times where we can laugh very loudly -and unglamly omg no image no image but its ok cause i dont think they'll even bother about you being unglam- and have alot of fun..
im really appreciative now
hahahhaha i just had the best two days of my life la. last night i went to bed thinking of how happy and xingfu i was instead of planning what to do for mockcomp today omg i only started preparing this morning =[ badgirl. and i think im going to go to bed tonight thinking of all my wonderful and fullofburstingpotential nyjuniors who have a long and bright future in front of them.

going through different extremes of heaven and hell this holidays has made me more mature -iguess- and i dont think i'll be able to shoot alone without any hc shooters around me anymore.
can you imagine.
suddenly there's nomore yi zhen feng from zj's incessant deep sighing, no more ultraconcentration auras from xinxi, burping/coughing/funny noises from wesley, crazy bursts of ultrahighness or heartwarming hugs from ky, or bouncing around from fastshooters wesley tc zj and ryo. oh and coach's talking/nagging/coaching/scolding while shooting.
it'll be so weird!

the next two weeks will be spent in brunei and im freaking sure i'll miss a whole bunch of you
miss me k laopo!
hahhahaha
i wont be around for december monthly, but wish you guys all the best from brunei
be strong laopo and xinxi, and best of luck to the cdiv, bdiv, adiv guys and adiv girls.
once again, thank you guys for all that youve done [nyshooters dont worry if it was a mini farewell it was great recapping our four years, and you guys cried with zj! haha it was real touching~ ohmygod laopo we really tong gan gong ku. hope we inspire our juniors.]

shiing loves.

2008-12-06T16:56:00.001+08:00

taymua is getting horribler and terribbler.
DO U HAVE TO LIKE MAKE IT SO BIGBIG
like. i noe i owe u pictures?!
FINE.
i send u later when i got the time
HAHAHAHAHAHA taymua u noe wad tat means (:

so obviously while everyone is having fun zihighing
tissue rushed home to get scolded
HAHAHA i sound like im so looking forward to the scolding session
till now my voice still a bit gone
i think i can go partyworld and sing ahdu's song today
他一定很爱你也把我比下去~~~~~
ai ni is bold and extra large to emphasize on the fact tat im screaming tat part of lyrics
yeah screaming not singing.

ahhhh and yes engway can sing too!
HAHAHA at first when shiing and i zihigh he looked at us with the =D face
like totally irritating expression
come to think of it...which expression of his is not irritating
and so at last he decided to solo some songs
den shiing and i were desperately trying to keep up
cos its like a bit loowwwwwww
THE FUNNIEST PART IS LIKE WHEN WE SING THE.
ai de zhu xuan lu
TAT SONG TOTALLY CLASSIC LAR CAN
perfect for off-pitch/off-tune/off-beat
so shiing and engway were desperately trying to sing
and we kind of laughed like crazy throughout the whole song
HAAHAHAHA should try again nxt time

after the partyworld incident (!!??!?)
engway should be more confident in tissue's singing career
HAHAAHAHHA
like i can totally sing more gui huas
GAH.
i think im hungry
go cook pao mian~!!!!

oh oh and i think i noe where jianing's rumour came from already
AHAHAHAHHAHAHA

TERMINATED

2008-12-06T15:16:00.001+08:00

after a hell of a week with super ups and super downs..
i finally conclude that....
having friends you can count on is super super super super super worth treasuring. [lesson of the week.]
well there was prom, chalet.. bolt.. and partyworld
which was all a hell lot of fun.
:D:D:D
but between bolt and partyworld was filled with shitty incidents that were so crappy that i almost felt like running away and eloping.
geez.
it hurts when so many events from the past keeps haunting you like some rubbish serial killer who is not out to kill you but instead out to torture you.
with that sinister laughter and all. =[
a pissed off thursday night-in which i didnt start the pissing, i was the muted rubbish bin again as usual- led to a pissed off nightmare which ended with me waking up late for training which led to a pissed off training and a pissed off mock comp where i got so pissed with shooting 9s and an 8 that i exploded and got so pissed i shot 50 for the last five shots.
well but most of the pissed off times ytd were substituted with silence and anti-socialism. except the last five shots. i was so pissed at that point i swear the poor target button felt alot of pain when i slammed my hand on it. HAHAHAHA do not. get pissed when youre shooting. must control. not like me =.= failed.
then a hug from ky made it a whole lot better, and seeing toothpick also made it a whole lot better cause he's a very nice person, and seeing seniors will make me a whole lot happier. and then eating lunch was happy too, since i was so pissed from training. partyworld was ultimate highness cause you can scream everything off your lungs and you end up feeling so relieved. and exhausted hahaha. after partyworld was yu pian mi fen, which made my day even more! then there was photohunting and bridging with a great deal of high ppl. i bet all of us there were on a high, considering that they watched bolt and we went to partyworld. so you have xm, xx, ky, me, ew, and tc jumping and bouncing around the photohunt machine making even more noise than all the bowlers combined.
and my day got better.
today theyre off to malaysia so noone's gonna treat me like a rubbish bin for two or three more days, and there will be ultra peaceness in the house.
great! =] and.. i want to go shopping.

thanks alot to all those who made an effort to make me happier =]
ew and ky for trying to make me smile along with them. zj for occasionally looking over to check on me -yes im aware- tc for telling me not to emo xx for leaving me alone toothpick for appearing wensong for acting retarded jac for being worried and all those who cared.

i feel alot better =]

on a sidenote..
closed off from love, i didnt need the pain
once or twice was enough, and it was all in vain.
time starts to pass, before you know it youre frozen.

zj you owe me pictures~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2008-11-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

=D
TISSUE IS HERE AGAIN HAHA
OKAY SO FIRSTLY I HAVE TO ADVERTISE FOR OUR NEW NYSHOOTING BLOG
SINCE THE NYSHOOTING.BLOGSPOT.COM IS A BIT DEAD.
FINE. ITS VERY DEAD AND FERMENTING IN PROCESS.
AND SO. PROUDLY PRESENTING~~

WWW.SHEBANG-S.BLOGSPOT.COM

*claps* -cheers- *tissue wave pompom*

does tat sound nitrogen gas enough already?
(nitrogen gas = N2)
HAHAHAHAHA TISSUE IS SMART

and yes trning was GOOOOOOOOOOD.
okay lar quite good for me
at least i find my rhythm back
so im still shooting with the spamming style
everyday after trning without fail ppl will say: eh walao u shoot dam fast leh
ya i think so too HAHAHAHA
but coach's face a bit chaota
always like as if i did sth wrong/not nice/not good enough
and his attitude sucks as usual
totally din make me change my impression of him
like hello its perfectly fine to have a screwed up face
but pls do sth to make it look a bit nicer and dun 毁坏市容 or sth
by nicer i dun mean nicer but nicer. ya. hmm..
somemore still whole day scope ppl.
a bit stressful lar can
trn halfway he will scopescope den suddenly:
八号! 集中精力!
yeah and so 八号 is me =.-
i think if i trn at lane 8 for too long
he wont even remember my name nxt time

still not very used to the AHEM COMPRESSOR CYLINDER THING AHEM
cos the adapter a bit hard to screw off
er. screw off = screw it off
yeah. so everytime i pump cylinder i will be like -look around-
if got ppl around den i can pump
if no ppl around and i go pump den i will have to wait for tis lucky person to appear
erh. to help me unscrew the adapter =D

LOOKING FORWARD TO CLUB CHALET(S)
*COUGH* JINNY *COUGH* WHERES MY *COUGH* CHALET *COUGH*
shall bring some ahmitabha charms along HAHAHA
jus in case at night walking den..
if any of the college girls wear some white pyjamas/dress sort of stuff to chalet
i will so so so so so punch her rite in the middle of the face
worse is tat person got long hair
i will so so so so so so so so so so... scream
HAHAHAHA a bit 没出息 but i dun care
oh even better tat person sleepwalks WAH WINNER.
i can jus be carried away from the chalet on a stretcher man.

good thing i learn about my juniors
they r constantly making improvements
I REALLY MUST ANNOUNCE TIS.
jac koh learnt to take bus
*bold italic underline font size 96 highlight*
and jinnaye is like getting more retarded.
oh and tc is like officially turning gay under taymua+me de influence
i think as i was typing tis tc is 更上一层楼-ing in his gayness meditation
the nxt target we aim to influence shall be guosheng
AHAHAHAHAHHA engway also can.
JIAYOU!
i mean shiing and i jiayou =D

I THINK I TOKED A LOT OF RUBBISH
its okay at least i tried to post sth (:
TISSUE SHALL BE OFF TO PIG
-pig in tis case is a verb-

TERMINATED

2008-11-19T22:48:00.001+08:00

tmr morning this time zj will be training with me and xx and probably yh
a completed A girls rifle team. =]
jiayoujiayou everyone.
still got four plus months to survive.

loves.

2008-11-18T22:13:00.001+08:00

yes yes TISSUE IS BACK TO POST.
so u see.
everytime taymua pop out with tis black emo post
tissue would have to do sth so as to restore the faith in many ppl
THAT THE EARTH IS STILL A PLACE FULL OF SWEETNESS TO LIVE IN
=D
so holy.

yes.
believe in wad u see.
tis is taymua and ham being 抓奸在床
commiting adultery -ahem- is only one of the few notverigood stuff tat we did in vietnam
other acts includes gambling/jaywalking and promoting illegal trade of fake goods
-COUGH-
but in vietnam if u dun jaywalk den u really dun have to go anywhere.
and if u dun buy fake goods. u've let urself down.

and yes today is the 2nd day of trning
WHICH IS LIKE THE FIRST DAY OF BAO QIANG
i was totally massaging my fingers throughout the session
but it din work ><
at least im not dead yet (:
and tissue is getting BETTER at playing bridge
yet i still get scolded/nagged at
for any cards tat i play or anything tat i bid for
LIKE WTH ANYTHING ALSO MY FAULT LAR HOR?!
GUOSHENG NEVER WIN ALSO MY FAULT LAR!
SHIING CANNOT PLAY NO TRUMP ALSO MY FAULT LAR!
hahaahahah okay tissue shall calm down

i like the dbsk doshite song
HAHAHA THE TITLE IN JAP IS LIKE LONG AND.
ILLEGIBLE.

TERMINATED

2008-11-15T18:04:00.001+08:00

papercut by lp
Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right underneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin

The face inside is right beneath your skin

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

i need to start sucking it up and live by my decision.
i'll find it back. with or without you.

2008-11-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

HEY EVERYONE
ITS TISSUE~
i realise i havent been posting actively ever since -dunno when-
and tmr morning i will be flying
so since i chiong pack finish le
I SHALL POST U NOE
if not one whole week no more post
tis whole place will die

so first thing.
PPL. PLS HELP KEEP OUR TAGBOARD ALIVE
U NOE.
A TAG A DAY KEEPS THE TAGBOARD ALIVE
-dun really rhyme-
but i dun care u get wad im trying to say (:

AND YES ITS MY MARKIPOO DEHDEH'S BIRTHDAY TODAY
DEH!!! HAPPEH FIFTEENTH BIRTHDAY!
WISH U SLIM DOWN SOON~ GRADES AND SHOOTING ALL JIAYOU MORE~!!!
today the cake tat -insert a lot of ppl's name- baked is nice!
jus tat its a bit flat.
okay its quite the super very flat.
BUT STILL IT TASTE GOOD. -like heng-
i tot it would be like a bit inedible or sth
i should trust my mummeh more

den after tat we went yishun to eat lunch (HAHAHAHA)
by 'we' i mean kaiyun ahgu mummeh engway tc shiing and me
those bunch of ppl totally nth to do
come so farfar away to yishun to eat foodcourt
anyway tats like cos tissue is too charming den all of them cant bear to leave me
aiya u noe such things cannot blame me.
i din mean to be so attractive either =D
ya so in the midst of the chatting and bitching -oopps-
GOT TIS PART TAT TOTALLY MAKE ME HIGH OMG
its a recount by kaiyun of wad happened quite long ago
when ky and xinmei were in a team doing OM
xinmei was like 摸-ing their balsam wood structure
when carol came along and PIAK xinmei on the shoulder
and so the structure collapsed =.-
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
den the funniest part is when carol said sth like
'oh i tot teh structure is suppose to withstand 200kg.'
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I WAS LAUGHING LIKE CRAZY.
correction: im still laughing when i type tis.

so after lunch shiing and i cant bear to see the 4 other ppl looking sad
thus we decided to stay for a while to let them 欣赏 our face for longer time
(shiing dun say i ego okay. i got ego ur share for u also)
which later made us feel even more benevolent/merciful to stay longer and
WATCH MOVIE~
quantum of solace
quite boring though. not very nice. but not bad either.
got one part its like tis woman is almost tio AHEM-ed
key word: almost
ya so after tat shes like trying to get off the bed
and the scene a bit got show her underwear or sth
den engway whos sitted like 5 seats away from me totally AHHHHHH
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
mummeh ahgu taymua and i were like ?!?!?! den HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
dunno y he reaction so big
like as if hes the one tio AHEM-ed
the whole cinema dam quiet den hes like the onli one suddenly AHHHHHH

AND SO YES TMR TAYMUA AND I ARE FLYING
superman~ in the air~ i can see~ his underwear~
okay no tats strictly random
IM QUITE HIGH NOW HAHAHAHA cos i saw tis stupid boy on the road
whos licking the ice cream from one side so hard
tat the whole ice cream fell off from the cone
SMART.
as smart as kaiyun ah gu.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
whos brain is still under cultivation in xinmei's bottle
AHAHAHAHAHAHA

TATS THE END OF MY POST
AT LEAST I POSTED.
U NOE. CHECK IT OUT~ YO!
okay shuddup

TERMINATED

2008-10-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

I HAVE GRADUATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after three grueling hours in the hothot hall.
i worked hard for four years. just to fill up a blue report book. wow..

zj laopo and en darling i'll try my best k?
but talking to her is like. talking to... nvm.
i'll fight! hahahahahah cause i think we deserve it =]
at least if we cant get it cause the bloody system is so rigid, we demand for some testimonial or proof that we DID indeed DO SOMETHING.
actually we did quite alot.
spectacular year it was, this year.
but we made it!!!!!
=]]
<33

its graduation and though everyones going over, i'll be missing 302, 402. we're so model-ly.. model class for two years is. *shocking* well ive never met a nicer bunch of classmates who'll all email each other on homework or what might be tested (deduced from common sense) or any random thing hahaha. how we can be separated or strongly united when the time comes. we're like carbon atoms or molecules hahaha. great bunch of people. i'll miss them *sobsob*

shooting. ah. my babies. i hope to see a united exco next year, and if i dont see it by january, i'll probably grab zj and en and give you guys boot camp to shake you guys up.
initiative is very impt cause youre struggling to make the shooters' voices heard within the teachers and the coach.. you guys dont know how big a role youre playing, and i hope youll do whats right and not just agree with everything (unless its so logical there are no loopholes)
please try your very hardest to prevent nyshooting from becoming communist.
i know it wont stay democratic forever, but let it stay for the longest possible time k.
dont let go of it without a fight.
rmb to not forget your juniors... you'll all become seniors and pleasepleasepleaseplease be more mature more frequently. thankyouthankyou. can jokejoke but must finish stuff too k!
one most impt thing. id like to see revived cips where everyone got tgt and have fun.
thats my biggest wish! besides seeing a great show at nationals next year.
=] you babies wont let me down ba i hope. wait cancel. change hope to know.
<33>
shooting can give you alot, and also help you to grow. dont let yourself decompose in the cca cause theres always something for you to learn.
love you guys. =]

ny. haha im not missing it yet.. just the teachers. man..
sobsob. but as i have said.. any step closer to ending my formal education is a happy step.
looking back for my memories feels great. but i dont feel much sadness for ny.
i guess what i'll really miss are the people. haha.

happy graduation.
love you guys and peace out.

happy halloween!!!!!
-dont freak when you see my mp3 screen la. its just joker's face. its art yo.-

2008-10-28T08:58:00.000+08:00

=D
its the TISSUE'S ZHAOPAI SMILEY~
so yes IM TISSUE
tissue is back to posting.
like finally =.-

jus got to noe my overall year results
and its not bad HAHAHAHAHA HENG AR.
I ACTUALLY GOT A1 FOR PHYSICS.
so suddenly i feel so hopeful about tmr.
(as in not literally tmr but ya tmr)
its like THERES HOPE FOR EVERYTHING.
HAHAHAHAHAHA IM SO HAPPEH.

gah...life after EOYs is like dam. unfulfilling
singapore so small.
wan to shop also nowhere to shop
totally nth to do
and everytime my laopo will be like -im going back to china whenwhenwhen-
and im reminded of my sad holidays spent on trning
><
shooters are so 伟大
and theres like no nice movies to watch also

TOKING ABOUT THAT.
tat day i was watching the wuzun movie
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ya its REALLY QUITE SUCK
but HAHAAHHAHAHAHAAH i was telling ham tat we spent moneh to see wuzun and huge
HAHAHHAHAH dam.
waste my moneh.
but nvm LALALALA its not easy to come across such stupid movies u noe
so once in a while u should sit in the cinema and laugh and the producers =.-

I HAVE TO GO FOR GLOBAL CLASSROOM BRIEFING ALREADY~
so shall stop rubbishing now
when tissue come across more retarded happenings i will update again
actually retarded stuff dun really happen tat often
but with tissue, its not tat hard to imagine =.-
i dunno y stupid stuff always happen to me.
AND NO SHIING ITS NOT COS IM STUPID.
i know u will say sth along tat line
HAHAHAHAHA SO SMART.

TERMINATED

2008-10-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

its hard to achieve results.
even harder to even get them to appreciate it.
sickening. youre so elitist i feel ashamed. seriously i dont see any factor where hc cant match up to.
and if youve got a problem with that just freaking say it out.
dont say it neither too loud nor too softly, just loud enough for me to hear la.
after mugging like shit.
i dont really know if it was worth it. all these bloody results. cause i dont feel much happier.
im so proud of myself for never flaring up at you for once in my life.
seriously. i deserve an award.

on the other hand. its nice to find a second life in hcrange. its a restart that i badly needed in my shooting career.

2008-10-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

its so shocking to find out that my friends have migrated.
its not the very close friends. but acquaintances that i have known for quite long.
and i didnt even know they migrated.
everyone's disappearing. i swear.
geez. i never say byebye =[
yi2 han4~

2008-10-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

zijin reminded me of how much i love her today =]
thank you my bestest laopo for being so understanding. i love you!!!!
three years already. we left two years only. hahaha less than that.. one and a half years only.
gan3 shang1~~~~
hahaha our mo qi must reach zui gao jing jie within these <2years>
not like it already isnt. hehehe.
shooting must reach a gao-er jing jie la hahahaha. gao-er can le. zui gao jing jie too li pu.

I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
cause i know you know even if you say no i'll still start earlier right..
just like how you'll eventually let me board 74 if it comes earlier than 852 even though you dont want me to.
i cant ask for a better teammate. muacks. =]
nationals will be around your birthday next year!
start wishing soon k. ^^

2008-10-17T22:59:00.001+08:00

Sorry but BoA's too pretty :D
HAHA im gonna try and learn the dance moves.
..if i can. ._.

Okay i want to shop.
Anyone wants to go with me! :D :D :D

2008-10-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

ITS FINALLY FRIGGING OVER WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and i realised how rusty my ankles and knees were when i felt tired just after one hour at vivo.
ohhhhhhhhh
my butt has been too glued onto the chair.
FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!! totally no reins on me for the next three days. WAHAHAHAHA

top of the world.

2008-10-08T11:11:00.001+08:00

Look What You've Done--Jet
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

i cant believe thats what you said. really.
you dont really care. last minute. and what? what was that again?
ohyeah. luck.
piss off.
i dont believe everyone has such luck.
piss off man. just piss off.

effort has been reduced (decrease oxidation state, gain electron, lose oxygen, gain hydrogen) to luck. wow.
its a different element.

2008-09-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

Jiayou people (:

17 more days to go :D

2008-09-18T16:23:00.000+08:00

the danger of my angst.
i know ive to get rid of it. that acuumulated mountain of sadness and anger.
theres no way. and when theres no way, you run away from it.
for as long as you can.
until you cant hold out and you explode.
implosion. for people who dont have the privilege of exploding out loud.
for too long ive been taking it in and not retaliating.
for too long there was high resistance against the anger.
imploding feels really bad.

i dont laugh just cause im in the presence of other ppl.
its a balancing act, you know?
to make sure im still sane.
i need that laughter.
its not pretence. its real.
its tiring, trying to keep yourself sane in all this madness. laughing is the only escape.
people just dont get it.

dont. keep trying to argue that ______ is a better school and people from ny and hc are reneging and transfering over.im not like you.
dont. keep trying to force me then act like you dont.
dont. keep trying to expect more and more from my academic results.
dont. try and control me. you cant. you can control my actions. force me. but you cant. control my emotions.
the struggle doesnt go away at all. in school and at home.
its painful. and it eats you from inside out.

i dont know whats happening.

thank god im normal 90% of the time. SANE. a little bit happier. and a lot more light hearted.
thank god.

now that im done.
its time to shove it back down.
and go on.
strong.

secondhand serenade----a twist in my story
Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, saw that's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is louder than ever
I'm feeling alive, I'm feeling alive

My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get

yes. im the ultimate romantic i know. i admit. HAHAHA
this song lifts that burden that much.
lift my burden.

2008-09-14T19:15:00.000+08:00

what the hell are they thinking.
sometimes i just wish they could stop trying to lie to me.
they dont know how much fear i have in me.
at the rate we're going
i might lose her without warning just cause they think theyre not stressing me by not telling me the truth.

when living your life brings you so much torture physically and emotionally.
death can take away your burdens.
really.
its so fscking tiring for everyone already.
you two just stop it and everyone can go die.

just when i thought that it was all my imagination.
its a living nightmare.

i threw all my pain deep down into that black hole in me.
theres more to come;

if someone could just take away the pain.

right smack before my eoys. wow.

2008-09-07T18:49:00.000+08:00

no avril concert.
no derrick autograph session.
no shopping.
and no maf. @@
AND no hotshot until tmr.
man.
this sucks. staying at home doesnt feel productive too.
ive been so sleepy in the day and as a result have super short concentration spans while mugging cause a visitor in my house sleeping in my room snores like.
*-* SUPER loudly.
ive counted. one day without sleep(after ren3ing, listening to loud mp3 at 2am at night, moving to the sofa and moving back up. WAHHHH so loud la.) and one day with 6hours of sleep from 4am to 10am @@. on my holiday. what bad thing did i do lah seriously. why do i deserve such karma. =[

and i cant concentrate too. ohmygod
after reading the whole bio textbook its like. YAY I READ IT. FINISHED IT. HAHAHA
and then next day i forget like. 70% of what i memorised.
@@

my parents were getting all panicky after i told them that i cant get anything into my head so i figured i would just stay at home the whole hols to rest their minds abit. NO AVRIL CONCERT.
i should be there at the indoor stadium now buying concert merchandise and planting my butt on the great super good view seat excitedly waiting for her to come out and taking picts of the stage. damn. now ive to make do with concert dvds. which, if it ever comes out, will cost a BOMB cause its gonna be imported. MAN. =[ i didnt regret so much after hearing its only 1.5hours.
BUT I FORGOT AVRIL DOESNT/RARELY CHANGES LA. shes like tshirt tshirt. change comeout tshirt. so that saves time. and then i read the article about her concert in malaysia 17 SONGS IN ONE HALF HOURS. i was like. crap. i should have freaking went. =[ sure got old songs!

now i'll prolly be watching some tv show or doing binomial theorem instead. :o

im ranting now. yes. hahhaa. lemme get these stuff off my chest.
it feels HORRIBLE.
pfft.

btw i was reading the papers today. and there was this thing about chinese netizens complaining when the famous chinese artist donated a whole bunch of artworks to our museum. (113. i dont remember drawing that many times from young until now. much less something super duper pretty.) he donate art, chinese netzies complain. gongli become singapore (PR?), netzies also complain. everything also whack. you3 wan2 mei2 wan2.. some singaporean donated to the beijing hall used during the olympics never donate to rebuilding our hdb lifts SINGAPOREANS GOT COMPLAIN OR NOT? never.but hello. we are known for complaining la. wanna beat us ah?
i bet if you got a whole lot of foreign workers in your country you will also start complaining about them living too near to your house. but china too big wont face this problem anytime soon.
singaporeans are champions. handsdown. dont even need to try to outcomplain them. :D

then the other thing about euthanasia.
=[
that one really made me sad
the mum.. doesnt want to die painfully i guess. i figured that maybe she felt it would bring more hurt to her family and make them go through more pain if she decided to stay alive because shed be a heavy burden.. but choosing to end your own life before your time is up is. also difficult for your family to accept.
that being said, if one day singapore decides to legalise euthanasia (with restrictions of course, like. only if medicine does not work anymore and youre really terminally ill. and its really damn torturing for the person. ) and my parents decide to opt for it, i dont think i'll stop them. at least it'll end their pain. geez. i dont think its cowardly. if i were terminally ill and dying =/ id opt for it too. dont prolong my pain if i cant get well. end it fast and quick. chang2 tong4 bu4 ru2 duan3 tong4. for the patient and his family. AHHH.

ohwells.
this is what happens when you die of boredom at home doing maths and past year paper(s).
you read alot more articles from the papers than you usually do.

lol but i found it really funny when mccain was called mcsame for copying the democrats' idea of telling america he will bring CHANGE~
mcsame.
haha.
theres mcflurry and mcchicken and..mcsame.
lol
ok skip that.

im getting so bored.
ive watched almost all the episodes of onigokko.
even the unsubbed ones.
ahhhhh.
i need memory cards for my brains. =[
bad bad feeling about eoys.
overload!

lol i cant get over mcsame. hahaha

for those of you whod like some laughter in your boring life..
have fun watching this.
ive watched it like a billion times and i still cant stop laughing.
i cannot play this game i will just die.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCqJTZ2c_Sg&feature=related

tentententententententen.-counts-.tenten. ;D

2008-09-04T19:35:00.001+08:00

WHEEEEEEE TISSUE IS HAPPEH.
i got 392 for my hsk!
YAY HAHAHAHA WHEEEE but its still A so nvm

OH AND TISSUE CAME UP WITH A PUN.
tat day i was on the bus.
den i remember ham say sit bus mus sit on the right side row
cos like tat no sun to shine on half the face
later scully one side white one side black.
AND SO I CAME UP WITH KENA SAI.
HAHAHAHAHA okay sorry.
im obviously zi highing.

oh and on wednesday
i was on my way to school FOR A CERTAIN RETARDED PRESENTATION
AND I MET a person called ZHOU SI CHENG
OHHHHHHH MYY SHES THE BOMB.
by bomb i mean the disastrous type
ya
so anyway. shes like HAPPILY TRALALA-ING
to her 2 frens
btw they were all wearing uniform
shes like saying wad OH ONLI PRC GUYS WILL TURN ME ON.
and she repeated it for like at least 4 times
at an amazing amplitude.
and den shes kind of 'discussing' about FALLING IN LOVE
mentioning tat if she fall for a guy she will CHASE HIM LIKE CRAZY
poor guy oh my.
den the 2 frens r like quite uneasy.
LIKE DUH WHO WONT BE.
so poor thing.
i remember last time ham and one of my classmates
whos under the same cca as her
whole day complain complain
NOW I UNDERSTAND.

and tissue is going to die
shes hibernating too much thnx to the weather
every 30 min i study i will go and sleep
SO PER DAY I STUDY LIKE WAD. 2 HOURS NIA.
TIS IS SUPPOSE TO BE MY MUGGING PERIOD.
xinxi mummeh smsed me and asked if i wan to go out mug today
AT CLARKE QUAY
so cute my mummeh.

den i was thinking about yew tee
AND I REALISE
YEO ENG WAY THE ENG ENG
hahahahahahahahaha
WADS THE LINK BETWEEN ENGWAY AND YEWTEE?!
its okay inside joke.
mua noes =D

and jinny showed me my horoscope.
'When baby's hungry, he'll scream his lungs out just to get your attention, his ams and legs flailing frantically in jerky movements; but when the crisis is over, he'll be as cute and cuddly as ever, making you wonder what all the fuss was about. Just watch your Arien friend the next time he's hungry. Nothing else will seem to matter but that he find a restaurant and eat, and you must be hungry too, right?'
and she diedie mus add
Heath says:
WTH THIS IS TOTALLY YOU !
fine.

AHHHH ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST JACJAC
jacjac is congruent to eening.
ohhhhhh i haven revise maths yet.
DIE.
and i haven revise physics yet.
DIE.
i onli revised a bit of bio and a bit of chem
DIE.
WHEEEEE I SHALL STOP HERE

TERMINATED

2008-08-31T21:07:00.001+08:00

It's a long long journey

Till I know where I'm supposed to be

It's a long long journey

And I don't know if can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes

I am lost and know that I must hide

It's a long long journey

Till I find my way home to you

recently..i have been dreaming so much
i wonder.
how many different variations of the same dream i can have.
how much happiness i can feel. then pain after waking up.

Many days I've spent drifting on
Through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
wondering how to make me strong

it gets lonely.
but i guess everyone feels it.
it gets difficult and its when you feel like noones there.

Sometimes it feels no one understand
I don't even know why I do the things I do

and im all alone in the room.
fighting against time. against despair. against failure.
and youre surrounded.

It feels like everthing is out to make me lose control

It's a long long journey

Till i find my way home to you

if only ahma and ling were here. im sure it wouldnt half as bad.

; the pain just wont go away. with your shadow lingering.

everywhere i go.

damn.

till i find my way home..to you.

2008-08-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

WOOOOOOOOH.~
TISSUE IS BACK IN ACTION.
okay actually i dun really have tat much time today also
BUT U NOE.
im responsible and nice.
so i should blog and drown mua's post.

AND YES I MUST SPREAD THIS TO EVERYONE.
so i shall jus post it on the blog.
obviously i was watching a show after the closing ceremony thing
on some chinese channel
DEN OMG ITS SO SHOCKING.
totally thunderation.
its like. the place where athletes stay at during the games?
the ao yun chun place.
THEY PROVIDE CONDOMS GODDAMMIT.
its like. good service also no need to good until like tat lar omg
they provided like wad. 100000.
yes there r 5 zeroes.
CRAZY.
and according to their statistics,
more than 30000 of those are used.
LIKE FTW. NOT FENG TIAN WEI.
TOTALLY.
16 days of olympics
R U SURE THE ATHLETES ARE THERE TO COMPETE?!
crazy.
and the commentator was like OH COMPARED TO PAST YEAR OLYMPICS
TIS IS A ALL-TIME LOW RECORD
so conclusion1: all the while olympics provided condoms to athletes.
conclusion 2: for the past games EVEN MORE OF THOSE ARE USED
most disturbing thing is like.
towards the end of the show the commentator was like
oh i think the size is not correct tats y use up so little. (use ur own understanding)

-flops on the floor-

and yes skipping tat particular topic
ham and tissue came up with a new phrase.
u noe usually when u waited for a long time
u can say OH I WAIT UNTIL FLOWER ALSO WILTED LIAO (in chinese)
and we realise tat now we can say OH I WAIT UNTIL RAIN ALSO STOPPED LIAO
cos obviously tats wad happened today =.-
buy bubble tea stand there and queue for like. more den 10 minutes
NOT LIKE THE QUEUE IS VERY LONG.
the auntie is like. spacing out like tat
as the customers WANT PEARL OR NOT over and over again
oh and last time tis auntie even better.
she asked me WANT BUBBLE OR NOT
bubble tea wan bubble or not.

and my dog is encouraging me to go on diet
everytime i eat choco it will be like staring at me
yet dogs r not suppose to eat choc
AND SO BEING THE MERCIFUL AND BENEVOLENT
-holy rays shining-
i jus -dun eat- so at least she wont have the pitiful look.

den today in class me and my fren we were like discussing.
u noe if tis wind.
blow at.
constant speed and constant WADEVER (my physics no good)
so supposedly if one person applied to much make up
WHEN THE WIND BLOW THERE WILL BE ANOTHER FACE
cos all the powder float away den form the image.
SO SMART.
and according to her. during chinese dance performance
their eye shadow sometimes thick until dun dare to blink eye
cos if blink too hard its like. got one block of eye shadow powder drop off.
key phrase: one block of eye shadow.
and so we were talking about marathon runners
the person running in the last position dam sad.
cos in front the ppl all the dead skin cells + vaporising sweat molecules
will all piak on to the last runner when the wind blow.
HHAHAHAHAHA. okay nvm im being stupid.
like always.

and yes i will not forget to promote KIBUM.
hahahaahahahha OMG LAR.
okay nvm today weather not bad.
TMR IS CCA CIP.
GOOD GOOD.
and i think its time to plan for the PASSING OVER CEREMONEH!?
the above statement is directed at the sec 3 batch.
-hint hint-
=D

TERMINATED

2008-08-24T18:22:00.001+08:00

recently i have been watching hotshot!
yes. not bad la. lol swimming in the air and trying to catch the ball is a little retarded but generally its quite nice ;D
in this serial... the quiet emo character is....
YAN CHENG XU! yes his chinese name sounds nicer than his english name
i bet your face is like. just as shocked as mine when i first found out that he was the emo boy
lol
after 4 episodes..
=[
i feel sad for him.(can you imagine??? after i almost boxed his face and sent him to germany when he acted as the pineapple in liu xing hua yuan and fight with my zaizai)
as always..emo characters are so worth getting your heart broken over in drama serials.
its like zaizai in liu2 xing1 hua1 yuan2, zaizai in shen1 qing2 mi4 ma3, zai zai in that hotel show, (YES I KNOW SO MANY ZAIZAI THATS WHY ITS SO WEIRD TO WATCH YAN CHENG XU ACT EMO HAHAHAHAHA), li wei in dou niu (dont really like that character though. too wei da. HAHAHA), still got... jay chou.. in.. er.. jaychou mv? HAHAHA alot la.
but...OHYAH RUAN JING TIAN IN LV GUANG SEN LIN. my heart pianged ok...
still....
NOONE DOES IT BETTER THAN YUL!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg..
i cried because of him laaaaaaa last time. I CRIED LORRRRRRRRRRRR.
in goong. HAHAHAHA
he is the perfect perfect perfect perfect perfect one. lol tell you a secret k?
it only started with two perfects but i everytime i read again i add another perfect. HAHAHAHA
:D:D:D:D I LOVE YUL!~~~~~~~

actually.. all the emo guys in serials will turn bad after awhile.. once in awhile.. then turn good again.. (except for liwei he didnt turn bad maybe thats why i dont like him as much. and his face not emo enough not handsome enough and he doesnt do the emo stand against the wall naturally look so sad and zibei pose. zijin knows exactly what the pose looks like. aiya. just look at yul when he waits for her(forgot her name) HAHHAHA SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. xin1 teng2. it will melt your heart ok..)
aiya.
so sad to watch them shou4 ku3. =[
they fall in love with the wrong person, at the wrong time, and because they are so shy/quiet/bu4 gou4 yong3 gan3, they lose to the more outspoken and daring guy...
and then they have to shou4 ku3 because the girl dont know that the guy likes her and then in 70% of the drama serials the girl always confides in the guy and the guy will have to shou4 even more ku3 and my heart will break even moreeeeeeeeeeee
;_;
hai
and then because they got nobody to su4 ku3 to they just bottle it inside and in the end they cannot take it and they turn bad.
but they turn bad because they care too much for the girl ma...(lol turn bad sounds like they are milk. you know? niu2 nai3? then turn bad. HAHAHA then taste sour. ok nvm)
but cannot blame them la
=[
so saddening.
and maybe thats the reason why i like these characters so much i start crushing on them HAHAHAHAH YUL YUL YUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol fa1 hua chi1. ok.
it gets so tong ku to continue watching them be neglected and what la...
maybe thats why i dont like the actress's characters as much.
and then i empathise with the emo characters so much and so finally i like them so much more than the normal guys in the show cause i think they are so weida!
ok

i think i should stop.
lol
reallyy.
the intention was to post about the olympics.
pictures of pro people, pro and cute people, pro but not cute people, and pro people who i respect alot.
but.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh
obviously im digressing.
i shall leave that to another day.

just talk abit first hahaha
i think zhang yi ning is so cute.
:D
cuter than wang nan OK. and fengtianwei looks very cute too. she doesnt look like a boy with that hair. seriously shes so cute. i dont really know her shi2 li4 cause i missed out on the game but i heard shes good. very good. i need to watch a replay of the south korea game..~i just know shes very cute. really. really! HAHHAHA
and i think shes cuter than the jap girl. both fengtw and zyn. i cant "initialise" fengtw into ftw cause it sounds very rude. haha. and uncute!
HEHEHE
back to zyn.
SHES SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
because when she plays she always sticks out her tongue unknowingly!
and when she is nervous(i think) she always blows on her bat.
AND STICKING OUT YOUR TONGUE IS SO MUCH CUTER THAN DROPPING YOUR JAW IN MIDAIR THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE GAME. ;D

after the first match in the final my mum was so sure that zhangyining will lose because wangnan looked more stable and got more experience but i bet with her that she will WILLWILL WIN because i support her. HAHAHAHA.
ok la she win is not because i support her la. but i do. really. respect her alot too.
i remember vaguely that i watched zhangyining play many times. one of which was the most memorable, but i totally forgot which match was it. if im not wrong its athens 04? but im not sure.
and i watched the way she played and i was like in total awe.
seriously.
she has foolproof ways of attacking her opponent from behind its so scary.
and she did in the recent games!
she won hahahahaha.
i was jumping all around the house and hugging her and sending flying kisses to her THROUGH A TV BOX. LOL. i should box my kisses and hugs up and send it over to china HAHAHAHAH inside joke.
OMG. lol i just thought of the visa advertisement.
HAHAHAH if i were desperate enough i would have boxed myself up and send myself to beijing and get delivered to the rostrum and use the visa card to open the box and jump out and hug zhangyining when she is singing the national anthem halfway. HAHAHAHAHAHHAAH. and just act blur. :D HAHAHAH okok i stop.
my parents called me unpatriotic because i didnt cheer so loud when our table tennis won (thats cause i was on the bus and i didnt see the exciting match ok.. maybe i would have screamed and hopped around too! hahaha) basically when zyn won i was hopping all over mymaid was laughing at me =[
nvm.
yay!
good thing she won cause i support her and i think shes mentally very strong.
the thing between china chinese and singapore chinese playing olympics.
singaporeans dont have the fighting spirit that they have. we dont feel like this is a live or die opportunity. sad to see that reflecting on leejw, but i hope fengtw doesnt turn out having little confidence in herself years from now. great show by the table tennis team, nevertheless.
:D

i turned into a madwoman at table tennis matches.
but.
man you should have seen my face this afternoon. classic.
i swear it could have been the most *omg* expression i have ever had in my lifetime.
i swear.
i was eating my lunch and surfing (the tv) and i landed on the gym all round floor finals.
food was in my mouth and i was chewing halfway and my jaw just dropped open ok. (the food still inside la wont drop so easily one)
really la.
cause i was watching russia.
:O
precisely.
:O
totally.
my whole two forearms of hair stood up after they finished the routine ok.
i was so. :O-ed that all my goosebumps popped up.
im not joking. really
go see go see.
china not bad too
hahaha

another great thing i saw happening on the olympics was isinbaeva jumping 5.05m.
last event that night, on the track.
she missed out on two attempts, then she figured she was mentally unstable and went to hide under her blanket (im serious. blanket) and pray and talk to herself and dno do what. and when she came out she jumped and she cleared leh!!!!!!
wa lao la!
then my dad say next time go shooting must bring tons of blankets for me and all my teammates HAHAHAHA
all cocooning into the blanket if we shoot 95 HAHAHAHA
then we'll come out shooting 100 100 100 and win with 395! ownage HAHAHAH. ok not very own la
ok
i think i shall stop here.
i wanna go eat.
:D
byeeeeeeeee

(my motivation better come soon if not i'll flunk eoys. itd better come like. right now. man. i shall start serious mugging soon. i promise. man. soon. ok la. tmr. TMR LA OK?????? HAPPYYY???? gar.. internal battles are so irritating cause your two personalities keep conflicting. damn.)

(never ever fall in love with people you shouldnt dear. trust me.)

2008-08-20T22:12:00.000+08:00

dont keep using death to threaten me everytime.
its a living fear in me, and i dont have to be reminded about it by you.
its been a year..

so many things have been changing
everything has been zipping past me.
so much so that i seem to have forgotten my dreams and aspirations.
other people's expectations of me have evolved into MY expectations of me,
and now i realise i have abandoned my dreams.
simple dreams,
yet they seem so far from my reach.

all i can see is the possibility of freaking out during eoys,
going over and doing more papers,
and just zipping my time away for a "better future".

i dont like to be threatened
and i dont like to be fearful.
i want to feel alive again.
its getting so difficult to just open my mouth and sing while walking over the overhead bridge nowadays. its so irritating to be demotivated.

just because i dont meet expectations does not mean that ive let myself down.

damn.

tmr MUST be a better day. right?
im gonna pull through tonight and wait for tmr.

i wanna see the world.

(btw sidetrack when you attack someone's argument you do not extract out bits that you dont like without referring to the rest of the argument and just attack that bit. youre being nonsensical. also, eat your words back down because you didnt raise any argument of your own to rebutt. ditto!)

2008-08-20T08:52:00.000+08:00

=D

my zhaopai smiley for the zhaopai starting of the post.

TISSUE SO LONG NEVER POST.
i feel very dui bu qi to ALL MY ARDENT FANS OUT THERE.
BUT ITS OKAY. TISSUE IS HERE DURING ENGLISH LESSON

and recently tissue's life isnt very exciting.
now my life is almost = trigo.
EVERYDAY. the maths teacher give us REVISION WORK.
and my trigo is officially announced dead on saturday, 16 Aug 1.30pm.
(1.30 pm is cos i wake up at 1pm den start doing work by 1.30am)

-im out of stuff to post-

OH AND KIBUM IS REALLY VERY CUTE.
hahahahahahahaha
OMG. I WAN TO GO FOR ONE LAST TRNING IN NY RANGE.
BUDDEN ITS LIKE A BIT NO TIME FOR A SLACKER LIKE ME.
AND MY GUN+ MY SUIT DUNNO WHERE ALREADY
MUS BE SUFFERING UNDER SOMEONE'S HANDS.
someone inspire me to post pls.
GIVE ME IDEAS.

TERMINATED

2008-08-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

currently looping: 孤单心事
coincidences tell me that youre everywhere.
im bored and i dont feel like doing work because my nose is running like craziness
abt the langarts paper today..
ok la so predictable.. i didnt freak out (thankgod) but i wished i had more time for content
ohwells.
did a quiz on quibblo..
it seemed like a crappy quiz.. with a heading "what colour are you" and giving stupid responses for you to tick. but hey i think the results not bad quite zhun4. haha
go try go try
im not black! yay. im green.
lol. its not very fun to be black all the time anw. right?
HAHAHA
where ever i go.
but i rmb last time i took a what colour quiz i was yellow.
hmmmm....

you are green!
You are a "thinker" and often come up with really elaborate solutions and comments although you might not always say them aloud. ( i dont because some conclusions just seem too nasty to be said out loud. but if you catch me in a bad mood, id prolly be very very quiet or complaining alot. haha the latter is when i cannot take it, the person is too much, and the former is when i am super super super angry/emo/frustrated. noone should touch/talk/comfort/do anything to me when im in that mood. hahhahaa but i think zijin and eening know me well enough to know that le. hahahah. jacjac too.)
sometimes i cant feel it.
You have a few close friends and feel appreciated when you're with them..(definitely.. you just dont click with some people right? id rather have 5 very good friends than 10 normal friends.)
Otherwise you’re often shy and don't always feel as it though the people around you know "the real you".. (true. true. sometimes they do, but sometimes they really dont. the latter strongly feels that they know me sometimes. hahaha)
There is a great amount of brain activity going on in your head, pretty much all the time, and sometimes you can find yourself slipping away into your own world or into deep thought..(on the bus? hmmm. ki lessons!)
You are either very deep or you think you are.(i think im the latter. but once you convince yourself that you are, you will become. unconsciously. HAHAHHA. whats so difficult about thinking? helps you see through ppl better..right?)
You don't have alot of interests but the ones you have you're really into or really good at =)..(really into, not really good. im too lazy to go learn from scratch.hahaha. especially when im in love with high skill stuffies/high maintenance/huge amount $$$$ de. bam it just kills the interest. i swear im gonna learn it before i die though. classic procrastinator. HAH)
You have no problem being alone and feel you have your real strength inside yourself. (no problem being alone but id rather someone to be beside me lying on a grass field and looking at the stars. ok la grass dirty. i dont mind the floor of a nice building..just. quiet dont talk. wow..i need to do that by the end of this year.) (sometimes it gets hard to believe in yourself and have faith in your inner strength.. but i guess thats where alot of thinking can help you! right? yeah i think its like that)
but youre always there. just invisible. quiet. non disruptive.
You tend to get along with nature well. (?! i dont, really. i hate mynahs(flying into my house and hopping all over my room), i hate those beetles who fly into the room and bang into everything without knowing or stopping. i cant catch them and they'll fly above/around/into me. im fine with lizards though. ive been living beside one in class for like 4 weeks now? HAHAHA. every morning wake up make that lizard sound and scare the class. hehehe i'm fine with it unless it climbs into my bag or something)
its silent strength.
Numbers: I'm guessing you don't have special numbers but if you do, maybe 1, 5, 16 or similar
(233, 17, 5. 5 was my fav from young, 17 is my birthday, 233 is a special number. so its prolly 5. quite zhun4. :D)

im done with the survey and time is up..youre still not online.
ah so much for my bet
i never expected you to tag behind for so long..
im sorry.
i dont talk to you much, from the start till now.
but..
*edits* i just found out youre appearing offline. haha.
its just that sometimes i just dont get.

2008-08-09T18:04:00.002+08:00

eh zijin i just read!!!!
HAHAHAHAH
okok i get what you were talking on thursday le!!!!!!!
theyre gonna regret. ;DDDD
regret!

yay. thats what YOU get ok. retribution. RETRIBUTION!!!

was watching the olympics opening ceremony
its was just awesome ok..
jawdropping.
the best parts gotta be the 29 footprint fireworks, the bigbigbigbigbig earth with flying people around it, AND THE BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG OLYMPIC TORCH. ok maybe its not big its HUGE . so huge that theres an extra space for it before the fullstop. :D li ning had one very classic moment running towards the torch there. definitely.
i woke up today to watch the olympics shooting events, but as usual, the damn channel wont show it. =.=
seriously i dont see the point in having about 4 different channels on the olympics when you are broadcasting the same footage =.=
so i went to do work (dno why teachers bombed us this week. seriously. its just one bomb of shit[cancels] hw that landed on our tables.)
then somehow my dad got the results. HAHAHA
duli lost, katerina emmons won (shes pro go see her finals from one of the previous games before the olympics on youtube. ownage)
somehow i think chinese are going crazy with wanting to grab on to any gold medal they can see.
theres no point giving your atheletes so much pressure man.
it'll backfire. sians
i pity them
ohwells =/

eoys are coming up, major mugging will start veryveryverysoon after i clear this pile of work
=[
looking at the list of topics for physics and maths is enough to drive you crazy.
bio is like memorising the whole textbook. the whole frigging tb.
for what?
zzz

tuesday still got expo writing. my last chance to try and squeeze out quality writing in 1h (i dno why i cannot think of anything good to write in one hour and on one piece of blank paper. =[ )

the last run in my ny life. thankgod. haha
i bet if i screw this my parents will be biting my heads off. of course they'll say dont stress dont stress when you look so frugging stressed right. but if you dont perform you dont perform and your head will roll off and blablablabla. classic parents.

on a happy note, ive drawn up a list of what i want to get after eoys. to motivate me to study and save dollars during this period. ahahaha. looking back some of these items have been on the list for god knows how long. and i havent gotten it yet! : O like that fourskin necklace i saw FOUR TIMES and still thought of whether it was worth the buy. in the end it got on my list. FINALLY got on my list. theres that thought of cancelling it off though. =[
the converse or multiple o shoes are coming to me though. FIRST THING IM GONNA BUY.
its why im sewing my northstar shoes like crazy. waste 20bucks to buy new ones for two months. seriously. nowadays i see MANY MANY PAIRS OF NORTHSTAR SHOES FALLING APART JUST LIKE MINE OK? the quality is turning super lan4. not worth my twenty bucks anymore. i saw three pairs in a week whose canvas was becoming like mine.
tearing apart from the base. stupid tou gong jian liao-ers.
still havent made up my mind on converse or multiple o. baaaah
two months to think about it. HAHA

hahaha
ive got to do MAJOR SAVING. man.
that wishlist is not long but its gonna blast a hole man.
ohhhh man. sweet sixteen. must be memorable
HAHAHA
i think i'll buybuybuy then collect then put on my bed and take a picture of everything i bought after the last eoys in ny. HAHAHA sounds so crazy. and i'll be so proud of it.
YAYYYYY
major retail therapy

im also thinking of eoy activities too!
like chalet during the marking days.
HAHAH
or one group of us just book one hotel room and crash it like crazy.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
whee then can shop in orchard and then stay in hotel. LOL
ok quite waste money

i hope eoys passes fast. =[
obviously it wont right? but last eoys just seemed like last month...
ohwells.
i should endure the long papers. 5hours of math. 4hours of chinese. i bet its 2half hours of each science? 2hours of ih.. 3hours?of langarts. about there.. pfft.

one of my favourite songs ;_;

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只要关上了门不必理谁

# 一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难像切歌切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能不能流过十二点

* 生日快乐我对自己说
蜡烛点了寂寞亮了
生日快乐泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

@ 还爱你带一点恨
还要时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕幻灭重生
祝我生日快乐

2008-08-03T19:09:00.000+08:00

the joke christopher was telling his dad chris in the pursuit of happyness:
"dad dad lemme tell you a joke!"
"one day there was a man who was drowning in the sea. a boat came by and asked" do you need any help?" and the man said "no thanks god will save me". time went by and another boat came over and asked the man "do you need any help?" the man said "no thanks god will save me". in the end the man drowned and he went to heaven. when he saw god he asked god "god why did you save me?" and god said "i saved you you dummy. i gave you two boats!" hahahahahaha"

i can imagine MY joke.
"dad dad lemme tell you a joke!"
"one day i was trying to squeeze out a day for my last training. an opportunity came by and asked me "do you wanna do it today" and i said " no thank you god will gimme another day". and then on another day i managed to squeeze time out and opportunity asked me"do you wanna do it today?" and i said "no god will gimme another day". friday i went w/ my training clothes and all and i went there and something just told me not to shoot. in the end i didnt shoot because i felt that i couldnt be so unlucky that weapon conveyance on monday is on just that jinny dont rmb anything about weapon conveyance so she told me no weapon conveyance and i also thought no weapon conveyance. and tadah i went home with my universal jacket. and today i find out that weapon conveyance is tmr and i ask god"why didnt you give me another opportunity". and god is gonna say "i did you dummy! i gave you friday!"
laugh at me cmon. hahahahahaha

OMG LA..................
=[
this is so screwed.

i just thought that friday was too sad for training and thought i could go back tmr.
why does weapon conveyance have to be tmr!!!!!!!!!
if i had crossed the road earlier, and the poor sparrow had not died and gotten run over another time right in front of me. if i had not continued walking and suddenly look up to see a feather flying right on top of my head. if i had not seen the most recent stone go mia at the pond, and if i had not seen some random shooters mum who asked me if i was gonna train -instinctively i just said no without thinking- I WOULD HAVE TRAINED!!!

damn it. la. srsly whats wrong with me.
and i found out weapon conveyance is tmr, at 7pm, when safra is closed.
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

damnit.

GODDAMNIT.
i shall not take things for granted again.

2008-08-03T13:08:00.000+08:00

since zijin is not online.. i shall blog

i mentally hug you k.. =)
much more comforting than having a stick hugging you. hehe!
but stick got warmth also so i'll hug you tmr too.
life gets very shitty sometimes but just hang in there k
when its shit its very shitty. its murphys law.
haha.
but i just wanted to tell you.. 物極必反!

everyone's beside you, just that theyre invisible.
so you dont need to feel like you are suffering alone
muachee just wanted to tell you that she will always support you and be there for you and love you.
;_;
life is shitty.
but i hope this post can make you feel better..
-hugs super tightly-

dont know what to say le eh.
very difficult to find things to say because i know the situation is quite very shitty..
but i hope its enough to give you that little itsy bitsy bit of strength.
like like.
if you hanging on the cliff with two hands on the cliff only then you try try try then cannot get up then you suddenly got that itsy bitsy little bit of strength and you managed to zoop up and not fall down! ;D yah that type of strength.

love ya dear.
your dog loves you too.

2008-08-03T09:39:00.000+08:00

i rmb i said i get headaches when i see black emo posts by mua
and now i shall do it too.
someone tell me wad can i do
i really cant take it anymore
they can basically fight over everything on earth
money, woman, privacy, trust
they can even fight over the china olympics like wow
and by fight i really literally mean it as fight.
it jus get more and more violent each time
wad can i do to help.
wad should i do to help.
im sure they r both tired
so am i.
should i even help.
will helping make both of them happier.
or should i jus sit there watch them split.
happy ending for everyone
and now shes moving out
she says once she settle down she will fetch me over
maybe its today.
maybe its tmr.
i will wait.
or maybe suddenly he will cool down.
and decide to leave us alone for quite some time
so at least for the nxt few weeks we can have some peace at home
which is how we have been living for the past dunno how long.
hes really a jerk.
lightning strike me for all u wan.
and shes really dumb.
add together and poof it became coco crunch.
but wadever happens
i will always stand beside her.
zijin can be very strong when she needs to be.
mentally hug me pls..those who cares
i will feel it (: thnx

2008-08-02T15:56:00.000+08:00

TISSUE IS HERE TO SMILE.
=D
hahahahahahahahahahaha
WHEEEEEEEEEEEE~

TERMINATED

2008-07-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

MUACKS. we look soooooooooo happy. :D

2008-07-30T22:20:00.001+08:00

I REGRET NOT GOING STRAIGHT AWAY AFTER SCHOOL TODAY CAUSE I FELT LAZY
I REGRET NOT GOING AFTER DINNER TODAY CAUSE I FELT SLEEP THAT I JUST HAD TO SLEEP.
NOW WEIJIAN TAGGIE SAY MANY PLACES SOLD OUT!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO IF I GO BUY TMR AND DONT HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THEN IT'LL BE LIKE DAMN SADDENING LA!
AND I GOT NOTHING TO DO NOW!!!!!!!
IM SUPPOSED TO BE LISTENING AND LIKE. BEI-ING LYRICS.
OMG SHIING GO BANG YOURSELF ON THE WALL AND JUST STAY THERE.

AH I FEEL SO IDIOTIC!
WEIJIAN IM SO SORRY I WAS LAZY.

my veronicas cds.................................................
no money~ (canto accent) hahaha
oh i got a shock when i saw weijian's online post :D
he knows the veronicas k
the fact that he just mentioned their names xD
and i bet anyone who knows their names will know that they rock shit.
goodtaste!
hohoho
im telling you derrick will be the next big thing and im sure im gonna be proven right.
next step is to pray for a qian chang hui that DOES NOT fall anywhere near eoys.
i'll be right there. :D
must have qian chang hui la
im sure.

i wanted to bombard you guys with a veronicas song everyday but i think liddat only can last 24 days so better save it up.

ive got a wedding song ;D

JIAYOU JIAYOU
jolin better release soon too.
after the weijian craze
:D
YAYNESS.

eh man quote of the day.
"we will look into it"
"rest assured girls, we are reviewing the plan"
"we will look FURTHER into it"
im sure for teachers day i can buy her a "i will look into it" sign la...
yah man. i know you'll be looking into it.
wo3 hai2 look out of it lor...

on a sidenote.
zijin got a shock today
HAHAHHA
scream so loud......
then whack me so hard somemore.
qian da.

2008-07-29T21:13:00.001+08:00

shiing has broken her record of maths results. =.=
feeling like such an ass now. though i expected just pass and i got quite normal results in class (i guess?) but still disappointed.
my A just flew past me =.= hahahaha if i had been more emotionally stable.. no problem.
DAMN LA.
thank god my dream of 30/78 didnt come true. i wouldve just cried. no i wont. im just kidding
HAHAHA
but still. super careless, and unstable during the test.
just look at handwriting can tell le hahaha
time to zhao1 the ms ycy spirit back in my maths test life.
eoys chiong! 85%! 85 85 gogogogo!
and i can still stay happy because i know that if things arent fine then its not the end.
i think you should learn that. =] its value that marks wont get you.

next few tests.. :x
CHINESE. AHHHHH
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
somehow or other i dont feel that im missing shooting alot.
issit no gui su gan to nanyang, or just that im so unfeeling
im gonna train with 724485 for one last time.
kiss it goodbye.. ;_;
its been there for me this year. needed it so much.
when i leaned on it. i felt like it was comforting me.
im gonna take picture. of it. :"D
looking for a new start when i go over, looking for the passion ive seemingly lost.
maybe im just taking it for granted, but it just seems to get emptier every year.
im not gonna live in self denial and force myself to feel like i felt last time
but i swear i'll recover =]
everyone goes through this phase right? yes. i believe so.
as long as we get through i believe we'll be able to inspire.
juniors, batchmates, and many more.
for now. rest! eoys! and desperately try to lift my grades up. BACK up.
shiing can do it.

btw. my name is shiing. not shu ing, shi ying, siying.
theres nothing wrong with the spelling. dont change my name thankyou.

the veronicas----heavily broken

Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air(Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move(What can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken

I WOULD LOVE TO HELL ANYONE WHO CAN BUY ME BOTH VERONICAS CDS and RIOT!!!!!(i know damn long le but i no cash hahah)
wahlao that day i go hmv veronicas first album left only TWO and the new album only left one.
WAHLAO. i want buy zheng ban leh...
summer sale still 30plusbucks...for one import...
=[ =[ =[ =[
AND I STILL BUYING DERRICKS CD TMR LA
im gonna chiong and buy it like noones business. right after school. chiong to amkhub or j8.
whichever bus comes first.
HAHAHAHA
I WAIT TWO YEARS FOR HIM LE OF COURSE RUSH TO BUY LA
please dont disappoint me
:D
i still got your songs from superstar lor. in my com.
WHEE jolin will get jealous of you de lor!
hehehehe
gogo weijian!

the veronicas rock.
they rock shit.

2008-07-27T17:26:00.000+08:00

i think i click well with people i dont meet often.
especially when they were once in a main part of my life.
no matter how short it was/will be. =]
i miss outings like that.

although it reminds me of last time.

nevertheless
outings like these remind me of why i shoot, and why i will continue to.

lets remind ourselves!
Sometimes truth isn't good enough.
sometimes people deserve more.
Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

thats where self denial comes from.

im doing just fine man. really.

2008-07-21T18:44:00.000+08:00

zijin im here to fight with you
haha no la just lemme blog a few things. i cant resist the temptation already
you inspire me to blog

1. im glad i stopped talking to you.

2. i saw someone trying to do my dear christian's hot hair the other day, and it was totally superly HILARIOUS. firstly, dont try to do it with unrebonded hair.. secondly, borrow christian siriano's hairspray. thridly, dont try to look like a hot gay when youre just gay and not hot. SO SUPER HILARIOUS LA THAT PERSON

3. the bio paper! YES I CANT GET OVER THE BIO PAPER. sounds so screwed right but i think i wasted too much time studying bio. if i knew lss will test such retarded teenyweeny detailed questions i wouldnt even have read the textbook at all. like. i think i spend three hours less studying also about the same. studying is useless for this paper. its just. pointless. =.=
LSS destroyed the last chance of getting me to like her as a test/exam setter. totally. im so emotionally scarred cause of her la. she cheat my feelings alot of times le. AND WTH IS MICROPROPAGATION? i crapped out 5 lines of words about something i didnt even know about. HAHA i think its so own. whether i get marks or not.
hohoho

4. the IH PAPER. i swear i can go do fortune telling. ten minutes before the paper i was talking to lili.
me: eh wont test minamata right?
lili: yah.. i think so.
me: yah but if it comes out i'll just.. die on the spot. totally. but...
lili, me: REALLY NOTHING TO TEST LOR.

ok so we decided to focus on taihu totally and just dump minamata
5min later

me: eh lili i ask you ah. if they test central govt and local officials.....
lili: yah then say .....................
me: ok good...
-pauses and thinks-
me: maybe that question will come out. WAAHAHAHHA i will just laugh if its this question
lili: aiya where got so zhun la.

paper start----
check paper------
HAHAHA i just giggled la then lili look at me.
WHOOOOOOOOO that question came out.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
it was damn funny
ok
but the time was quite screwed
hand pain!
then can see lili sitting beside me
-writewritewrite-
-SUDDEN HUGE BREATHE OUT-
-put pen down-
-sigh-
-HUGE BREATHE IN-
-grabs pen-
-chiong ah!-
=.=
this is the self motivation method that nygirls adopt. think that youre so dead, breathe out super hard, and then chiong off and FIGHTARFIGHTAR like no tmr.
=.-

5. PIMPLES OMG. i realised other than nationals, tests causes breakouts too!
=[

6. im falling SICK because of the stupid rain just now. stupid stupid rain. i'll murder you one day.

7. jiayou people! =] good luck

2008-07-21T16:48:00.000+08:00

zomg tissue is finally here to post
i cant stand those blackblack ant-y looking stuff on the blog
GIVE ME HEADACHES
okay so to save my brain cells from headaches so tat i can perform better for blocks
i shall drown tat freaking post.
LALALALA FIGHT ME MUACHEE.

okay anyway i shouldnt be posting now
i could have done like at least 1 chapter of physics/maths revision using tis time
BUT DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE.
tmr is chinese paper =D
okay no tats not the prob.
tissue too long never post already
i mus make it a point tat everyone can see tat tissue is alive.
jus in case u cant see me alive anymore after my blocks ><

lets see. wad to post about..
OKAY yes i noe already
theres tis very irritating girl on the bus who sat behind me on the bus in the afternoon
with her tis fren.
wah the way she tok is like really enough power to generate tsunami.
poor ancient little 852 like crumbling already under her high frequency high amplitude sound waves
so obviously she was like complaining about her life
stuff like..
'oh no one loves me'
'i dun understand. y am i the onli one who is contributing'
'im so sick and tired of everything'
den im like -okay..-
and so she went on and on about her sad life like she grew up in a single-parent family
teachers dun give a dam about her
whole day she help her frens her frens bochap her etcetc
AND HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY----SHE CRIED.
like seriously =.-

i mean like if she wan to contribute
den dun make it sound like shes forced into it
and demand for some kind of repay cos tats not how things work
if shes really sick and tired of everything she can jus let everything f-off and heck
wad for be so pitiful
its like so 自找 one.
tis might sound a bit selfish
but i always tot tat while being alive the most impt thing is to 对得起自己
there should be a limit to emoing and self-pitying
cos crossing tat limit, tats when a person gets pathetic.

and toking about the block test today
WAHAHAH a bit disastrous.
but its expected for me since i din mug a lot
so before the bio paper i was like slacking and toking hen with classmates
den suddenly paul tan came in and push my head =.-
paultan: EH. WALAO EH Y U SO STRESSED?!
tissue: ?! I WHERE GOT STRESS
paultan: U NOT STRESSED MEH?!
tissue: ER NO?!
paultan: WALAO EH DEN Y R U NOT STRESSED?!
tissue: WAH ZOMG IM SO STRESSED I WAN TO CRY
and so i showed him the head-spasm-eye-roll-frown kind of look
the whole class like quite tio shock hahahahahahaha SO RETARDED.

OKAY I SHALL GO OFF AND MUG MATHS/PHYSICS NOW
JIAYOU TO EVERYONE HAVING BLOCKS.
AND GOOD LUCK TO ANYONE HAVING MIND-BLOCKS.

TERMINATED

2008-07-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

i miss you alreadyy =[
DAMN.
so fast la......
sian. mannnnnn. i'll just slump back to emoness HAHAHAHA
takkaire k. i'll bash that idiot up for you when i get back. stupid person. >[
iloveyou =]
kboxing heals huh. hahahahahah the two of us blasting out like dno what crap.
but quite nice HAHAHAHAH.
ohwells.
3moremonths!!!! you better not fly to melbourne so early i'll smack you until you become stick like me.
love you ;_;

龔詩嘉-再一次擁有

我想念去年的冬天下著雪的那一夜
你給的溫柔緊握的雙手
溫暖整個寒冬

失去了曾經的擁有在你離開以後
帶走了笑容只留下寂寞忘了幸福是什麼

沒有你的夜特別的漆黑
只能閉上雙眼去感覺
沒有我的夜誰在你身邊

代替了那個從前

能不能再聽一次你說愛我
回到還在你懷裡的時候
能不能讓我再一次擁有

曾屬於我的溫柔

gonna mug like shit. 24/7. im so so screwed for blocks.
but youre worth it.

2008-07-12T22:26:00.001+08:00

沈默玩具

变成一个影

隐藏了自己

爱情困难呼吸

我是沉默玩具

执着对你无限期

模糊我自己

不愿升上白旗

输了你的游戏

你和他对街拥抱我看到

为什麽爱上你的人是我

为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过

为什麽对你舍不得总是我

爱上你需要那真情意

收在日记里

寂寞天天不休息

让甜蜜全也忘记

幸福不再美丽

可是我会在意

为什麽对你舍不得总是我

还是你需要那真情意

真爱你的人会难过

为什麽对你舍不得总是我

还是你需要那真情意收在日记里

itwasthelasttime.forever.turnaround.break.diary.hurt.

how long more?

2008-07-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

okay tissue suddenly 良心发现 after tagging a few SOMEONE SHOULD POST NOW
den i realise WHY NOT LET ME DO IT
=.- sound so enthu HAHAHAHAHA dammit im zihighing for no obvious reason

yesterday was the prize presentation
so many schools were like singing their school song and everything
all quite out of tune though.
but seriously i like tat spirit
im quite sure nyshooting will never do sth like tat. not like we dun have the spirit.
BUT U REALLY DUN SEE GIRLS' SCHOOLS SINGING WAD.
den we were sitting there looking at everything tats happening
its like so near yet so distant..
maybe its only me who cant get over lar.. but theres tis. suanness within
and nxt year competition is going to be strong. like very strong.
OH MAN I SHALL JUS EAT MY WAFFLE.
-random-

and yesterday after the thing a bunch of us went to eat at northpoint
jianing the highly-acclaimed bimbo did sth spectacular
shes like poking tis piece of agaragar from the plate
den jus as the agaragar was about to reach the black hole..
it dropped.

er no duh tats not the full story =.-
yes so jianing shrieked.
and immediately after tat she asked jackoh whos sitting oppo her
"did u scream or was it me?!"
win already lor jianing.

so jus now on the bus im like smsing taymua
obviously both of us cant get use to the fact tat we r no longer training
like suddenly go home so early ZOMG CAN SLEEP!!
and so anyway i was saying stuff like -i wan to eat sweet stuff- and -i wan to sleep-
concluding tat im living like a pig
taymua tat ass totally irritating.
shes like OH THERES STH WRONG WITH THAT STATEMENT.
I TOT U SHOULD BE A LIVING PIG.
fine. thanks mua (:
so to revenge i ate muachee jus now HAHAHAHAHAAH wheeeeee~
i purposely chewchew until cannot chew anymore
-so childish-

oh and this morning on the bus tc the teacup totally fell asleep standing
HAHAHAHA his head is like everywhere.
mus be busy mugging until late night everyday tats y like tat
TSK. MUGGER!!!
should have taken a picture and ask wc to post on hciarc blog
HAHAHAHAHAHA there goes tc's face.
but tissue proer -like duh-
i can fall asleep on mrt without any support ZOMG TATS LIKE FANTASTIC.

tissue shall really go sleep already
BEAUTY SLEEP IS IMPT. THOUGH IM LIKE BEAUTIFUL ENOUGH ALREADY
*cough*
=D

TERMINATED

2008-07-08T16:41:00.000+08:00

IM GONNA DECLARE MY LOVE FOR EVA RIGHT NOW.
EVASEAH I LOVE YOU TO BITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG IT DIDNT FALL OUT OF MY POCKET!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOMG
EVA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
TMR I WILL HUG AND KISS AND SCREAM AT YOU!
WAHAHAHA
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I JUST CANCELLED THE DAMN LINE.
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I CAN UNCANCEL
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

EVASEAH I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
just only that little little bit less than blank.

I LOVE EVASEAH.

2008-07-08T16:31:00.000+08:00

ok
they said it would be a shitty year for saggitaurius.
i believe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn it la!

the first and only valuable thing i have lost in my life happened today!
i lost my phone. DAMN
how am i gonna tell my parents. @@
SHIT LAAAAAAAAAA
i wanna find it like how i helped jinny find it.
my god. i didnt even feel it slip out!
what happened la!
it just vanished into thin air. poof!
ohscrewed.

i cancelled my number so any idiot wont kill my phone bill.
dont bother contacting me.
DAMN I SUCK LIKE SHIT.
MY NUMBERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
new phone? new number?
MAN shiing will come to school in crutches tmr.
im so so so so so so screwed.

im dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
save me save me!!!!!!!
and no alarm clock tmr.
MY SMSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
IM SO SCREWED.

2008-07-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

my dearest pistol babies..
JIAYOU BIG BIG OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the bteam.. jiayou! =] you guys just have to do your best
=]]]]]
cteam... all so young.. but all so imba..
WAHAHAHA
jiayou k!!!!!!!!!
you all have such a loooooooooooooooong way to go
not like the old and injured bteam shooters
heh

BBIG BIG JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
congrats to hciarc for getting briflesilver, criflegold and ariflesilver!(ithink)
jiayoujiayou!
all the imba-ness gonna increase again next year right..
hoho

three mental notes to help myself improve in comp (must tell yao1 mo2 gui3 guai4 next year)
HAHA yao mo gui guai.
i call one. LOL dont go say ah.....

1. CoNFIDENCE IN COMPS.
2. MENTAL STABILITY (omg...i just wish my sets could stop jumping up and down..)
3. REMOVE THE SIGHTRAISERS. yah hahahahahhaa coach agreed too. heh the first thing she said to me after the comp is use old gun structure. pfft~ thanks ah. at least i know now.
HAhHAHAHA nvm. shiing will get used to the old gun structure, gain confidence, and mental stability! she will learn from yao mo gui guai. if yao mo gui guai does not banish her to the dryfiring corner~

zijin!
two more years sia. can you imagine our mo qi by the end of j2?
impeccable.

imba!

wheeee.
GOOD LUCK FOR ALL THOSE TMR!!!!!!!!!!!!
CHECK YOUR HOROSCOPES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shwiing~

p.s. zjiin ah. you post the pictures so big yewtee will very very happy.
xD

2008-07-03T19:27:00.000+08:00

SINCE BDIV NATS IS OFFICIALLY OVER.
WE SHALL STOP EMOING ABOUT IT.
THERES STILL A LONGLONG WAY TO GO~~~
dun think we din receive any prize okay!!
below is our prize presentation on 2nd july.
featuring guest of honour JINNAYE PANG THE COW.

JAC TAN THE HI-JAC~

ZIJIN THE TISSUE (u can see im really happy to get the gummy bears =D)

SHIING THE TAYMUA~

AND EUNICE THE COCONUT TREE!!

THE ABOVE PRIZES ARE YUPI GUMMY BEARS BABY VERSION (obviously)

PROUDLY SPONSORED BY TIANCHONG THE TEACUP

okay retarded stuff aside.

after nats tis year i suddenly decided i wan to join shooting in hc

mostly cos im quite 不甘心 losing our title

so i will fight harder next year.

like wad mua said: i dun believe we cant shoot 39+ (during comp) under zhang29's drilling

and to whoever is still racking their fried up brains thinking of ways to console/motivate us

thanks (:

but i think we r still strong enough to survive

AND ITS PISTOL COMP TMR.

I JUS BOUGHT A COWCOW.

IM GETTING OBSESSED WITH COWS.

JIAYOU MY NANYANG PISTOLERS.

MAY THE COWCOW MOOOOOOOOO YOU~!!!

TERMINATED

2008-07-02T19:26:00.000+08:00

last year when i felt i screwed up, i told myself there would be this year.
this year, i screwed up even worse, but i know/hope/ that there will be next year.
shiing will not cry because she screwed two nationals up.
shiing will not cry because she will succeed one day.
zijin will not cry anymore because she tried her best.
eunice will not cry anymore because it was an accident.
and jac will not cry anymore because we were unlucky
bteam o8 will smile because of all that we've gone through tgt in o8, a super rocky year.
bteam o8 will smile because unlike some shooters, we are/have a strong bonded team.
bteam o8 will smile because we get hugs.
we will believe, even when the whole world doubts,
because we shot the scores before, right before our very eyes.
we know our standards, we were just unlucky.
we will not cry, and shiing will not break her record of not crying for a long time.
as long as we believe in ourselves and the effort we put in, its fine.
jac.. you say we dont deserve what we have, i think so too.
but we tried fighting against our luck, at least we fought to the end.
=]
this year was tiring, but im glad we're still together.
thank you tianchong for the whole packs of gummy bears, it was a super good consolation prize.
we even took pictures with it. it was our medal. HAHA
friendship.
a friendship medal is better ok.
seriously
1. it is a friendship medal. it means so much more than a stupid piece of metal because it came from the heart.
2. it is more practical because you can eat it. though it wont last very Long. WAHAHA
3. gummy bears symbolize bear hugs. HAAHA.
thank you =]
i must be strong too because i want my juniors to be strong and i have to set an example.
shiing will not cry because i cheng1ed to the end.

i said this before and i'll say it again.
next year nats surely damn tough.
but im very sure.
zijin and i will dong shan zai qi.
HAHA. i believe..
ppl might just take me as a nutcase so stupid screw up so many times still i believe i believe.
but ive shot the scores before even though amy doesnt believe.
i know what i can shoot
i know i just need more confidence.

for now.
shiing needs a rest.
bteam needs rest too. to calm ourselves down.
to makeup for all the effort we put in for the past half a year.

nyshooters are strong.
jiayou!

btw. im super proud of my juniors.
=]
I LOVE THEM TO BITSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
if you burn them to ashes i'll burn you to nothing.
so what if she shot zero.
you didnt have to come niao us from the back you big bum.
im not gonna talk to you for the next century.
now i know why my girls dont like you so much.
HAHAAHAHAHA you deserve it.

i love nyshooting.
we did not fail because we still fought the way through without her.
we were just unlucky.
im still very proud of you guys..
i expected to cry like crap when i got home..
but i got enlightened by a pink sky.
so.
be strong be strong.

keep the love moving for the pistol team.
loves from shiing!

i came to the sudden realisation, that after two years, i have not moved on from that period in sec two.
i really.
-sigh-.
i really dont know if seeing you makes it less painful.

2008-06-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

this is my saggitaurius horoscope for nationals day.
WAHAHAHA
anybody wanna foretell how i'll do?

You have so much potential that isn't being tapped into right now, and you need a kick of confidence to get things moving! Sometimes, if you want to create really big changes in your life, you have to start making smaller ones -- to sort of give the universe an example of what you're after. So today, make some tiny alterations. Take a different route to work, wear mismatched socks, take the stairs instead of the elevator. Shake up your day and see what happens!

so i need confidence, and you guys will probably see me wearing different coloured socks. AHAAHHAHAHA

2008-06-30T22:26:00.001+08:00

ive been thinking alot these few weeks, and i realised that today would be our last training with the rifle teams.
aww man shits i think im gonna cry after nats.
whoo! first timers for many HAHAHA
ive been really thankful for what nyshooting has given me, especially my teammates, coach, and gun.
not so much the scores, but eunice, zijin, eening, jinny, jac,jac, jianing, etcetcetc.
it also gave me wonderful seniors who are always guiding us along.. im looking forward to being taken care of again next year. seriously. HAHHAHAHA
it gave me wonderful memories, in sec two, sec three, sec four.
the teams changed each year, but the memories were superb.
i love nyshooting, the juniors, seniors, and batchmates.
they stuck through it with me! =]

now, i am left with my last and final job of a captain..
that is to see my babies through their fear during nationals, and bring them to higher grounds.
my babies, dont be afraid, and just reach for whatever you can grab.
=] shiing included. haha
its not easy facing the fear of failure, but im sure we're strong enough, and our team is close enough.
i love you guys!

to my b team
this year hasnt been easy, running around, changing every working structure we had last year
im glad we made it through physically and mentally, and stuck tgt in the end
dont cry, it hurts to see you guys cry. =]
we'll just wail tgt after nats HAHA. then can breakdown le
WHOOOOOO. must wait for me ma.. haha
my dear eunice, zijin and jac. we can do it.
im sure we can.
because we worked for it. although there were super many bumps on the way, we still pia through it, and im really happy that we can be where we are today.
xD
we'll just give it our best shot. =]

nanyang shooting is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
-852s excluded.-but the unique toot look of the bus is unerasable. haahahhaha

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
is it just me, or you felt it too...?
man
it proves alot.
<你怎么说>....
.
everytime im always left with the "???????" expression.
im hopeless.
WHAHAHAHA
man this is getting emo.
skip.
i have so much to say...
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
good luck to all i want good luck to reach to.
HAHAHAHA
goodluck to hwachong, we believe in you guys
goodluck to hwachong, we believe in you guys and girls. that you will give nationals your best
good luck to all my friends who i know well/notsowell/know the face only de ren. jiayou!
BEST OF LUCK to nanyang shooting, because i zui4 teng2 us and we deserve the most luck
HAHAHAHA
omg la.
the power of emoness and highness add tgt
disaster!

i love you all!
=]

2008-06-28T19:31:00.001+08:00

ZOMG IT WAS JIANING'S BD YESTERDAY
I KNEW BUT I DIN REALISE OMG.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BIMBO CLUB PRESIDENT~
WISH U KEEP UP UR BIMBOTICITY FOR THE MANY YEARS TO COME

so today jinnaye (my daughter =D) and i went to buy some presents for jianing
today is the pinkest day of my life man
jinnaye bought tis hotpink+black+silver handphone pouch
which looks so desperately bimbotic and we decided tat it 非 jianing 莫属
even the plastic bag tat came along with it is like PINK.
den after tat we shop somemore and we bought hotpink ankle socks
and hotpink nail polish (which i jus realise we might have forgotten to tear away the price tag)
HAHAHAHAHAHA
im kind of blinded by the offending colour
den we put the polish < handphone pouch < socks
of cos jianing was quite amused by the presents
since shes like laughing nonstop in the toilet when she open it up
and alice was saying we have been too loud.
-do i look like i care-

and i jus realise nxt monday will be the last trning session before nats
which is also the last trning session with nyshooting.
after nats we will jus -meng mug-
coach also super realistic
shes like saying "after nats u all dun need to use our gun already"
wth wth wth wth
and jus by looking at the way zhang29 is treating the college ppl today
it totally prepare me for wad i will expect when i go over and join their club
which duh its so discouraging

nats is coming~
SO EXCITING.
it will be soooooo fun.

TERMINATED

2008-06-27T20:21:00.001+08:00

okay so im here to save our drowning blog.

EENING IN TIMES LIKE THESE U SHOULD TAKE THE INITIATIVE TO POST RITE?!

okay anyway i really dunno wad to crap

i shall jus see how my brain goes.

oh and tat little elmo is our mascot for tis year nats!
SO BLARDIE CUTE DAMMIT.
oops im sorry.
notice its left hand.
theres a hole
poor thing STUPID FACTORY LAR GO PUNCH HOLE TO PUT PRICE TAG
make my poor little elmo so holey.
but anyway my elmo is in very good state compared to the other comrades
the rest really like having warfare in nationals
jinnaye's one eyeball and nose splitting already
taymua's suffering from cataract

I FEEL LIKE POSTING A PICTURE OF THE PIG
but not today i shall do it some other day WHEEEEEEEE
tissue is half high half emo.
fortunately highness tend to be the dominant one

SUCH A RETARDED POST
but at least i posted
(:

TERMINATED

2008-06-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

Avril lavigne--- tomorrow.

And I wanna believe you
When you tell me that itll be okay
Yeah, I try to believe you
But I dont

When you say that its gonna be
It always turns out to be a different way
I try to believe you
Not today, today, today, today, today[chorus]

I dont know how Ill feel
Tomorrow
Tomorrow
I dont know what to say

Tomorrow
Tomorrow is a different day

Its always been up to you
Lets turn it around, its up to me
Im gonna do what I have to do
Just dont

Give me a little time
Leave me alone a little while
Maybe its not too late
Not today, today, today, today, today

I dont know how Ill feel
Tomorrow
Tomorrow

I dont know what to say
Tomorrow
Tomorrow is a different day

And I know Im not ready
Maybe tomorrow
Im not ready
Maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you
When you tell me that itll be okay
Yeah, I tried to believe you
Not today, today, today, today, today
Tomorrow it may change

everything's changing. maybe it was never there in the first place.
its times like this when i feel that i have failed.
times like this when the diary is not enough.
times like this when i just wanna have someone by my side.
times like this when i dont feel like touching hw, dont feel like shooting, dont feel like living.

you take my knife, stab my back. i take your knife, stab your back.
very fun?
i attack you, you attack me.
so fun right?

ok. why not you come see it from my eyes, and see if im stabbing you at all.
you'll realise.. if its anyone stabbing at all.. its not me.
and its not fun. because to me it feels i got stabbed. not in the back, in the heart.

past the clouds in the sky, the rain in my world.
i have failed.

i think this is hilarious.
what i thought i had, was just a blank.

2008-06-21T16:39:00.000+08:00

about socliche. about us.

'and so to commerate this
and acknowledge our three girls bond by lameness and spasticness,
we started SO CLICHE 06.' -ahrol

'WE GONNA ROCK
we gonna ROCK E WHOLE WAY
WITH A VICTORY AT TEH END OF THE DAY' -ahrol

'感谢你愿意陪伴我
不然我将会多么寂寞
不然如何能把泪水变成回忆的彩虹' -ahmua

'then we can train tgt
eat tgt
dm tgt
listen to coach chant sutras tgt
play with li and jia jiaolian tgt
eat pao mian tgt
eat zhi cai fan tgt
drink our BIG BIG BIG gulps tgt..
hear the ding dongs tgt
play in the luggage room tgt
lemme turn off the lights on you
pull each other's shoelacesdo work in safra tgt
talk crap tgt.
laugh like maniacs all tgt.
cross the roads like maniacs tgt
scream halfway tgt
take funny pictures AND VIDEOS of safra tgt' -ahmua

'i'll miss that place.
and the memories too.' -ahmua

things are changing quite a bit.
dm machine is no longer there.
zhangsy no longer chant sutra to us
coach li and coach jia kind of disappeared from our lives.
carol is gone.
and many more others are distancing too.
we had a change of coach
change of training plans
change of teacher in charge
change of training venues etc..
everything is changing but we cant dwell on the past
and den i realise how much mua and i have gone through together.
the uncertainties the changes the joy and tears
which explains how we get our mo qi. (:
mua get ready.

-1, 2, 3 SPASM!!-

i kept all the letters from carol together with the book from mua.
whenever i feel tired of trning/saikang i will take a look at them
den i will cry and be reminded of how good the times used to be.
and i will walk out of it feeling stronger
i will bring them during nationals tis year.
if i feel lost halfway during the shoot at least i have some mental support.
i noe they are always there.

gahh im jus emoing
every year tis time others get freaked out
but i get emo
=.-
i think i din scream enough last night at the sea
and i think i needed more hugs.
or maybe i needed more spaces so i can cry/wail for all i wan.
mua get ready.

-1, 2, 3 WAIL!!-

i shall stop wasting tissue.
save the trees..

TERMINATED

2008-06-19T17:27:00.000+08:00

stressed arrrrrrr
taymua and i whole day sit there.
'aiya how. screw up how.'
'ya lor omg how.'
'later shoot halfway freak out how.'
'AIYA NVM ONE LAR WONT DIE'
so such things jus continue.
emo emo emo emo den suddenly see tis glimpse of light.
when im typing tat -glimpse of light- i tot of tis sentence i saw on hongchan's pm
its sth like the light at the end of the tunnel comes from an oncoming train.
oh my gay

trning was screwed.
everyone screwed.
jacjac and i din even have the xinqing to do the video thing
at first i shoot finish first to come out im like -sure die-
DEN SOON I REALISE EVERYONE DIEDED WITH ME
okay team spirit.
so now its the fatigue period...
by right around nats we will shoot up again.
its okay 'by right' will always happen =D

today tissue cut my hair!!
i think i now look super good girl
taymua commented tat my form teacher will love me
and finally stop complaining about my hair messy
-hopefully-
fine lar jus dun laugh at my hair jus in case someone find it funny =.-
so tissue believe tat after i cutcut hair.
all the badbad shots will be cutcut chopchop away
NO PROBLEM ONE.

as u can see tissue is blogging for the sake of blogging.
i dun feel like studying AT ALL.
tmr is a longlong day
VERY LONG.
last day to play already ><
TISSUE SHALL ENJOY TMR NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS

TERMINATED

2008-06-18T20:56:00.001+08:00

Hello (:

Sorry to er, break the chain of posts.

Someone's father has leukemia..so yeah.

Just appealing to AB+ people out there.

If you're a kind soul, please contact 97838531.

Yep that's just about all i have to say.(:

2008-06-17T20:40:00.001+08:00

TISSUE COCONUT!! (note the retarded smile. really looks like me)

jacjac and tissue bullying taymua.

high calcium skimmed milk is the key point in tis pic. really.

jac jac is acting cool.

SHE WHERE GOT LOOK LIKE JIEHUI SOMEONE TELL ME?!

oh-my-gay. (mua and tissue's new invention)

classic aunty pose.

notice the shiing.

ignore the shiing.

the holy ahmitabha

from the left: superman, spiderman,batman,WONDERWOMAN

tis pic is almost symmetrical..

hahahahahahahahahaha maybe thursday i will return with a video or 2! (:

TERMINATED

2008-06-16T19:31:00.000+08:00

oh my god.
tissue is going to have ear infection soon oh no
especially my right ear omg

today i was outside hc range looking for xinxi mummy
but she jus refuse to pick up the phone
so tissue got worried and suspicious
taymua was with tissue
den she made a comment: aiya surely with wc one
and after double checking with tc
we confirm tat they should be together somewhere
so i called wc.
wad i heard is like. emotionally scarring.
wc was panting heavily throughout the whole call duration
with occasional screams for help in the background by xinxi mummy
and they were at tis secluded car park
光天化日之下 doing dunno wad
suddenly wc jus say hes very busy at the moment and will call back later
not long later xinxi mummy came running back
hair super messy and 衣衫不整 zomg.
and upon asking wc wad they were doing
wc onli replied sth like its physically demanding
and so taymua + tissue decided to start calling him daddy jus in case
which means yanhui became our ahma.
scandalous~

and tissue's hair is like. defying gravity today
jus cos i tied my hair up during trning to prevent myself from suffering heatstroke
and coach is unexceptionally high today
a bit. terrifying
but ya supposedly not at a dangerous level yet.

OMG DINNER.

TERMINATED

2008-06-14T18:17:00.000+08:00

tommy the jinny's ipod is such a total loser
who is very good at fortune telling
yet has no taste at all.
lets see what happened in safra yesterday..

qn: tommy. tell me more about chink and carol.
tommy: hero and heroine. (whoooooo)

qn: tommy. tell me about the relationship between jiehui and jinny.
tommy: fast and furious (omg jinny u din tell us about the 2 of u!!)

qn: tommy. tell us why jiehui likes jinny.
tommy: helpless when she smiles. (HAHAHAHAHA)

qn: tommy, what would kaiyun's day be like today?
tommy: no sleep tonight (kaiyun exclaim: YA I HAVE BEEN SLEEPLESS FOR MANY NIGHTS)

qn: tommy. what kind of girl do u think kaiyun is?
tommy: like a boy. (zhun. very zhun)

qn: tommy. what do u think of kaiyun's first love?
tommy: the first hurts the most. (OMG)

qn: tommy. what about kaiyun's future husband?
tommy: hot stuff (kaiyun is like super excited+happy about tis)

qn: tommy. do u like kaiyun a lot?
tommy: in love

- kaiyun butts in and say TOMMY YOU SUCK -

qn. tommy, what do you say about u and kaiyun now?
tommy: over it

qn: tommy, wad do u think of kaiyun now?
tommy: apologise

qn: tommy, what would happen to u and kaiyun?
tommy: it ends tonight (omg lar so sad)

qn: tommy. what do u think of kaiyun now since she apologised?
tommy: 最爱还是你 (sooooo touching ><)

qn: tommy. what kaiyun means to u now?
tommy: 宝贝 (awwwwwww)

BUT UNFORTUNATELY.
its totally over between tommy and kaiyun
cos the first thing kaiyun say today when she say jinny is like TOMMY SUCKS
and soon after tat she ganged up with ruthi daddy and stripped tommy naked.
tommy being so emotionally scarred has been emoing + pmsing till now.

wanted to post about the q&a session about nationals
but den i realise jus in case it will infuriate any readers out there.
haahhahahaha still its super cute.

tissue was super scared of nationals suddenly
like though im sec 4 already
but i onli shoot nationals once before
everytime of tis year a lot run through my mind
u noe those random thoughts
wad if i screw up? what if i drag my team down? what if i din do well? what if i disappoint coach? what if i disappoint those who has been supporting me? what if i dun get the result i wan? isnt it such a waste of time already since i spent so much effort on shooting? what will others think of me? what kind of treatment will i receive if i ever join hcshooting from their retarded coach? why cant i prove to myself and others tat we can do it? and etc etc the list is like super long
and den i realise even if i am going to screw up
at least i will gladly accept the result i got.
because i trust what i am capable of.
and if its not there im responsible for it.
i wont be a coward who give up last minute and hand the role to someone else
i made the mistake once and i wont wanna make it again.

today i was like asking shiing
tissue: mua..wad if i shoot a 300..
mua: -ponders- go play cs
tissue: wad if i shoot a 400?
mua: -ponders- go play cs
tissue: wad if i dun shoot at all?
mua: -ponders- go play cs
yeah wadeva the outcome is we shall go play cs
ahhh but i think i prefer going to the arcade holding a cluster of shiny gold medals
and maybe a challenge trophy or sth (:
y not?
its not a dream..

TERMINATED

2008-06-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

teammates come together like the pellets on our target cards.
we start out far apart, and then we end up pulling ourselves tighter and tighter together.

today was super great.
we had a mini bbq party at east coast today!!! e56.
ahahahha so far from 7-11!!!!!
super duper uber far lah. thank god jac and i brought her bikes. if not we'd DIE walking there and back with ice and all those bottles of drinks.
hahahaha
it was super fun. ok at first we werent able to start a fire. always liddat de!
but this time we were smarter!
we decided to call for help. kudos to the brave angela who went up to a person who looked damn pro at lighting fires to ask for help. hahahah. and no doubt he was damn pro. come over awhile only then gao dim already. thankyouthankyou!
then we started cooking. HAHAHAHA
omg la about 7 ppl cooking.
3ppl fanning, one zijin holding tongs and screaming for butter, one damn suay person holding the butterstick, one eunice turning the food, and one jackoh cutting up the food to feed us HAHAHA
at first marilyn was holding the butter stick. omg i tell you its DAMN stressful la!
she hold hold stone abit only will kena screamed at by zijin. HAHAHAHA gan chiong. haha eh zijin marilyn said she scared of you leh!!!!! HAHA.
after that.. eat eat eat then coach got abit drunk.
omg la are you guys sure you didnt order something like drunken prawn? prawns marinated with a LITTLE bit of alcohol..
i think coach abit high leh!!
haha play with the volleyball and trying to throw it to the top of the pavillion like thing. i had a feeling she wanted to try to burst the ball by throwing it on the sharp thing *-*
save the ball.
haha
then after that she damn funny. start taking ice and putting it around her finger. HAHAHAHA
then she say:"shi4 jie4 shang4 zui4 da4 de4 zhuan4 jie4!" (omg all di si sheng)
everyone @@ for awhile
then start laughing damn loudly la!
omg... really abit drunk. HAHA
but fun coach. ^^

today was fun, with all the team bonding and stuff (from cooking) LOL.
sometimes when you start to wonder whether shooting is worth all your time and effort..
looking at just your coach and teammies really help to reassure yourself that youre doing the right thing.
idno. it just makes a bad day seem so much better.

eunice improved today! note. its not regaining standard. its IMPROVING!
haha. im so proud of you. jiayou babies ok?
seeing all these babies grow up make me so happy!!! haha
really feel like a mother
i see my sec twos growing up and being more independent, talking to the seniors more, and being more open about themselves. i see my sec threes growing up and taking care of the young ones, with ppl taking the initiative to settle bbq problems, or even helping the exco with the cylinder pumping at safra. sec ones dont really see much. haha. sec fours old le nothing much to see also. hanging around these ppl make everything worth it..
=]
i think im in position to say that the exco 08 has succeeded. i hope our seniors agree, and are proud of us. i remember the apprehension that exco07 had when they had to hand over the club to me zijin jeannette and eening. i remember all of us being very nervous and feeling very shitty when we had a new exco, new tic, new coach at the start of the year.but ever since i think all of us have been working hard to fulfill our duties. im sure exco 09 will do well too, cause im so proud of my babies. it seems so fast, everything seems to be going at bullet pace in sec 4.

jiayou everyone for nationals ok?
we can make it cause teammates play a super important role in this mental game, and we are as close as the pellets that land on our target card.(hopefully all our groupings quite close HAHA) and even if we fall, we will fall together so its ok. you wont fall flat on your face alone. there will be many flat faces resulted from the fall with you so dont worry so much k!
you all have it somewhere inside you. the power to do well. so dig it up for nationals yah?
!!
=]
we'll always love us. HAHAHA

another song

my wish--rascal flatts
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you wanna go,
And if you're faced with a choice,
and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And always give more than you take.
But More than anything, yeah, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
Yeah.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

my wish for all my babies. bestofluck. tryyourbest and you'll never fall too hard.
i love you!

2008-06-08T17:05:00.001+08:00

open arms--- journey

Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart with mine

Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind

We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are
By my side

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say

So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold

Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say

So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me

Open arms

perfect song.
says so much. lovesonglovesongggg
o o
[\/]
me andahma/me and mama/ mama and papa/ me and my future boyfriend HAHAHAHAHA
nice song lorrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

ahhh.. brunei seems so far away.
5 days without ahma/ahma's soup/ ahma's smell/ ahma's dentures/ ahma's lancome foundation/ ahma's voice/ ahma's sound/ ahma's clothes/ ahma's body lying next to me.
5mths to brunei.
i miss the big big houses, ahma's bed, the bigbig cars, the nicenice food, the laziness, the serenity. even if it meant nothing to do in that big but unamusing country. wasting time there seemed like heaven.
ahh.. brunei makes me sad. stupid song.

anw... i guess ive to go backcracking again
dno why suddenly so pain today. maybe cause i went crazy shopping ytd.
=[ retail therapy haha
if it doesnt get better tonight im gonna arrange for an appointment tmr.
dnt think i wanna tell ____ that im going for chiro though. no good feeling about it.
so i shall go alone.
and pay myself =.=
anybody wanna come with me? ahahhahaha. you get to see me get tortured first hand. 5star entertainment HAHA

craps la i got so much work to do la.
been slacking too much..
must do alot next week.
finish everything
cause i havent study yet
nationals just screws everything up
with that type of timing.
cant even go brunei. cant even catch up on work. i bet everyone in myclass finish their work le lor. except me. im not even close. shct.
i hope/know its worth it. shooting.
haha. ohwells. at least i love the ppl. all so sweet. ;D can you imagine? kaiyun is sweet! HAHAHAH
ok dont come after me with a chopper.

life here seems so lonely.
Living without you, Living alone.

i'll snap out of it. just a little bit more time. i promise. i'll go back to normal.

2008-06-04T21:14:00.001+08:00

愛總忽然退潮　心慌亂觸礁

沉沒在深海裏　看海面閃耀

但回憶像水草　緊緊的纏繞

夢才溫熱眼角　就冰冷掉

努力越過風暴　向著未來飄

我們才會遇到　感動的擁抱

你總是能知道　我的堅強剩多少

給我最剛好的依靠

你手心的太陽　只輕放在我背上　

委屈就能笑著落淚　被釋放　

在手心的太陽　黑暗裏特別明亮　

讓遠路好像　是一種分享　而不是漫長…

讓眼睛看不到　嫉妒的燃燒

讓耳朵聽不到　謊言的吵鬧

在沒有人相信　愛能永恆那一秒

我們正堅定的微笑

你手心的太陽　有種安定的力量　

就算世界再亂我也不心慌　

我手心的太陽　或許只像個月亮　

卻用所有愛　為你投射我　最暖的光芒

------------------------------------------------

真的好难受。

its like they just left me behind. 你不是在为我好... 我只会更加痛苦 ;_;

为什么你不要带我走...

its gonna be a long night.

好难受, 好难受 T-T

2008-06-02T23:15:00.002+08:00

today was. WOW
hahahahahahahaha wad rubbish is tat
anyway lets start with tis morning.
5 alarm clocks finally managed to wake tissue up.
but seriously 5 alarm clocks going off together the result really quite alarming.
and so on my way to the bus interchange..
i was walking across tis small little field place
and on each side of the pavement got a gang of birds
(which means got 2 gangs)
all the feathers perked up already the birds
so they look like tis fluff ball
hahahaha den got one is bald so the head dun have hair hahahaha omg so cute
they were like WADADADA POPOKAYE CHIPCHIRPCHAP and wadeva bird language also came out
dam noisy..like having gang fight like tat
and so tissue finally walked in between them
den suddenly!
all of them jus -shuddup- and started looking on the ground (for food?)
and totally pretend nth happen
den after tat when i walk past them i heard feathers flapping
and the osfhgoidetamgjdjfoeuakdfk bird language came out again
so i turn back and found them fighting
tissue cant believe birds r actually creatures like tat.
wheres their holy innocence..

and on 852 tissue was desperately trying to keep herself awake
until 852 drove somewhere near the bishan fire station
den i see tis bird strolling in the middle of the road
tsk tsk cross road mus remember to look left look right look left again
hahahahahaha den by the time u cross jus nice the vehicles come HAHAHA OMG okay skip
yes so tis birdy looks quite emo
like really super super sad
its like looking on the floor.. den walk slow slow aimlessly
and so i made an amazing discovery.
emo birds walk with the foot pointing inwards.
like 内八字 tat kind of thing

oh i realise i made a lot of observations about birds
im sure ahgu will try to siam away from tis post HAHAHA how could anyone be scared of birds omg so not winner.

lets add in some stupid joke.
why is superman's shirt so small?
cos its s size. (u noe the 's' written on the superman shirt..)
why is batman's shirt so small?
cos batman ask superman to buy for him.
why is spiderman's shirt so small
cos its buy 2 get 1 free. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA omg okay

but the main highlight of today's training would be the utmost display of our team's teamwork and team dynamics
im so totally proud to talk about it.
FROM US MAN EVERYONE.
so today bao qiang halfway tissue cannot take it
and so i ran to toilet to puke.
somewhere towards the end of trning.
shiing cannot take it
and so she ran to toilet to puke.
after trning eunice came out the last
shiing and i looked at her expectantly
(waiting for her to puke)
but aiya she din. mus work harder eunice. teamwork teamwork
the cdiv jianing and jackoh is even better
they displayed their patriotism as well
jac came out her face is like -white-
jianing came out her face is like -super red-
so as we can see theres change of colour observed.
and white + red = singapore flag
IM SO PROUD OF THEM ><

trning in school sucks.
below listed r some reasons y we prefer trning in safra..
1. safra aircon stronger so can blow pellets to hit 10
2. safra lane need to pay so cannot anyhow shoot ->increase in quality trning
3. look at other school ppl shoot like rubbish will very happy -> boost confidence
4. safra colour combi is soothing and comfy to the eyes
5. light bulb at the target card is so much stronger
6. got weird ppl looking at us -> dun dare to anyhow shoot
7. got air compressor (!!!!)
8. got foosball
9. got 7-11 ITS A STORE AND MORE~
10. its nearer to my house (from zijin eening and jianing)

and i can see jinny's continuous effort to improve.
shes so into the trning plan/trning schedule tat she started praying to it
where else can u find such dedicated shooters huh?!

coach also wans to organise some outing to promote club cohesiveness
and obviously shes quite fascinated by the idea of going to the zoo.
wadeva the zoo wadeva
we shall all go to the zoo and let the animals look at us..
not bad. for good cause.

tissue is out of things to say.
=D

TERMINATED

2008-05-31T23:13:00.001+08:00

must mindblock you.
initially it was anticipation. then it turned into disappointment, followed by the feeling of displacement, and finally a sigh of relief. for myself, at least.
haha. ohwell.. mindblock.
im less reactive. haha.

2008-05-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

muachee. tissue. yanhui. ahrol

hahahahaha anyone still remember this?

its drawn by ruthi daddy for nationals last year..

sweet memories =D

this year nationals.. we will take out the ballet shoe and the penguin.

and add in 2 coconut trees

our team will be totally made up of plant products

feels so vegetarian (sorry side track but i dun believe in vegetarian-ism)

coach always say since we knew what isit like to be champions already, this year no need to so chiong for champion title.

im not going to comment on that though

but hey i really wan tat shiok sensation again..hor mua? =D

TERMINATED

2008-05-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

no. we will not end up like that.
we will not have differentiated treatment.
thats crazy.
this is the power of resistance. WAHAHAHAHA
shiing says... NO!

btw
no takers yet. hahahahha do people even get what im asking?
jiayou!

shiing is going nuts.
wheeee
bonkers.
HAHAHAHAHAHHA

2008-05-26T22:52:00.001+08:00

too many scary people in this world.
lets leave it as it is.

haha
one question. any takers? :p

outta my head: ashlee s.

What?
Is that all you've got to say?
What? What?
You're rubbing me the wrong way
See your lips moving
But I don't catch a word you say

Shut up your chatter
I need for you to go away, uh huh

[ CHORUS ] And all I hear is ay ya ya ya ya
You're talking way too much
I can't even hear me now
All your noise is messing with my head
You're in my head

Get outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
Want you outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
Get outta my head
Outta my outta my head
Want you outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
That's what I said

What
you looking at me for huh?
Show me respect or I will show you the door (Get out that door)
Lately, I've got a problem with the way that you behave
You're too much,
and all your questions don't leave me no time for me,
ha ha ha

[REPEAT CHORUS X2]

All your opinions, keep them to yourself
Just let me think so I can hear myself
Wouldn't it be nice if I could just go solo, take the day off?
I'd be alright if you would leave me to it,
back the fsck off.

Ay ya ya ya ya
You're talking way too much
You tell me one more time how I should live I swear I'll bite your head off
I am who I am
And I can't be no one else
You got nothing left to say
Keep your comments to yourself

Awww!

Outta my, outta my head
Want you outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
Get outta my head
Outta my outta my head
Want you outta my head
Outta my, outta my head

some people just dont get it.
bless your souls

2008-05-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

ohh no i can feel taymua's nervousness
nervousity
nervousiness
WADEVA THE WORD IS.
shes totally hahahahahaha-ing like nobody's business on msn
i dun rreally get wads so funny -.=
(-.= is the thing u see when =.- looks into the mirror)
its like.

mua: okay onee
tissue: ?!
mua: i mean done.

fine.
then im so easily influ-ed
cos the next thing i type was like

tissue: quite quite
mua: ?!?!
tissue: i mean quick quick

tmr is monthly shoot!!
okay lar 'monthly shoot' is like the word of the week or sth
cannot forget to mention
i remember last year monthly shoot got a toddler came my lane and knock my tripod down
and the range officials jus ignore o.O
i shall use my glove power and make 方圆一百米以内 de ppl faint
HAHAHAHA the smell is powderful cannot underestimate

yesterday was at safra and met mummy + ahgu!
so i was happily sharing the bigwhitebunny sweets which coach gave me..
she promised me like 3 weeks ago den forgot about it
hahahahaha on tuesday i was like
tissue: 教练。。。你最喜欢什么动物？-hint-
coach: 什么都行
tissue: 哦。我喜欢大白兔（：-hinthinthint-
tissue: 你听过大白兔和大灰狼的故事吗？
coach: 没有。
tissue: 哦。大白兔和大灰狼是朋友。=D
AND SO FINALLY SHE GOT THE IDEA.
hahahaa den after tat she laughed like crazy
ANYWAY tats so sidetrack
oh back to friday mummy+ahgu
so hwang me and mummy were trying to blow tis sweet wrapper
cos will have sound come out
mummy was like demo-ing when suddenly some high frequency sound came out
den her expression was like -innocent + what jus happened- and looked around
hahahahahaha sooo cute
after she wan to throw the wrappers away
mummy: eh come i give u present
tissue: i noe its the sweet wrappers
mummy: -stone awhile- eh no its musical instruments
hahahahhahahahaha omg

mua was telling me not to drown her post.
and im going to show her attitude by drowning it
lalalalalalala WAD CAN U DO HUH!!
okay i was reading a certain novel by a certain someone yesterday
and den i came across this sentence..
聂小倩临死前对宁采臣说：书生，当你想起我，眼泪忍不住要留下来的时候，就请抬头看看这片天空。如果天，依旧是那么的蓝；云，依旧是那么的白，那么请不要哭泣，因为我的离去并没有带走宁采臣的一片天空。
sounds soooo sad lar
but i think tats a very good attitude when one faces defeat/betrayal/loss of love ones etc
its no big deal man.
(:

-tissueinated-

2008-05-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

78%. in your face.
shoot you in your foot.
not studying?
dont think so.
focusing too much on shooting?
dont think so.
damn. that should stop you from talking about my commitments for awhile
hahahahahah
this was the conversation last week

ing: eh papa next week you need to go my school collect report book leh. must be PARENTs collect
papa: ok. whats your teacher's name again?
ing: =.= my teacher is _____, im in 4o2. *i bet he forgot*
papa: ok
ing: eh this year i got improve leh! must reward. hahahaha -evil smiles-
papa: ok lor.. 1% $50?
ing: huh.. no la. later i only get $50
papa: then what. $500 ah?
ing: can also!!!!!
papa: -no reply-. -note that never say no-

HAHAHAHA. $2000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i not so bad qiao zha my own family please
just that my shopping sponsors are HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYY
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
happy is good

studies settled this term. hope i can do well in ca2
i dont do well in ca2s.. damn..
ok nvm.... i shall try to balance this year..dont wanna fall into the drain and drown

shooting!!!!!!!
tmr shooting monthly.
screwed la
go me must focus
cannot care too much about 96
hai.....

anw..
shoutout to my bdivers..
JIAYOU!!!!! GO THERE AND JUST SHOOT!!!
we shall try to just relax ok..
i hope everyone sleeps well tonight
weve all not had a comp in prolly 10months so i hope you guys can adjust back
its not nationals its jst a warmup to our june training :p
anw
i hope you guys can do well and prove whoever you need to prove wrong.. =]
i wish for the best for all of you. and we shall make the great leap forward together, ok?
success is not guaranteed, but team spirit always cushions the fall
if we are too stressed and crack, we shall arm ourselves with liquid paper
those who need to liquid the score on the scoreboard, we liquid with you
those who need to write on rocks, we write with you
those who did too well, we draw on you
we are strong, and we will not be scared of failure.
we shall feel the love hahahhahaa
-love, shiing-

these few days many ppl have been walking around emo-ly
and as the emo chairman -hahahahha- only 2 ppl know that stupid phrase
it breaks my heart to see everyone crushed by defective products-again, only a few ppl know the phrase defective goods for its real meaning-
i hope that you guys will stay strong and fight because you deserve it
my beloved angel, i know you can do it because you can. you have taken care of me since i was that small and little and immature AND SHORT hahahaa. now, you serve as a form of motivation for me to strive even harder.
you believed in me. =] i love you and i believe in you too. jiayou ok! hugs
____, _______, and _____. i hope you all can continue fighting too cause there are a lot of people who care for you and dont wanna see you ppl give up.
those whose hearts have been broken.. _____, _______, _______ hope you get well soon =]
i hope we can all lessen the sadness flowing around..
though its inevitable, its still nice if we can see smiles flying about in safra or in school
=]

we shall strive hard.
jiayou.
everybody =]
sichuan, wenchuan, myanmar, phillipines, jiayou.

愛與希望
大地被搖晃著
天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了
下一秒瓦解了淚堆積成了河

但明天是好的
我們要堅定著
愛~讓我們不放棄活著
還要繼續和大自然拔河

當愛與希望
投射炙熱的太陽 ***
昨日淚光
會隨時間都蒸發
別輕易放棄
明天要許更多願望
裝滿了勇氣就更有力量

當愛與希望
倒映暖暖的月亮
再回頭望
又是築好的家鄉
我知道未來
還有好多路要闖

我打開了窗看見了晴朗

i want this to be a post of hope and resilience.
-muacheenated-

2008-05-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

Sorry if im spamming too many videos but it's for distressing.xPpP

I wonder if you guys laughed as much as i did.hahaha. :P

HOLIDAYSSSS~

2008-05-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

All i can say is.
lol.
xD;

TERMINATED

2008-05-13T18:14:00.000+08:00

first of all, very sorry to block off your post my dear zanzan but i had to blog to xiao1 qi4.

it hurts more than a heartbreak.

first stab in, i lean forward.
second stab in, i fall to my knees
but no matter what you do, you cant stop me from standing up again.
cause you cant control me.
and since i cant control you, FINE. do what you want.
i cant stop you. continue stabbing. make me angry.

i wont stab you back cause im not as underhanded as you.
i dont carry knives in my smile.
but you'll get what you gave me ten times more.

we're not a bunch of goons that you can push around.
if you dont ALLOW to let us do it your way, we'll do it our way.
THERES ALWAYS A WAY BECAUSE WE KNOW THERE IS

i cant let this get to me. CANNOT.
i wont let this blind me.
im changing this anger into motivation.

i'll show you what i can do.

-dedicated to those who are in living hell because of this DAMNED legacy.-

2008-05-13T16:59:00.000+08:00

tissue has decided to add a tinge of blue to tis blog
blue is a cooling colour
we should make the earth a clean and green and blue place.

yesterday morning was nyshooting's first pt in dunno-how-many-months
and i am so glad to announce tat the juniors owned us at captain's ball (:
dammit mua lets work on it.
stupid jinny is like -muffin man- so proud
okay lor.

anyway i realise girls really cannot play soccer
not tat i like it or sth
wah tis morning our class playing soccer
its like crazy
everyone was screaming until end of the world
ball nearing goal also AHHHHHHHHHH
ball fly too far away also AHHHHHHHHH
kik everywhere but cannot kik the ball also AHHHHHHHHH
where ever the ball goes everyone on the field will be screaming
okay and i admit i was screaming too
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
to me its like. screaming is the onli fun part about soccer
other den screaming it should be kiking ppl's shoes/foot/legs
cos i kik everywhere but the ball
i din do tat on purpose..

and i got tis feeling coach is treating us like how hc coach has been treating tat certain batch of ppl
*side track*

oh and i jus came home to realise tat my dog is like stuck in the toilet for the whole day
as in get locked inside cannot come out
not stuck in the toilet bowl omg.
so poor thing ><
lucky i came home early today

im going for choir concert on FRIDAY~
which means no trning
but theres no lanes anyway
by going for choir concert doesnt mean im singing in the concert
HAHAHAHA i bet audiences mus be like -heng ar-
u noe tats a negative side of having laopos in performing arts
i get blackmailed/threatened to go to the concerts
if not they divorce me.. HOW CAN LIKE TAT ONE
so okay lor at most my ears get tortured a bit by the sopranoes
but i should be okay since taymua's voice is so shrill yet i still lived through it
minmin say i should go join them in their glass shattering concert
hahahahaha maybe i can
but i will bring a wooden club or sth and smack
YAY WIN ALREADY
so smart
tissue is getting smarter and smarter
cannot blame lar. born genius not my fault =D =D

the spongebob still scares me everytime i walk into my room.
and i jus realise the baby pooh's head is like DAM BIG if i take off the hood
and ahning!! the sweets in the teddy can refill? (:

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2008-05-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

zomg.. its THAT time of the YEAR where people have to start getting on my nerves

every year got peak season then people who are irritating start to appear right in my face-.-'

im serious.. zzz. normally i jus take them as here. like. "ah. orh. ok"

then when this time comes these people seem to bother me so much i just dont like it.

eeeeeeee

have a VERY super big urge to splash their names on the blog and just flame them but i think i'd be wasting my time.

just 4 ppl get on my nerves.

INCREMENT FROM LAST YEAR

WOW =.=

its not even ppl who i would be expected to not like lor.

its like. ahhh forgetit lol..shall stop rubbishing

anw the main point wasnt to blog about my super irritative phase of the year

the main point was to make something clear.

nyshooters are strong. dont try to bring us down to your level because you are bored. we are not so wu liao so dont come in trying to make us self destruct cause we wont let that happen. get it? i think your plan was successful to a certain extent, successful in making me reconsider who you really are.

see now i sound like such a retarded person cause im talking about ppl like you. i shall stop. you are a horrible person. and im not afraid to say it.

anw.. to another group of people do not worry about our club's future.

we're fine. DUDE. =.=

the only reason why youre worrying about our future is because you got nothing to say about our current situation. im sure you guys were worried about our batch too. and we turned out fine. =.=

we wont crumble cause we've got great seniors like kaiyun and xinmei and xinxi to guide us and remind us of who we are. theyve been my pillar of support (and many others, i bet) so youre not gonna see any interesting sights of our club crumbling. disappointed?

lastly: JIAYOU FOR NJC SHOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!! my CDIV BABIES. xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

wont abandon you la... i lied to you. haha of COURSE WE'LL BE THERE. just not sitting behind you =] haha

also.. JIAYOU FOR NATIONALS. PEOPLE NATIONALS ARE COMING~~~~~~

dont we all just love nationals..

hahaha we'll be talking to you guys more about it soon ^^v after our babies are done with the njc shoot

gogo nysc haha nysc. ok nvm about that. WE ARE NYSC TOOOOO

try your best. aim for the sky and shine like a star. because nyshooters can.

--muachee

2008-05-05T22:36:00.002+08:00

Saw this from 413's class blog.
HAHA their class blog is freaking hilariousssssssss.
Okay this is just to uh.publicize this.video.
Ultimate zainesssssssss :D

Kay shall post a proper post soon.
Hehe :P

2008-05-01T08:44:00.000+08:00

hi babes!
hahaha about time i posted right?
right right?
HAHA. yah right.

hmmmm
ok
lets start with the lunch ytd
*-*
lol. amazing man..
so after trying to gather everyone, we decided to start figuring out what bus to take to..
beauty world.
and before i knew what was going on...
a bunch of hci-ers decided to board 151! yay! which probably does not lead to beauty world i guess..
after that.. alex decided to board 74! yay! haha and we blindly followed.
bah.
then.. kaiyun found out that her wallet was in her shoe bag which was with xinmei!! yay!!!!
=.=
then a whole bunch of phone calls were being made and we couldnt decide on whether to eat at kap or at beauty world because some ppl were here and some ppl were there and some havent even board the bus yet.
lol.

summary of the trip:
1. i walked from KAP to beauty world to eat MACS. HAHAHA i feel retarded.
2. acc to jinny, we got called liu2 ming2s on the bus. lol. the impatient and un-understanding bus driver. me does not like you. btw dont call ppl names that you cant even pronounce properly. =.=
3. i finally know where beauty world is
4. we could actually fit into a venue! macs. at beauty world. very amazing right? cause everyone was at kap so all the seats were empty. =.= haha
5. alex got dumped! :] stupid ryan trying to make himself feel less guilty by saying that alex told him he felt out of place and thus pushing the blame to us. whatever lorrrr who was the one who abandoned his teammate first huh??? haha
6. i realised how i couldve lost the locker KEYS when i dropped my ezlink card. was pretty pissed at myself because of dropping my stuff. shiing does not lose stuff :[ i didnt but i couldve been more careful laaa. so i transfered the keys to my back. smarter choice.. hahaha
btw shiing was nv overweight.. in primary school is quite severely underweight go secondary school abit better only. now im acceptable weight! hahaha. the photo not my problem is those ppl nv enlarge proportionately. never really needed slimming sessions. HAHAHA jealous not? i was a stick all the while. LOL
7. alex got owned by me and jacjac baby~ in cs! haha cause we all didnt know how to play pool. cept alex la duh. i play until damn happy dno why also. LOL
8. training. hahaha. losing stamina to shoot 80shots at one go. shiing has to get back on the 80shots pace

finish!
hahahaa
at least i blogged.
btw
i really want a new nanyang rock. or you can do it on a treee.
by next week. anyinterested babies who would like to witness the birth of our new baby can contact me or zijin or eening and we will plan a good, auspicious day. ok? note that the babies onyl apply to nyshooters so even if outsiders want also cannot HAHAHAHA.

my dear babies..
after 2 gruelling hours at safra (1hour was spent trying to get uncleleong out of his office =.= nygh girls and teachers sooooo patient), we have confirmed the training dates!
xDDD
we'll inform you guys soon!
we SHALL NOT WILL NOT repeat the same mistake as last year. no lane no lane go there waste time.
but be understanding ok? cause not everyone can train at the same time de..
if you happen to be there when there are no lanes walk around or do work or sleep. but best is to check with coach before plonking your butt at safra to avoid such cases.
i love my babies!! xDDDD ok fine fine. laopo and darling alsoooooo. hahaha

babies who missed team lunch ytd.. we'll be having team lunches every wednesday at the canteen near the fruit stall table ok? please make it down and i expect ppl to be there because we have team spirit! :] awww anyway i know ppl will be there cause their eyes lit up when they heard about it =]] about the lunch with graduated seniors.. we'll find a way to go about it again in june or may ok?
haha

btw.

this hair issue is so hot right now.
everyone has funny hair to talk about.
hahaha im hearing alot about hair lately.
1. COACH! explosion.
2. COACH's haircuts so badly screwed by singapore hairstylists.. hahaha im serious. she looked better last time.
(two different coaches ok? figure out by yourself)
3. COACH daughter de hair! all stand stand one!! so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
4. my hair. yes i will go cut my fringe...
5. zijin's hair! doesnt seem to be growing at all...
6. eening's hair! yes dear i know you are gonna cut it in two months. right? my memory so good
HAAHAHA
SEE??? the issue about hair???? the topic is so hot la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wait i can add one more
7. another coach in safra has also decided to change her hairstyle and get curls instead of the long straight hair which she had for the past how many years?

haha ok shall stop crapping about hair...

nothing else to say le.

seeya! random post.. how long has it been since i was last random?
hmmmmm....

i love my babies!

2008-04-27T20:28:00.001+08:00

Hmmmm.
Sorry no words.
Videos :D

They're kinda morbid though.
Well.
Two of them. :P

(turn up your volume for this one :D)

Sorry lah.
I like them.
Cannot meh :x
And sorry had to borrow this blog to post them cause my own blog cannot show videos one.
>.>

Training at Safra.
Yay?

...Solitudes again.
Sigh.

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2008-04-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

on 24th March 2007..
tissue and taymua officially declared the birth of the
NANYANG ROCK!!
on 25 April 2008..
tissue and taymua was walking along the yishun resevoir
so coincidentally that the area isnt cordon off anymore
so coincidentally tat its 晴天 jus like the birthday of nanyang rock.
so coincidentally that it is exactly 1 year 1 month and 1 day from its birthday
and so purely-non-coincidentally nanyang b'div 08 will get 1st for nationals. (:
TAYMUA LETS WORK HARDER TOGETHER~
*tissue waves pompom*
*tissue pulls taymua to wave pompom*
*whole of nyshooting waves pompom!!*

okay anyway
today is like SO COOL.
dammit
okay so after trning mua and i were walking out to the busstop
mua: -points outside- LOOK ITS CAROL
tissue: walao eh i noe u bluffing me de lor
mua: eh how come u noe..
den we walk walk outside
tissue reach the busstop first!
and i look around..
-tio stun-
-turns around and look at taymua-
-taymua came out and look around-
-tio shock-
okay so carol is really at the busstop
TAYMUA IS SUPER SPOT ON
she says shes having a psychic day
okay i think so too
so to make use of the psychic day mua decided to say
"OKAY WE CONFIRM WIN ALREADY TIS YEAR"
hahahahahahahha YES AND I BELIEVE TAT WILL COME TRUE

and so the 3 of us waited together at the busstop for 852
suddenly..from the horizon
a toot little bus face appeared
852!
okay so we flag and board
no wait we flagged and squeezed on board*
den soon at the junction after the coronation plaza..
the 852 din turn left!
it went straight ahead instead
AND SOON WE REALISE ITS 171
okay dam stupid
3 ppl see 1 bus can see wrong together
and i was still asking the uncle EH WAD BUS IS TIS
the uncle is like DUNNO WAD BUS TIS IS DEN U STILL TAKE?!
wah the face throw until like shotputt/discus/javelin already
so at last we took mrt to yishun.
hahahahahahaha WTHH

den we went safra to settle a lot of rubbish in preparation for monday's migration
saw sufen the celery -pure sidetrack-
safra din really change a lot..
except the ppl there not veri familiar anymore
but the safra uncle calvin and uncle leong STILL THE SAME
i really hope they can jus try to change for the better..
okay anyway
we saw coach zhangsy.
im sorry but really i have to comment on her new hair
ITS AMAZING.
amazingly atrocious i mean.
like maggie maggie fuzzy wuzzy
*fuzzy wuzzy likes apple but dun like orange!*
*fuzzy wuzzy likes shiing but dun like zijin!*
*fuzzy wuzzy likes nyshooting but dun like hciarc!*
-sorry tats purely sidetrack too-
but ya shiing and i a bit dunno wad to say when we see the hair.

oh from daxiang..
he says tat due to the fact tat nj will be taking in sec1 next year
(some ip program)
they r not allowed to be called national junior college anymore
SO THEY R CHANGING NAME
called.
Hill Crest Institution.

hey hwachong!
look out for ur twin!
i think their shooting club will be called sth like HCIARC
LOL WELL DONE EVERYONE

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